HAPPY NEW YEAR

go on...try clicking the link and amuse urself with fireworks

HAPPY NEW YEAR, my friends!!! love all of u....

http://www.show-my.info/SER/holidays/my/

p/s: the link's from a friend....

bye bye 2005

today is the 29 and in exact 30 days, and rght in the morning of 28 Jan 2006, i'll be flying to Penang and experience a wedding ceremony!!! The wedding ceremony shall be of my own sister and my bro-in-law. How cool and weird is that...just a month away...wow!!!! =D

so either way, my christmas was boring! thanks to my father who insisted me to help him with the house cleaning thing and keeps getting mad everytime i say i wanted to go out n meet my friends. ...........haih!!!

and btw, class is starting again next week. did i tell u about the practical training thing i'm required to do for this semester. well, yeah..it's part of the journey to get diploma in MIA. and for the past week, i've been worried about placing myself in a company who'll accept me to train me and at last i got a calling bell. now i just got to wait for the big Boss to call me over. hope things will work out fine.

and yeah, two more days to approach 2006 and wow!!! i'm gonna be 20..and it sounds REAaallllyyyy really OLD!!! *cough**cough** hehehe...but yeah..who might've guessed..i'm growing day by day...even i can't believe...phew!!!

striking 2006, i guess, me placing myself in the design company will be an excitement to me. then, my sister getting married and leaving me enough space in this big house....hihhi... i wonder what else is to come...
and yeah i still can't seem to be getting a driving license( urghhh!!)..i should figure out this one myself...
and yeah..i'll be graduating end of this year too..end of my studies in MIA.. :D cool!!!
ok, that's all folks...now i'll go enjoy surfing the tv channels...goodnight...

just us again....isnt it cool??? :D
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note the small santa hats...that's the one i mentioned earlier in previous posts...
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another set. but same building. actually the theme in midvalley is just so pretty that everybody are busy snapping the pictures....its PRETTY!!! there was also an igloo there made with white balloons....pretty and creative...
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the same gang again....add cathryn(cat) in pink
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white christmas in midvalley: eric, fish, me, sean, teoh :D
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forwarded mail from a friend

Think about these one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one...
IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD, especially the thought at the end.

NATURAL HIGHS

1. Being in love.

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.

3. A hot shower.

4. No queues at the supermarket.

5. Taking a drive on a pretty road.

6. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.

7. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

8. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

9. Chocolate milkshake ... (or vanilla ... or strawberry!)

10. A bubble bath.

11. Giggling.

12. A good conversation.

13. Finding a £20 note in your coat from last winter.

14. Running through sprinklers.

15. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

16. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.

17. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

18. Waking up and realising you still have a few hours left to sleep.

19. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

20. Having someone play with your hair.

21. Sweet dreams.

22. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.

23. Holding hands with someone you care about.

24. Running into an old friend and realising that some things (good or bad) never change.

25. Watching the _expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.

26. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

27. Knowing that somebody misses you.

28. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.

29. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.



Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.

Inspiration to blog…..

A-haaaa…..well, everytime there’s something that moves my heart, touches my soul or disturbs my mind, I’ll blog. This time ………..KING KONG did the work.
So let me start…
*ahem **…..OH MY GOODNESS…is that a BLOCKBUSTER movie or what???? It totally ROCKS!!!!! It’s soooooo “WOW”!!!!!! well, I just watched it. Today. On the first day of it’s public screening. And well..well…. PETER JACKSON is GOOOOOOOD!!!!! And I LOVE THE MOVIE!!!!!! I didn’t really like King Kong, the character, at first but somehow as the movie takes phase, Kong is quite adorable …well…Y-E-ah…it protects you no matter what and fights till the end (talk about the stupid flesh eating dinasour__uhm, something trynosaurus…that creature deserved it’s fate). swoosh woosh*** AAAAAAAAHHHH…I LOVE KING KONG!!!!!!! Or am I just talking with my “shock sendiri” feeling???? NO!!!!! I LOVE KING KONG!!!!! Talk about the dinosaurs, the creatures, the natives, the pretty NAOMI WATTS (come to think, she actually looks like Nicole Kidman), the ever so handsome Adrien Brody, the pain-in-the-a** Jack Black(man, he’s annoying…always been) ….AAAAAHHHHH…I love KING KONG, though I have a small request….i wish King Kong will squash Jack Black’s character with it’s mighty fist!!!! Hehehe…..if only…
anyhow… I’m having a high fever!FEVER with the movie =D do u want me to repeat again????… I LOVE THE MOVIE SO DAMN MUCH!!!!!!!! If u say that it’s another addition to The Lord of the Rings..i would agree coz they are both “WOW”. Just that both movies have their own style. AAAAARGGHHHHH!!!!movies are making me crazy…… :D
u just need money to contribute back to the film makers…esp. for this type of movie…it’s so worth every cent to watch on cinema.


As for today, I’ll never regret watching the movie. Maybe the only thing that I did wrong today is troubling and causing tension with my parents. And they in return. Yup! The movie was at 430pm(what can I say??? it’s king kong, man)…and it’s at midvalley..and movie ended at 730+ above..and I need my dad to fetch me. So as u can guess, living in this home, to play by their rules, curfew time are at 8pm itself(almost). Plus n minus or whatever, my mom never misses checking out on me from time to time. Even when she knows I am watching the movie inside the theathre and the movie’s ending.... she still insists upon knowing my wherebys. How lovely of her…. butttt… give me a break….if my closely related siblings(*ahem*my bro n sis, of coz :P) know this, they will say..that’s the way things are here and u don’t try to rebel…cause you just can’t grow your own wings yet. Well, what can I say??? I have to prevent myself from watching movies at a late hour or somewhere far. But it’s just too TEMPTING…u know, I’m spoilt when it comes to watching movies, esp. the real GOOD ones…IT”S JUST TOO TEMPTING. Besides, what more can be fun than watching the movie with a bunch of friends?????

P/s: MidValley is really BEAUTIFULLY decorated with it’s Christmas theme…..i could feel Christmas in there…with snow minus the people. And b4 I forget, I bought something for myself…yeah, it’s a small Christmas hat which costs RM1.50 and it’s as big as 4cm(roughly said, as the hat is with Sean now)…hihih…cute isn’t it…I’ll show in the pictures coming soon…. And btw, Sean spoilt my hat’s pin-point-fluffy-ball….. :P

=D assessments over...

my interior design studio assessment is over. and those pictures below are the result of my 3d MAx(modeling software) knowledge. thanks to Doreen(my 3ds Max lecturer). well those views are the spaces from my IDproject. a retail store. Timberland's retail store. so do u feel timberland in there??
anyhow..when the lecturers commented, once again i don't feel that i did a "wow" job. but that's the best i could(but i would love to have more time). I think the design is direct. they think that the space could be better designed. they think Timberland's logo is pretty(sheesh). they think some method's are nto possible. they say my computer skills need to be improved. i nod and nod and smile and smile in return. i was thinking... i still have a lot to learn.

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clothes area
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footwear area
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RAGE!!!!

y is it that everytime i fix a time forsomething, i never seems to keep it rght..
here i am rght now...trying so badly to finish my construction drawing(it's a subject which takes a lot of time since we need to draw with rulers and technical pens and stencil) but i can't seem to doing so czo i missed a step... shit!shiT!! aaaAAARGGGHHH!!!! i wanted to finsih them today so that i can concentrate on my 3d max tomorrow....but.....but....hope seems to fail...and i am fed up with that subject...and it's tiny little details...and tell me about those pens....it costs a lot(rm40 to buy one) but it also gets spoilt easily: if u can't take care of it. as long as i remember i'm careful with it.....but somehow when i wanted to refill the ink yesterday, the ink spilled on my shirt, staining me and then it gets spoilt.....i wonder how on earth that happen.... darn...
now....since i missed that step ,i have to take more time to fix the problem..haih!!!! i HATE CONSTRUCTION DRAWING......!!!!!!!! thank GOd...i won't have to take teh subject anymore .... i'm sick of that subject and sick of spending long time on it....
i just want to finish for once and never look back at it.....coz the submission is on monday and that will be the end of it. till i open it the next time...AAARGHH!!! @#%#%@%!^#^#^#@

"O"

it's really chilly nowadays. one can just hibernate throughout the day.
anyhow....i cant wait for dec 14..that means holiday's starting. narnia n king kong to watch. ;P hihih...
n end of the year is approaching.... how fast!!!! and also christmas... not that i celebrate..but i love christmas......

:D :D :D

assessments starting next week...
3dmax(3d software) is hard to handle with..mayb i just need time...
i hate furniture lessons.that's coz of the "ooohh-he-is-so-smart" lecturer. const.drawing_phew!!! that's a tough one...
holidays starting dec14...then to practical training......
I"M growing..it's unbelievable..

that day i met this friend of mine...faiza(we were going to watch mr.potter togetehr with hui ling)...and she was like..."u look the same, loshini..i thought designers should have a style or something....."(well, she meant something like that la....) and i was like ..wut the heck???? i'm comfortable like this...and i need to show the world who am i??? i'm not even at a stable level of being called a designer...i'm just a student who is learning to be one...sheesh!!! so wut more can i say??? :D...people and their perceptions...

the gang at my house_deepavali lunch_filled tummy till its bloated :D
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; /

well...in two days.."this person" said to me indirectly.... "i hate your mother..also" *also-refers to me* and the other thing is....." i can't stand the people in this house". thank you and i LOAThe "the person"....hate. hate. hate.

poor Meeeee!!!!!!!!

and as i'm typing here, my other friends are actually in college rushing their drawings. yes, i've skipped class. once again. y?? well, for one.. i couldn't complete my drawing.and so in fear of that i decided t oskip th class. so y i couldn't complete my drawing??? that's coz nowadays my mind can't seem to be helping me to keep awake all night. i'm WEAK!!! my mind keeps calling me to sleep and at the same time guilt runs inside me. i tried sleeping fro two hours and then to wake up but nothing seems to be working. i do wake up but i end up sleeping on the table itself instead of doing my work. so...how on earth other people get to do their work is beyond my thinking. i never thought i'll have this kind of problem. it sounds silly. but then, there it is. making me skip classes. making me look weak. it's just damaging my image. giving bad impression on me. this friend of mine called me today at around 12 noon asked me y i didnt go to class...and i was arguing that the class is only at 130 pm what, y asking me so early. and then to my surprise, he told me that the class starts at 11 lah....Y goodness, i felt like collapsing. HOW ON EARTH could i have missed tbe time???
i am really looking forward the deepavali-hari raya's one week long holiday. i know it sounds too much..but i need a break. i need to organize myself. i know i've been saying that for a very very long time. but...i need the change.
tonight, i, once again have to stay at fish(sook yee)'s house to do the case study. it's agroup work. and w gotta complete it for tomorrow. mayb if i'm with some company, at least i'll be able to stay awake.

cruel people....

in the world of designers..especially in malaysia...i think it's a world where it's hard to survive. it's either they are stingy( money s**ckers) or they are just racist. don't try to convince me that malaysiais a racist free country. i can see it clearly in the souls of chinese..so called malaysians. those people who thinks they are the best and none other can b better than them. that attitude is making my life harder.coz i'm worried on how i'll survive as an interior designer in malaysia upon graduating. they are also makingme believe that even if u speak terribly broken english...one can still survive and make lot's of money. and one
also need to learn chinese in order to survive. i'm speaking my mind out just because of the one terrible experience ihad at the recent designers exhibition i attended at the PWTC. it's a combination for interiors and architectures. those people in charge of their designated booth's can b classified into two. one who's really genorous. the other is the one where they r "pigs", they are sickos with a big shell covering them. those who r genorous just gives out or
tell u anything about the design world.they just give u all teh brochures they have. but, those pigs-inside a big shell will try any way to shoo u off...let's say by handing us few of the little mini notepads or even to give us their i'm-not-gonna-attend-to-u-so-leave-now face. ugh!!!! terribly sick people all around us!!! they clearly discriminates students. thinking we are leeches!!!sheesh!!
wanna know the other type?? this type is a racist!!! there's this bl**dy "chinese" man who keeps giving out brochures to all teh passers by but then he didn't give a damn when i passed. and i was like,hmm..mayb it's just my imagination. but wut teh heck??!!! when my friends passed him, he willingly gave them the brochures and bowed at them to enter the booth. note my word..BOWED!!!!! seriously, he's another sicko!!!! now i'm thinking, y didn't i ask him the brochure myself and if he declined, i would had put a fight with words.i'm sure he'll be speechless...URGHHH!!!!
see..even right now, i'm still offenced wit the way that "man" treated me. i think, it's really unfair. i think, how am i going to work here??
u see, i'll be having my practical training end of this year. i'm worried about that as well. coz i know i'll have problem finding a company. and yeah, another truth i learnt as well is...one need to be connected with other designers, know them as well..coz people like that will surely "help"...
darn cruel people..hate them all...

hello..hello..it's been a while since i dropped by here...
been busy. besides, there was no inspiration to blog. :P
i was busy, rght?? well, it's all because of the competition we are required to enter.
it's the competiton to decorate Berjaya Times Square with all four main celebration: HAri Raya, CNY, X-MAS and DIWALI. and it's a group work.and no doubt, since i'm the only indian existing in that class...i'm decorating Times Square into an Indian's place. i'm doing Deepavali with FIshy(sook yee). i tell u what... in malaysia, this festival's decoration is very rare to b found..almost la.i'm not saying there's none..
so it's quite hard to present the task. besides everybody's thinking that indians have a VERY VERY bad taste in decoration. there's a friend of mine saying that Indian's preference when it comes to colour is hideous. i couldn't agree more. but then there ARE some of their colours or even their traditions reflects a sense of beauty. let's say..uhm...some of their richly woven sarees(those which is in red with golden borders). then, their traditional "kolam" or "rangoli"(it's those patterns made on floor with coloured rice"...then their symbolic peacock feathers and their earthen lamps alligned on the stairs. that's too name few...


did i drift away from the topic??? anyhow...wut i'm trying to say is that traditons are uncovered...so don't judge baselessly. i'm saying this to myself too..but i'm not defending indians either. :D
so, the presentaton is tomorrow...i(we) did what we can afford to do. but mayb the ideas aren't so outstanding...so in case i we lose...does thatt concluded that i'm a loser???ya..after all i am brought up in an indian's world..just recently taht i'm drifting apart...
anyhow...i wish for the best...coz i think the whole group did a fantastic and a hardwork on this project...so i think our sweat should be paid...

=D

i can't believe that a one week break can pass by just like that. it's just too fast. i believe i used it wisely. by sleeping, by dreaming, by forcing myself to complete my assignments, by learning few things, etc..but it's simply not enough.
the ramadan month is here. and deepavalli is around the corner too. and christmas too :P but when it's celebatin christmas..i guess i'll be doing my practical training. i wonder where will that be.

as for for another matter, mary u remember that u tag-o-matic-ed me...well i tried giving feedback but it seems like my answers are being influenced by yours...so i think its better to give myself some time and then to try again.

an aquatic adventure

29 August 2005. it was a day to remember….

*we= me, sook yee, teoh, cathryn, pui lin, debi and phylicia

8.30am_we* were attending ID studio class

around 12_I was having a nyummy delicious lunch of chicken chop rice with lemon +salad sauce+wedges + Chinese tea with the others

and soon_ we were all at KLCC’s Convention Centre with excite and also with the urge of discovering aquatic life!!! Yup “, we were at Aquaria, KLCC. The latest indoor aquarium in the city. The ticket was RM 20. and I’ll tell you what…it was so worth it for every cent. Well, mayb cause we were still very much like a little kid at heart and we were so amazed with everything we saw that we just couldn’t argue more about the price. Seriously speaking, it was a fun ride all the way. I don’t think any of us realized how far we have walked nor spent the time taking pictures. I don’t think we even realized when we were walking in rounds, making a pause everytime we saw something interesting or also when we stood at one place for long. Did u guys?? Hihihi…that exciting wasn’t it? Of course we were tired but that’s only after we made an almost complete round. But yet, we were still ok with the idea of making another round at the tunnel. Well, if I could, I wouldn’t leave the place. And yes, take note…. the famous word in science that we learnt during our schooling years totally apply here..and that’s….pembiasan(malay)…refraction in English, isn’t it?? I think so… well yeah…when you can see the big turtle from above the tank, the turtle is nowhere to be seen when you are near the tank and looking below the water level. It’s like a magic show or something =P hihihi…silly me…besides, the curved glass at the tunnel did the trick too. But well, nothing can break my enthusiasm to feel the nature at heart. And photographs are totally allowed…so here’s a recap of what I remember…note: though my captions are for real, the pictures may not.*ahem, thanks to mr.teoh(our cameraman) and others**...hahaha….that’s cause I want u guys to have the urge to visit the place again although the ticket price had been raised(merdeka is over!!)

this is the first tank of fish that greeted us. Well, what I remember about this fish is that it can reach till 150cm. So it was wrote there. Well yes I saw few fishes that were long�but 150cm is a WOW!!! All I know is that those fishes are trying to reach 150 but there�s none yet inside there�

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:P
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and this is a fish called..uhm..uhm..�grass-snake�[the name�s not4real]�it can climb tree and it�s very slim..yeah!that�s rght..u can check it out urself�it�s posing just nice!!well,what�s it doing in an aquarium world???�I�ve no idea myself!!! Mayb its part of the educational thing or etc�dun ask me..i�ve never liked snakes�although I think that some snakes are cute..like the one in this picture =D
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as for this picture�well., this is the tiniest frog I�ve ever seen,. I wonder if it had any history where its cousins were stepped by us humans when venturing out in the jungle. Coz, seriously u can�t be aware of its presence in that dark place.

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And this is mr. I- can-blend-with dead-leaves frog� =D I�m sure u�ve seen it in mags or even internet.

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Go figure. Where�s the stick insect??
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And yes, one of the amazing sight�.the whirlpool of fishes which circulates inside a large glass tube. Check it out�.the fishes varies in shape. Totally amazing. It�s under the area called �Malaysian forest��

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phew!!!a sight to behold!!!
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This is supposed to be the big tortoise(at the darkest side) I wrote earlier but since its really deep down�I dun think we get to capture that.

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p.r.e.t.t.y
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Hihhi..meet the friendly ray. Hihhi.seriously I dunno wut it�s trying to do but it keeps reaching the water�s edge and to me it looks like it� trying to jump out of its designated space and ......to us....(ROTFL)

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and that's us....the black fish further back is me.and there's orange fish as well, and pink and green and light pink and fuchsia...WUTEVER!!!
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wheeee!!!*bubble**bubble** wheee!!! **
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bleah!^@!&@#&!@
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bleah!!!
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and THIS..well, here's one of the hero who takes care of the aquarium. and he takes care by brushing the corals wit toothbrush...hihihi...mark my words n check out urself...
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its smiling isn't it?!?!?! :P
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the favourable creature of all..."nemo" although it's real name is clownfish. hihihi..of course u know y.....
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:P

:P

same place_diff ppl_debi, sook yee(fish), me(me) :P
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inside convention centre_b4 speech starts
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klcc convention centre's unusual ceiling = flows gracefully+ interesting
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two fingers from each person combined together = an unusual star + a diff. pattern
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:P
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klcc convention centre_design forum_ken shuttleworth(architect,etc)_ID sem4 students
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'_'

hula-hoo!!!...well..here i am...after the assessment...after having 4 hour of sleep...now starting on another assignment to hand in tomorrow... well for some other good news...my lect was being cool and lets us to hand in a different assignment after the holidays...yup!! mid sem break is here...starting next week...
btw...how was assessment???...tell u what..this is the first time that i felt it as a one easy process...know y??... coz the lecturers didnt ask anything...nor do we have to present anything...
now..now...here's my busy schedule...tomorrow's to hand in assignment...mayb catch a movie if i have teh money or money...saturday's to attend 3d max class and later to klcc's convention center to catch this architecture designer who's in malaysia...sunday 's to catch wilyson's graduation at night(dewan bahasa n pustaka) and also to catch up with poh mei n hui ling...yippie...
so good days to me...signing off now...

"bravo to me"

today's assessment...at 930 am...n now its 2.21 am..and i'm ONLINE...what a cool me...(bleah!)...anyway..tehre's still a lot to colour(render) and a stupid darn model to model but then i totally lost interest in it..
i wonder y..no matter how many times i've reminded myself about time management, i realize that the problem is still very much there. man!!!man!!!..how?? how ??how??

my work

Today, I had my critique session. And I did what I could afford to do. And it wasn’t so bad afterall. Of course, I need to make adjustment on the space plan (it’s an office) but it wasn’t that bad. I regained my interest in making the office a better space. Hihi! Thanks to the book that I bought: WITHIN OFFICE and thanks to several site visits that we made; PDI Consultancy & Design and Maju Holding’s office situated on top of Maju Junction (note: picture below is taken in the engineer dept.’s meeting room). By the way, the assessment is on 28 September. That’s like in a half a week…phew!!!! Close! Close!

d%$n excuses....

people who said that they r stupid are the stupidest people i've ever known. coz i think that it's their biggest pretend into creating a stupid lame excuse. well, i'm telling this by experience. example, can't find informations coz their english isn't good. can't seem to find the exact information that's needed. that's also coz "they" are stupid(that's wut "tehy" told me). "they" can't understand english and so "they" just cut and paste whatever that comes with the name that have to be researched and later to tell me that adjustments are needed to the reports from teh so-called informations. ugh!!!lame!lame!lame!

haih!!!!

so listen to me once again...i'm going to grumble about the interior design project i have to complete for semester4.the project given is something that didn't quite grab my attention. it's to design a design consultant office. phew! what a bore!!! now, i just feel like giving up on that. finding a concept is totally a hard job. what's with a concept anyway???the interior consultant office [PDI], i visited last saturday, doesn't even have a concept in their designed office..it was in fact more to feng shui. well, i won't deny..there are designs where concepts are applied. but there are also designs whre the concepts are just for the sake of it.
rght now, this office project is really making me sick...and i feel like giving up...i just don't feel good...haihhh!!! how tough!! well it seems to me that i'm lazy..but
i think that's not the only factor...it's also about the interest...it's also about no matter how much time i put, i just can't seem to get to the exact point..so i just take a break and continue later...and it goes forever................and soon the cycle repeats again...

case study_maju holdings_cathryn, sook yee, pui lin, me =D
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SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI MERDEKA

happy national day, to all malaysians.......god bless malaysia
and i could never be more proud to say that i'm a malysian...peace

same place. same people. different pose.
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McDonald's(near MIA).frm left: SEAN, ERIC, PUI LIN, TEO TEOH, me, FISH, CAT blocked by WILYSON.... =P
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hooray....

whoa...after all this while..its only now that i could figure out how to add links...sheesh!sheesh! well, my bad..but at least now i know how to...but there's still one tiny problem..i need to get the colours rght...however i'm happy for my achievement today..yippie!!!! so the next goal is to set a tag board...it'll b easier to send msges..

p/s:those links were set up by referring to mary's page's page source...

check it out...

http://www.doctorathome.com/love/love.php?e=h-p4wewof4-_y5whbj-y

well, this is a link to find some connection with the love of ur life...just check it out...
p/s: i'm not a "busybody"....hihihi!!!!

;P

watching " the Lord OF the RIngs: the fellowship of the rings and the two towers" was one of the thing that i did during this break. and just let me put it this way....phew! that movie is just outstandingly magnificent. no matter how many times i watch it, LOTR just gives me the wow! factor. i wonder if u guys agree with me!!! seriously speaking,the movie is worth everything; the actors- from elijah wood to viggo mortensen( aragorn) to miranda otto( eowyn), the music score- wow!just tell me about it..certain tracks just gives me the chill and to be more precise, it touches my soul... especially the gollum's song, the battle scenes, the costumes, the sets, the everything. if u r really into this movie, i'm sure u'll understand. LOTR is taken as if its for real. and well tell me silly or not, a little part of me wishes
that i was in that kinda of adventure...hihihi..at least to have a role in there, to be part of the movie. haih! i may not be good in words...if i am , it could definitely help express myself more. coz this movie is just too great to be expressed plainly. well, yeah yeah, i know...LOTR's days are over. the fever is no longer there. but if you just watch it all over again..it'll b a story remebered forever. and i couldn't say more about it grabing all its OSCAR nominations..how many was it? 11? 9? well forget about the quantity and talk about the quality,i'll say that LOTR lived up to every bit of it.
and now, i shall keep this as my dream...to own THE LORD OF THE RINGS trilogy DVD's..original...all on my own..so that it'll b my preciousss..to be with me forever..and i shall be buried with them..ooopss..i'm getting "shocked sendiri" huh? hihih...but yeah...i'll get them soon...as soon as i can..no matter how old i get...if i forget about it...well,this entry will remind me. so....that's it folks!

my angels

yesterday when i was so tired and fed up, i thought about getting a nap for an hour but it turned out to be that i ignored my handphone's alarm ring and the cold(i didn't even cover myself wit blanket coz i went to bed wit the thought i'll wake up in an hour!!!) and slept as long as i can. till my sister came to me and i heard some kinda mumbling noise and soon she tucked me into bed. tucked me by the way that she covered me with the comforter, asking me to just go to sleep and wake up the next morning. i mean... that was really sweet of her. when i actually thought wut happened yesterday, it really touched my heart. just that..i am guilty that i didnt complete my work. but she is so,so, so sweeeeettt....and so she's my angel.
so is phylicia....a friend of mine who is in the same college..guiding me to finish up my perspective drwgs..giving me ideas....wishing us good lucks....the way she's concerned touched my heart too..so here i say..good luck to her too...

=/

have u ever come to a point of life where u'll b thinking," y do we huv to work so hard, be successful, earn lots of money,etc just to end up being dead?". well i was. while i was standing in the bus. the reason i was thinking like that was because i'm down. and the reason i'm down is because of this interior design; the cyber cafe(CC) project. i lost confidence after the mid sem project. that was a disaster(believe me!). i thought this CC is gonna be the same to. and i was thinking that i'm actually failing in my mission to b a better designer. but later, the project became interesting..ha!so i believed. but i was slow in everything. lack of self discipline.rmmbr? i drew perspectives and showed my friend lecturer today when he dropped the bomb saying he don't see my concept in the space(my concept is dream). that totally threw me off. if i wanna change the space again and draw the perspectives again, i'll b totaly devastated. but there's no concept. so wut should i do? so turning back to the question y we working so hard?...well i'm so-called putting all my effort on this field. i feel like quitting but wut else is there do? life isnt jsut easy to survive especially if tehre's no money..and so everybody gotta work no matter they like it or not and live a life just to end up being dead. if there's some people who can make him/herself..well at least that's worth livng for..but if it's otherwise, wut is the point there? and so...that's wut bugging my head right now. i wanna be good in this. i'm trying but i'm just not reaching there at all. my brother put this kinda perspective inside my head. so is my sis. and now i'm also learning a bit about it from this guy friend of mine, Sean.
y live life hard till sacrifice joy? hmmm....but if all is joy..that'll b another story with its cons.
right now...cyber cafe project should b my concern. and yes....my semester 3 isn't going really great. it's more to thrashy than improving. and i'm really worried about that.

'',

still one week to go for interior design: cyber cafe project's assessment. the BIG day is on next monday.one thing for sure is... i won't b sleeping the day before that. that is some kind of ritual on every assessment that i do. not only me but eevryone else who's in the same place as mine. and after the assesment, we'll go back home and take a bath n eat and will snore away till the next morning-noon.
but rght now..i still huv three perspectives to complete...and presentation technique's colouring and so on n on...haih...fun..yes its fun but its tiring as well
but yes..there's one thing..i need somebody to tell me...erm ..on how to discipline myself. coz that's one problem that is so obvious in me. i realized that and i can see that and i bet others can see that too.

oh no!!!!

yesterday was my critic session for my studio project. we r designing a cybercafe and my concept is dream. wyh dream? coz it's also another state of "not real". so internet-cyber-virtual reality connects somehow with a person's dream.
critic session went bad. real bad. i think i'm really lazy or mayb i'm SERIOUSLY not managing my time wisely. i think it's both. when everybody pasted mre than two A3 butter paper on the wall, i only pasted two. n i was like wut's in the number??? and my lecturer said it's ALL about impression. haih!!!!
and u know wut else?? my lecturer said i'm lazy! and i need to work more!!!! it's so ironic...end of sem2 i was praised for my lecs coz i was't like other indian but here i am , in the end of sem 3 and i'm being commented badly. haih...
i just feel like i'm so gonna fail......

*blink*blink*sob*sob*sob

well, wut can i say?!??!! a very close friend of mine is shifting to a new house! manoghowrii's her name. and she lives like just a 10minutes walkaway. and she's shifting. wahhhhhh!tsk!tsk! nt his house she's moving in..is..is.. so far away..in shah alam.....tsk!tsK! and i can't be walkin there!!!???!!! it'll b crazy! and 2bad that i can't drive! tsk!tsk! sob!sob! besides she's studying in cyberjaya! tsk!tsk! uekkkkk!!!!! haih! to make matter worse, hui ling will be mayb next year too, and poh mei and my sister too! and i'll b all alone..nobody around! lonely, i'm miss lonely, i have nobody, i'm all on my own! sob*sob*

primary school. standard two. i'm far on the right. ai leng's in front me(sitting). faye's third from the left(first standing row). poh mei's sixth from the left(in the same row as me n faye).
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it's all about the feeling......

They were together in the House.

Just the two of them. It was a cold, dark, stormy night. The storm had
come quickly and each time the thunder boomed he watched her jump.

She looked across the room and admired his strong appearance...and
wished that he would take her in his arms, comfort her and protect her
from the storm. She wanted that...more than anything.

Suddenly, with a pop, the power went out... she screamed...he raced to
the sofa where she was cowering.

He didn't hesitate to pull her into his arms. He knew this was a
forbidden union and expected her to pull back.

He was surprised when she didn't resist but instead clung to him.

The storm raged on...as did their growing passion and there came a
moment when each knew that they had to be together.

p/s: as wild as it sound, it's also something passionate...

haih....

haih..class starts again tomorrow. i dunno y but i don't really feel good about that. dunno y....
i'm sad coz holidays over. i'm afraid and also guilty that i still have undone work. but then when is there done homework? i'm afraid of the tasks that will be a given after having a terrible assessment before this holiday. oh, that one was a nightmare! seriously! n i still huv dreams about it. if it's not directly related , than it's indirectly related! it's scary. but then i know it's my fault. my lack of self-discipline. the funny thing is that I realize this flaw but yet i do nothing to improve. and i'll be thinking y need to spoil my holiday with college stuffs. i need a break. n time goes and taa daa..college starts and taa daa...i'm down... some manufacturing defect deep inside me... haih....
if only life would b just entertainment and friends....
and people will b thinking that i'm talking silly.....
haih.......

a flashback to the past

u know, sometimes it's just lovely to have friends around. especially those who r dear to heart. no matter childhood, primary/secondary school or college friends...they just make life better.

like today, i just caught up with my primary school friends: faye liew and ai leng. and of course poh mei's in the picture. well, poh mei is also a primary school friend but its just that we've been closer ever since we were in the same class in form 4.yes!she's also my secondary school friend ;) hahaha.....

and so we were eating in McD (poh mei n i had grilled chicken foldover!nyummy..it's just that the portion is quite big..) and catching up with each other's life and laughing and teasing away and...u know...just having fun. it's so funny to learn that we actually did stuffs that i NOW consider really childish but yet so funny and worth making good memories. and of course little something that happened to us.
-like having little fights and crying coz of that(faye doesn't rmmber making me cry....sheesh!),
-writing biodatas and jotting down who's ur best friend, and who's ur enemy(can u belive that?),
-making plans to set up a restaurant with the name "dash yonkuro-it's a famous car racing cartoon"
-making copies of the cartoon drawn by us and to sell to the others so that we can make up to the amount of the money that was stolen by-dunno-who from the class treasurer which was Faye.haha!hmm..but i dun rmmber whether it worked out...
-of course,who can forget the well known game... "catching-catching" :P running through the school, disappearing here n there, fooling ur friends...haih....wut a life... :)
-and yes..being scolded by the discipline teacher...for no reason...no!there is a reason...she has nothing else to do, that's y...and so she picks on students.i rmmber her scolding me coz the class was noisy and the teacher wasn't there yet. n i was the monitor(too bad for me...).and so she picked on me...darn....- yeah,n that is no sweet memory...
-poh mei who picks on people, ai leng who has this bluish green tupperware cover and her must-have-fishball-after-my-breakfast routine, faye with her tough, cool look..and me...well...uhm..gulp...uhm,wut to say? :)
-my-mom-made nasi lemaks that we had together
-the spooky stories like "nenek kebayan" in the class...uhm..was it outside the class???!!
and also ball jumping all of a sudden on the roof...eeeekkk...spooky but now that i think about it,it's just so doesn't make sense
-yeah, playing "teng-teng" after the school ends. drawing out the boxes on the sand and just jumping all the way..carefree... batu seremban...and all sorts of games there r...
-catching tadpoles with the cup used to come out from the frizzy drink machine
-oh yeah, there was also the trip to melaka..just that i wasn't with them..coz i was in another class but yet we WERE headed to the same destinition... ;)

haih...those were the days. not that i want to turn back time but i JUST enjoy those days. having ur close buddies there.... having a blastin time together...growing up together... and somehow when time passed us by.... things changed. faye and ai leng in a diff school and so were poh mei and I. well we kept in contact but it's just like once-in-a-blue-moon kinda contact. we'll meet in primary school carnivals and that's it. but yet, there we were today in McD, talking to each other and just sharing a good laugh and glancing back/reminiscing on good memories. the bonding(s) emerged again. and all this just made me feel SO grateful to have friends like them. it's just amazing how we can still be sharing laughters/thoughts/or wutever even with the big gap that turned up. who would huv thought that after 12 years we would still b having lunch together? after 12years when each of us are growing up on our own ways and heading 4 our own directions? tell me i'm overeacting and i'll say that's a miracle. thank u God for letting me realize this...thanks for letting me have them as my friends. not only FAYE LIEW, AI LENG n POH MEI but also MARY LIM, MANOGHOWRII, HUI LING n FAIZA! wonderful friends they are :) :P :] ", ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARY LIM .........

this special post is dedicated specially to a very dear friend of mine.....MARY LIM JIA LING who'll b celebrating her birthday today.
for a starter.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MARY! :P
so wanna hear the history of us? so let me begin...i'll make it short,ok?

met in form 2 when "the stupid-school's management" changed my class and her's and put us into one. well i cried coz they did that(chuckles). but then now i'm grateful coz if not there wouldn't be MAry in my friends list (lol). and so... we had all the fun. and of coz some little misundrstandings( well, wut do u expect WHEN we were just 14). but yet we were hanging out together just fine with manoghowrii as well. those were the crazy days. doing crazy stuffs. talking crazy stuffs( u know wut i mean, MARY? :) and all of a sudden one year passed andddddddd she had to move into a new school. and so form 3 was tough but only in the beginning....muahahahaha. and another 3 years passed when all of a sudden(yes,once again!can u believe it?) she flew to USA. and i've always been with the stupid theory that friends can never last when she proved me wrong. all these year and yet we r still keeping in touch. so,see the miracle? well, i CAN :) well. of course..i lose track of her at times but time will come when i'll get to catch up everything about her-WHICH will b pretty soon coz b here soon. hooray!

so till then..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY,MARY LIM JIA LING! huv a great time.........

experienced the force, i have *ahem,ahem* !!!!

:) a day in times square. watched STAR WARS III: THE REVENGE OF THE SITH. hanged out and had fun with my friends (hui ling, poh mei and manoghowrii).
so....how's star wars? i'll tell u one thing...everything happened so fast. now i'm feeling like i baRELY SAW the movie coz IT REALLY HAPPENED SO FAST. uhm..uhm...it's like the 2 1/2 hour movie just flashed by me... :P but of course, it was cool and superb and interesting and wow! and and oooh...the sound effect(the background musics)-it was a BLAST. well,it always has been. esp. those famous soundtracks. and yes...anakin who looks far far far much better than episode2. wut i mean is the guy who played the "bigGer" anakin skywalker. hayden christensen is his name. well he looked so matured and SO MUCH like i'm-turning-into-darth vader. i like him better in E3 and yes of course..master yoda. he looks cuddly......hahaha...weird right....but he's one cool fighter for a small figure :P
i think this is the best episode ever. then comes EPISODE 1: the phantom menace coz of its podrace scene, qui gon jin, young anakin, naboo and tatooine. then comes others which i can't seem to rmmber it's title... :O but one thing that i'm still thinking is this: darth vader in later episodes doesn't seem to b so cruel or heartless if compared in episode3. i wonder y is that? hmmm..mayb it's just me. well wutever it's ..now that the saga has been completed...i'll say that star wars IS interesting no matter wut some ppl say. mayb i'm not so crazy as the others...u know buying the merchandises, dressing like star wars characters and even to bald their head and adding horns just to look like darth maul but i just love star wars.... :)

=P

it's thursday night and tomorrow's my big day.... coz...i'll b joining the force....
yes....i'll b catching STAR WARS EPISODE III: THE REVENGE OF THE SITH tomorrow at 12.30pm at GSC, Berjaya Times Square. WHOOHOO! i just can't wait...... besides, i'll b catching up with poh mei, hui ling and mano...so i bet it'll b a day to remember..... :)

HATE!HATE!HATE!

and talking about hate, there r few things that i REALLY HATE! and this thing i'm about the type is one thing i really really really HATE right now!
it's that; i hate it when indians show "so much" concern/talk to me just because i'm one. i H-A-T-E it!HATE it so much! hate it so much that i'll avoid the person or the restaurant! for an example, there's this mamak stall run down by indians(muslims,actually) beside my college! as much as it is a well kept restaurant, i SERIOUSLY hated the restaurant since the day they asked me to huv lunch there coz...coz we're both "indians"! yes! they actually said those words! i mean; WUT THE HECK????????? they are not indians anyway! and so i've tried my best to avoid eating there! haih! sick ppl all around me! which also resulting me to be sick!
and there's also this indian girl who actually stops talking(or wutever she was doing) and smile at me! man! i've never talked to her! well, if she's being friendly, she can smile at my other friends who are not indians wut? say me perasan or wutever...i tell u,i just hate it! it seemed like; oh,we r both indian so we huv to be friends with each other! wut the hell?; is all i can say!!!

a lil' something

well this is a "little something" that is showed to me by my dearest friend, Sean! i don't pay much attention to poems,especially those that are twisted but "this"....i liked it!!!so i decided to put it on my blog! and yes, for those who've seen "10 things i hate about u"...well u'll know that this lil' something is said in it!
feel it AND enjoy!

I HATE the way you’re always right,
I HATE it when you lie.
I HATE it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I HATE it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t HATE you,
not even close
not even a little bit
not even at all.

f-u-n-n-y

wanna hear something funny(hmmm..to me maybe)....????
well today...i decided to follow my fellow friends(sean,teoh,cat,fish,pui lin) to klcc after my class! we had to take lrt(putra) to klcc frm wangsa maju station! and so while we were waiting for the train that we were supposed to take to arrive, another train came at the opposite side*note that*! and since we r arts students who r always looking out for creative designs everywhere we turn around, we found out that the designs on the train are pretty interesting! very colourful with pictures of human in colourful clothings and also with their face replaced by the lrt's windows :P! can u imagine???! and the next second i know, all my dear friends jumped into the "that" train! leaving me numb and to ssssloooooowly deliver alert message to my brain and to make me run towards the door when....when....when..the stupid door closed!!! which left me outside. and my friends in the the train who were laughing at 1st and then to soon realize that i'm left behind! all this happened in a flash while the train is saying bye bye to me!!!! :( i felt like a fool! felt mad! felt annoyed! felt funny! and now while i'm thinking about it and typing it down, i'm actually rolling on the floor laughing!
stupid me! terrible them! i'm slow! they were f1 cars! i was blur! they were..they were...hmmm..wutever!!!
funny?tell me about it! and all i'll conclude is i'm DUMB! i need more outside-of-my-home air!
thank you!

Attack of the.....(uhm!...uhm!)...FLYING INSECTS!

sorry but i've no idea wut u call that flying insect neither in english nor inmalay....it's actually an insect with wings(ahha..obviously!) with a slender body!something with a dragonfly shape!and it smells like a cucumber at times!haha..u huv no idea wut i mean right?

well,this "flying insect(s)" attacked my house ....it all started when my mom went in to toilet and these insects just flooded the whole room!imagine that? little creepy flying insects crawling on ur body!if it's one,it's still ok..but these....there are hundreds of them.HUNDREDS n hundreds n hundreds!bleah!

and so we switched off all the lights to prevent it from having a "gathering" inside my HOUSE!!!sheesh!unwelcomed visitor!

and so those no-brain insects flew away towards another source of light....which is the next house with one spotlight switched on!hmmm....as much as brain those insects huv(wut do u call them actually?)...u know...when all of them are concentrated on one source of light, it was a sight to behold!it was pretty actually!it was like butterflies dancing gracefully towards the light.imagine fluttering wings concentrated and backdropped by light...the penetration of lights through the wings is the one creating the pretty effect!do u know wut i mean?(hmmm...i should be getting a translator next time!!!)

p/s:i've been told that these insects will have a feast of light on one day n the other day they'll be gone(vanish i suppose!)just like that.however i'm not sure how true it is!!

greetings to semester 3!!!

well,well,well...

holidays ended.fullstop.

semester 3 started.fullstop.

its sad that last sem's class are separated into two.fullstop.

n so now i'm in a class identified as 3RED(colours still play an important part in class naming-sheesh!).

i've no classes on saturdays(hooray!).fullstop.

n morning classes is totally out of the schedule-the earliest is only at 10am(HOORAY!!!!).fullstop.

but then, my classes ends late.there is even as late as 8.30pm[:(].fullstop.

subjects are even more interesting.less theories to make my life easier [:)].fullstop.

but then, there is MORAL.in fact, i was 'forced' to learn moral today(i don't get it-isn't the 16nilai murni[s] we learned during our secondary school are enough to make us ''beretika''?).fullstop.

and yes!sem 3 will be one long journey!it lasts from march till july.fullstop.

AND i see myself growing up.fullstop.

hahaha!that's all folks.fullstop.

sweet sweet!

"After three years and I was ready to start
to tell my best friend
What was really in my heart,
'I love you...even at worst.'
And it was when I began
That he stopped me and told me first."

This I read in The Star(16 March 2005). It was under the Mind Our English session. Written by Tong Wen Hui, KUALA LUMPUR for the 'My Romance to Remember' contest. She was one of the winners!obviously!

i've no idea who she is but i LOVE her winning piece!it's sweet!totally!

: )

:) :) :) :)

i'm a lotr fan but i'm not so addicted.....

i'm a fan ya....but i'm not crazy...people who actually does all this stuffs listed below...i tell them...get a life!

You Know You're Addicted to LotR When...

You start quoting from the movie as part of regular conversation. You like to tell your mom that you are hungry by quoting: "Merry, I'm hungry." She used to just laugh, but now she says, "What would you like to eat, Pippin?" You continually ask your parents for second breakfast. All the staff at your local cinema knows you by your first name and even before you open your mouth to speak, they say "Ticket for 'Fellowship of The Ring?'" You hate Burger King food, butyou ate nothing else for a month to get the toys. You've crammed up your computer's memory by downloading every single screensaver from www.LordoftheRings.net You wander around the house in a knee length nightie, pyjama trousers and an unfastened dressing gown (to give you a train). You are trying to be an elf, and actually manage to forget that the nightie is blue with dolphins, the trousers have teddies on and the dressing gown is tartan. Your Lord of the Rings shirt has not yet met the washing machine. You don't have enough money to buy groceries for the next week before payday, yet you charge £50 on your credit card to get a three year charter membership in the official LOTR fan club. Who needs food anyway? You refer to parts of your town as parts of Middle-Earth. You wear hobbitish clothing as part of your normal wardrobe. You sometimes let your hair go curly after a wash, and then run around the house in bare feet yelling "I'm a hobbit!" You hate it when Elves are only thought of as 'Santa's little helpers' and have tried to explain the difference between Santa-elves and Syrian Elves to your 5-year old cousins. You speak in Quenya just to annoy your friends. You refer to regular elephants as oliphaunts. While buttering a piece of bread, you suddenly think of Bilbo (remember when he was talking to Gandalf about feeling tired) saying that he felt 'like butter spread over too much bread.' You renamed your car the Wraith-mobile. You have a replica of The One Ring. You are beginning to resemble a panda due to the fact that you've stayed up until 2 am reading and re-reading the great books. You actually managed to read the Silmarillion without being tempted to give up on this whole middle earth malarkey. You now have a lifetime fear of black horses! You haven't removed the soundtrack from your CD player since you bought it. You have sssudenly developed a hisssing lisssp every time you sssay the letter ssss. You have looked both on the net and in the phone book to see if archery and sword fighting lessions are offered in your area. You have begun calling your husband / wife / girlfriend/ boyfriend / animal or kid my precioussss. You happily traveled over an hour to the next town to see "it" because that theater has a better sound system than the one 5 minutes down the road. You have called every theatrical or specialty makeup company in town looking for pointy ear or hairy feet prosthetics. You've worn your plastic "one ring" that came on your Legolas bookmark so much the gold is completely worn off. You've begun drafting a letter to the Webster's dictionary people requesting that they include "Ringers" in their next edition. At Christmas time relatives find you chatting with the tree and sharing eggnog draughts Single ads with the description," short plump and big hairy feet" seem much more appealing. You know The LoTR history better then your family history. You have a mouse named Frodo, a bird named Gollum, and a dog named Gandalf. And that cat that keeps coming around to be petted is Legolas. You know Elvish better then English. Whenever something goes wrong, it's Sauron's fault. When you sing in the shower, it's always about Gil-Galad or hobbit walking songs... You know everything about Middle Earth geography, but you can't get someone from your house to the ice cream parlor. Now the nearest movie theater, that is a different story. You think the names of the 7 dwarves from Snow White are: Gimli, Gloin, Thorin, Gili, Nili, Ori, and Bambour. You have developed your own special Tolkien handwriting. "A firm, flowing script..." Words like "Yrch" make sense to you. You've become strangely obsessed with mushrooms. Whenever you close a door, you say "They have a cave troll!" When you come to a dead end you're still convinced that the road goes ever on and on. There's a sign on your door saying "Speak Friend and enter!" Whenever you get a chance, you burst into song. Preferably one that has more than 20 verses. You change your name by deed poll to a Tolkien character and seriously consider naming your children after LOTR characters. Every time you see birds in the sky you have the urge to say "Fly you fools!" When someone knocks on your door you grab them, pull them inside and ask "Are you frightend?... Not nearly frightend enough!" Your computer's screensaver is a marquee reading, "Ennyn Durin atan Moria: pedo mellon a mino" and the password is actually "mellon". You cannot see a beer without blurting out "It comes in pints? I'm getting one!" You just can't keep yourself from saying "nobody tosses a Dwarf" at inappropriate moments. A shadow and a threat is growing in your mind. You now referring to your friends as your 'Fellowship' and insist that you have epic adventures. You stand in the doorway and tell your cat that he 'Can not pass'. You wash your face in the sink and expect to see things that are, that have been or that will be. Your wedding band has started to weigh you down with it's evil powers. Spending $35 at the grocery store seems expensive but its Perfectly fine to spend $70 on the Hardcover LOTR book with Alan Lee Illustrations. You start keeping a LOTR Journal to write poems and inklings in. You face every difficult decision with the thought "now what would Gandalf advise me to do?" You know what Entmoot, Ent draught, or an Ent is for that matter You've gained 20 pounds because you've started eating a "Second Breakfast" A walking stick... you never leave home with out it. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Lord of the Rings.

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my reminder: watch ur steps!

life was preeeeeetty busy for the past one week..as i was saying it is the near-end of my second semester. i'm amazed at how fast time can run!!!it's not even running...it's jumping like the way Hulk did in THE HULK...u know when he jump, he looks like flying at the same time n so he can go really fast n far to another place in one jump? that's wut i meant...hahaha!

i'm already loaded with the work...my fault actually..coz i'm STILL not disciplined enough to be systematic nor to be a good time consumer.yes, as i was saying i'm loaded with my work, i just recovered from the rashes caused of me eating the pork( i huv a damn sensitive skin which explains my scars) and now.....i huv a swollen left foot!

it happened last saturday..and the date 5march(i'll rmmber the date forever!)..after my pengajian am exam..in mia(malaysian institute of arts).....
as i was walking down the stairs while talking to my friend...i slipped of the stairs and landed two steps below. it happened real fast. and i bet my foot went 180degrees at the joint and so i sprained/twisted my ankle real bad! and still i walked about here n there thinking that giving exercise to my leg will help it heal faster...but man, i'm so wrong! so wrong! my foot need rest not more stress! silly n stupid me!

and i even went on with my life on that day without resting..i had to my assignments wut! and i slept late n i woke up early!and yes , it hurts! it hurts real bad! it hurts when i walk! it hurts when my mom massaged it for me that tears rolled down uncontrolably! believe it really HURTS!it hurts when i huv to climb up the three story high stairs!it hurts when i huv to take off my pants!it hurts all the way!

and so yesterday...it got so worst after i came back from the college(had my interior design assessment yesterday). my foot was swollen everywhere and so bloody red(it's coz of the blood_that's wut the doc said). and i was fearin that mayb my bones had some damages as well...but then if that's the case i wouldn't be walking. and so it was a relieve when doc said that it's normal and all those are caused coz i didn't give any rest to my poor foot! and so she asked to rest and also to bandage my foot to reduce the swelling! haih! wut a life? and my bad luck!

hmmmm...i might b worried after all!

well, the build.con presentation went quite well!it wasn't even a presentation!just a-little-while observation done by my lecturer and if i huv everything required u can huv a full mark!and i got 9 out of 10!but that's totally nothing coz it's just a 20% mark!
and now..i'm worried...i'm worried about my id assignment...the three perspective drawings..well,they r tougher than i thought it was!haih!!!!!!!!
and then there's still the essay to be done.
and notes to be read for three other subjects-for my exam!
frankly saying...i'm just waiting to get it all done...and i'm gonna watch constantine then(eventough some ppl say it isn't nice!-i dun care!keanu reeves is worth spending money for :)!i will...so anyone care to join me?
but for now...i should concentrate on my assigments n exam!
u know..i toally think that its all my fault...i'm still not disciplined!mayb i should b like mary-hermitizing(r u still,mary?)...ha..that i'll do after my second sem ends...(yeah right..if only,loshini)!so wut can i actually do to make myself disciplined?everytime when i remind myself ...oh,i'll finish this work by today..i'll just end up delaying it again! everytime!it's like history repeating itself...all the time....then when due date comes..i'll be staying up late or dun even sleep the whole night in order to finish my assignments!it's a nightmare actually!but yet i didn't learn anything coz i'm STILL DOING THE SAME THING!so i'm annoyed at myself!

i'm not worried!

my second sem is going to! the number of assignments given had stopped but the duration of completing them is: forever!haha!but...i'm just happy with the way things are..that's including the number of assignments, my studies, everything.i feel calm n relaxed,not tensed!
hmmm...but mayb i am at times when it comes to theory exams(i suck at that) and also when it comes to writing this 2500words-long essay that is due on next friday!the subject is:history of art!the topic is interesting: church,cathedral!and my essay should be about this famous church which is situated in the heart of kuala lumpur(says my lecturer,Mr.Leslie!): HOLY ROSARY church.its a gothic-styled church,if u didn't know!visited there twice in a row(visited coz my dear lecturer wants us to feel the atmosphere!and that was my first ever experience inside a church!wut did i feeL?hmmm...i'll talk about that matter when i write about the church in whole(coming soon with pictures,i hope so!)
so the problem with the essay is...2500words...and its shouldn't be merely descriptions of the church but something deep within!so there's lots of thinking to do!haih*sulk*!
and for my interior design subject...well i have three perspective drawings to be done!good luck to me!
as for tomorrow,i have a presentation for building conditions&material studies subject...and i huv to do draw out(sketch) everything by tonight(i have around 8 A4 papers to do so!) and i actually have to start everything from the beginning.but i'm not worried!because i know what i'm supposed to do!coz i just had a brief discussion with my dear friend,Yee Teng(who was here just now,at my house!) and we worked things out! sometimes having good,cooperative friends help!you can discuss and help each other out!and that's what i see in her!and i'm glad to be her friend!

testing1,2,3, again. : )

:)since i'm still new in this whole blog thing...this test is too...hmmm......test actually!and i realize that blogging is actually fun!


btw, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all my dear friends!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to all my dear friends!*wherever u r in the world*

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!*cluck*cluck*cluck*-does that sound like a chicken clucking? :)

oh yeah...have a wonderful celebration my dear friends....
here's a list bearing all of my wonderful friends who celebrates chinese new year!i just want to wish them through here(cyber world) FOR FUN!

my since-primary-school friends: AI LENG n FAYE LIEW(though she celebrates christmas but hey !it's malaysia...u can just wish anyone u want! :)

my since-primary-secondary-school friend: YAP POH MEI(i know she lacks when it comes to internet and stuffs n i bet she never read my blog but hey this cny shout out is especially for her!although she celebrates christmas too! :)

my met-her-when-i'm-fm2-but-is-now-so-far-away-from-here-but-still-nearby-Hollywood friend: MARY LIM JIA LING(oh heck!she celebrates christmas too!)

my met-her-when-i'm-in-form-four friend: WONG HUI LING(the dog-phobia girl)

and not to forget my dear college friends...those that i bounded well in this short period. they shall always remain in a special place in my heart.
AI TENG: cute and chubby, cute and friendly..that's ai tinggggg!HAPPY CNY!
JOANNE: a girl with a christian nickname but celebrates chinese new year!hahaha...i won't be seeing her on valentine's day!sigh!
SEAN: who celebrates christmas as well as cny!i bet he's already far away from here...he must be somewhere near beckham's place!hahaha!is it true?
WEI REN: as shy as he is,u'll never fail to smile when u see him smile! gong xi fatt choy!
can i come to ur house, eh?:)
MELVIN: mr.macho guy!hahaha!happy chinese new year la friend!he's very friendly too!
SOOK YEE, TEOH and whoever is in my interior design class or was in 1red last sem: HAppy cny to all of these guys. *i don't think so they'll get this msg!but hey, i've got nothing to lose so y not just wish them too!

and not to forget this blog-friend that i met through mary: YINGKS---HAPPY CNY!!

have a wonderful year ahead!and wish u all the luck there are in this world!ciao!!!!

hmmmm.....

since i started college,i had 3 i'll-rmmber-this-for-long-while encounters where my friends said something about my "skin colour"!
*first of all u should know that i am brought up as an indian girl and i have dark skin!*
so back to my stories;

1st encounter:there's this girl who tried explaining me as a black skinned person whenever she tried to compare/describe my "skin colour". black skinned...?!?!?!?!black skinned??????well tell me if i'm taking this seriously....but hey!black skinned?where in the world did that term come from?so she's white skinned and has albino? (*i didn't mean to insult anyone it's just that i just don't get it: is it that she's not aware of wut she's saying?or....?i mean...that shouldn't even be an issue to talk about!)
*these two incidents happened recently when we were making plans to bukit bintang and also when we were having fun there and discovering stuffs!

2nd encounter: when we were planning to go to bukit bintang(that last saturday), all my friends decided to wear black t-shirt and so they asked me to wear the same!so while we were talking about it,this other girlfriend of mine started saying that i can even go there without wearing anything and i'll still blend among the group!whether she said that as a joke or not or even if i see myself as an open-minded girl, i'm insulted!but yet i let that matter go!i consoled myself by thinking that she's not aware of wut she's saying!
ok!OKKK! wut the heck? i'm a girl with "skin so-black" till i can give impressions to others that i'm ACTUALLY wearing a black t-shirt eventhough i'm not!ha...got that?now who would huv thought about that?thanks for the "idea",friend!now i dun huv to think much about wut to wear anymore! ;/

3rd encounter: after we finished eating in the restaurant, my friends started taking pictures and so this good guy friend of mine said "hey,make sure there's flash light when u r capturing pictures otherwise u can't see loshini!"..and i was thinking--hey,where did that come from?----do u see where is all these leading to?i mean i know its a joke!but there isn't anything else to joke about?and so i can joke about like this too "hey,u do better turn out the flash unless u want to see yourself as a ghost in the pictures?" but the thing is, i never thought about all those crap coz i JUST don't see any humour(or wutever they call it) in that kinda jokes!!! lame & pathetic jokes;i'll say! ;/

tell me... am i being paranoid in this matter????am i taking this seriously? u c there's no hard feeling when i was treated like that...i totally forgot about "the matter" the moment we started walking here n there in the shopping mall...but of course i was processing the whole thing!wut?is it a joke to see a "black-skinned"people????or do they think that being fair skinned is better?

WHAT'S WITH THE COLOUR,man?????

so tell me, am i being so so so sensitive here or am i narrow minded???
p/s: i didn't mean to insult anyone here!i'm just saying my thoughts on this crap issue!and so...........PEACE,friends!!!! :) :) :)
and if i ever said/joked anything about this colour thing(i probably dun think i've done it!) to anyone, i take back my words ok?....PEACEand but if i make fun about it on my own...well...its a different matter isnt it?hahaha!:)......PEACE!!! >_<

p/s:and of course thanks to all my shy friends, busy friends, and dun even bother-to-check-out-my-blog friends...thanks for being so loyal to me!-----PEACE!!!!!(sorry, i'm just in one of my mood!)

events on that saturday!

ho!ho!ho! :0 (hihi,i know its not christmas! :)
today was the day where i visited the malay house-RUMAH PENGHULU ABU SEMAN. rmmber that i didn't know the place at first?well it turns out that i've used that way lot's of time and silly me didn't know about it!and u know wut? i also realize that i actually know not much about places in kl...its like eventhough i've been living in kl for almost 19years, i am like a "katak di bawah tempurung"....hmmm,but not that i dunno the places at all :), its just that my knowledge on directions, where its situated, how to get to places and etc is very little! to tell the truth, i started discovering my sense of directions only after i started my college(MALAYSIAN INSTITUTE of ARTS-MIA which is in tmn melawati).TRUE!i took buses to MIA, and through that i knew lot's of places.so when it comes to that knowledge part,i seriously won't complain about having to go through a-damn-two-hours bus journey to college :)!YUP COZ i know "stuffs"-hahaha! and hmmm..do u think i'll learn more if i'm given a chance to get my licence???? haha...wutever the answer might be...i really WISH that i can get my license!
p/s: ha,i didn't tell ya how i got to the site..well ;) a lovely friend of mind, YEE TENG gave me a ride there!so...THANK YOU,friend!plus she also gives me ride back home from MIA sometimes...so there's another THANK U again!

so now back to my site visit story.it was ok la! but i didn't like that malay house much besides its smart ventilation designs. in fact,i dun like any of those historical sites AT ALL!its scary!u know,that house has been surviving since around 1930s(the BDN WARISAN shifted the house from kedah to kl)...so imagine..i walked on the same ground where this abu seman-penghulu and his four wives*note that-4wives!* walked before!weird or scary?i think its both!but one thing la i think that those ppl were smart.u know why?ok first of all..do u know y are malay houses tilted higher from the ground?its actually to prevent animals,flood -from tsunami maybe*chuckles*(most houses are near rivers actually to make cooking and peeing easier) and also to create a good ventilation(a space on a higher ground obviously will experience a windier environmnt-imagine genting highlands).yup besides that large/full wall length window openings are also for good ventilation,and hanging roofs are for sunshading/bringing a cooler envirnmnt!but basically its all about bringing cool air into the house but STILL.. they've actually thought about all these!rn't u impressed?well i am!

so after the visit, we wandered around!YAAA..since that site is near to klcc and also bukit bintang!but we lepak'ed(haha) at bukit bintang lor!we mean SEAN, TEOH, SOOK YEE, PUI LIN, FANG CHIN, KAH HEE, and ERIC!ha..they r my friends in college...some that i just knew this(2nd) sem!but funny...i still dun't know some's full name or even know how to spell their nickname!hihihi...sorry!i'll learn those as soon as my college starts (haha-oh yeah...holiday's started-so that's one week of no classes for me!hooray!)...and we all pretty much enjoyed ourselves there!walking here and there!dropping by this shop and there!and we had lunch at this restaurant called u-village and i ordered for a bowl of prawn wanton mee soup and hong kong chinese tea(cold)...well the dish was nice and nyummy and totally filled my hungry and empty stomach but today i'm down with rashes...i think the pork did the work!pork and my body doesnt go along!haha!true u know!this happened before!
wah,i'm tired of typing already!i'll just stop. FULLSTOP!!!

testing 1,2,3.

Pieces of Me by Ashlee Simpson

"Fall, with you I fall so fast I can hardly catch my breath I hope it lasts" In 2004 you fell in love. Let's hope it lasts.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

well, i tried the quiz(what 2004 hit song are you?) and that was the result...that ashlee simpson song....and they also said that i fell in love! :)
and so lets hope it lasts!for this i'll say....--wutever!!!
p/s: i hate that song anyway!not my type!

yippie!

HOORAY!holiday had begun-forget about the two more days of classes,ok?actually there's only one day left-for tomorrow and that's till 730pm.the other day-saturday..well..we have a site visit-at BADAN WARISAN!its in ampang,somewhere near hotel nikko and ampang park putra station but i seriously dunno where is that site exactly situated!anybody wants to give me direction or a ride?hahaha!feel free to do so!:) that site visit is to expose us closer about malay houses.its construction.its environment.and stuffs.so i guess that should be fun!well i'll just wait and see then!
ha..as for this whole week..it turned out well.quite well actually.here's the two top reason:
1.my concept for the vacation house(my ID project) was accepted and i'm happy to know that i DO have ideas!well let's hope that i'll be able to apply my concept: METAMORPHOSIS(BUTTERFLY) into my vacation house and design an EXACT vacation house which
can hold a couple in there. wish me luck! :)
2.i got lots of :).lot's of it and i believe that i couldn't be any happier.what's with a smile u must be thinking!well you'll be happy if u r in my situation too!that i'm very SURE!!! :) :) :) :) (my lips are already streched to the max just by thinking about it...so guess how influential that smile can be?AND*take note*..it wasn't just a smile too :) extra stuffs was added along:there was a call.and wut's with a call?..well it shows that i DO come across "the mind".haha..get it? well hope that u do!

you see there's a reason for everything and the reason i'm writing some thoughts here with hidden meanings is because i fear that some matters can be revealed.it's good in a way but it's also bad!but for now i prefer to think about the bad side!SO..sorry if some thoughts of mine are not understandable(did i got the word rght?) :) coz id'd rather stay out of trouble!

i wonder

can things that we dream in our sleeps ever come true or at least comes close at being true?
well i had one weird dream..i was dodging this @ and i woke up and was heading somewhere when the dream came close to being real. it was the same @, same colour, same issue. but it happened otherwise from my dream (i acted otherwise) but still it was close enough to wutever that happened when i was sleeping. that's weird...
and weirder coz...i hated that dream but it came SO close to real, but when i especially liked a dream and wants it to come true...hrmph...it never got any closer. ha,that's life isn't it?
but forget about that and share my happiness....... i got a SMILE(be happy for me,will ya?even if u dun get wut i mean!)! and it was the sweetest of all coz i least expected it! thank u for the smile! hahahaha! :) :)

wut a day that 'day' was!

so i went to the holy cave that tuesday.was forced to get up at 3.30am-can u believe that?who on earth wants to get up that time????well my family did and i HAD to!my parents said that its better to go very very early in the morning coz it'll be refreshing and there'll b less crowd and they were right...except for the crowd!i'm amazed at how religious hindus are!the crowd will forever be there while some "cosily" sleeping here and there(on the floor,under the bridge,on the car,...u name it) and pushing was such a major thing even for a grown-up lady...haih,how immatured(and to that "lady" who pushed me....Please GROW UP,lady!)!
and so we climbed the stairs(272steps is it?) and got down before the sun rises..so i was happy coz we'll b back home in no time!
batu caves is a nice place actually THAT if u minus the crowd!go on a normal day and u'll know...
and of coz there were unsightly incidents..such as the one where "the hindu god/goddess" takes over a human body(did i get that term right?) especially those who were carrying big 'kavadis' and those who pierced their bodies...it was scary to look at the "god".they were wailing like a creature(believe me its REALLY scary) and i'll say that i can't tell whether they are putting a good act or something did REALLY took over their body...i asked my mom and a few ppl about this but nobody can answer that Q clearly...so well i just dun want to believe all those weird stuffs...but hope that someone WILL explain about that to me!
and of coz the other thing that pissed me off is...they were playing linkin park's songs at the "funfair" instead of a holy song!sheesh! imagine that?that is the worst thing that can ever happen to me! such an insult to all linkin park fans!true!...and yeah that u should be playing a catchy song for that funfair but puh-lease...linkin park songs??????they shouldn't even be havin those funfair(something like a small themepark) in the first place afterall its a religious occassion we were at....but that i dun give much care...its the thing where they played linkin park songs....i just dont like that idea AT ALL..and it was so loud till u can't even hear a thing they were singing!how dumb and insane can that be???? BL**dy hell!curse them for doing that!
so we actually reached home around 12noon after wondering here and there n after havin our breakfast+lunch.and soon after, we slept our day off after havin a refreshing bath....me?i slept till 5pm....it was SO hot that i couldn't sleep any longer!but at least i got to sleep! :)
and so one feared day had gone...its the thing like waking up early in the morning that scares me the most and then the incidents where the humans started wailing like creatures!those are the two main things that i hate most about thaipusam!and then other matters come in the way! like..........hihihi-i'd better keep them to myself ;)

:) :) :) lilalilalila!lilalilala!

friday came, then saturday and then sunday.never felt so at ease even with assignments in hand.i spent those three days simply without doing nothing.and yup..i didn't touch my hws nor had any intentions to do so.at night,i savoured the beauty that GOD gives:the bright moon,twinkling stars,cool and windy air (which gives u the chill factor) and the so so clear sky-all these creates a perfect night...and me? i'm grateful with everything around me including the incredible nights that i got to see!i'm telling ya that night was a night to remember.so cosy.so comfy.so...so...serene!and sunday came and so i rushed my hw again(as usual) and went to classes again and done with it...and here i am..on a monday night with tomorrow being a holiday coz of a religious purpose-for the hindus-its thaipusam and as i'm one...well my parents will b dragging me there to the "holy BATU CAVES"and join other "Hindus" to offer prayers/to get 'blessings'!and i'm pretty sure it won't really turn out to be a good day tomorrow ;/!
so for my hw(s)...haih..forget about that and i'll worry about my trip to the holy site!!!

p/s:i wish that i could see shooting stars(i dreamt about it recently so my heart desires) and also the northern/southern lights.

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

well right now i dun feel so good! not at all...i huv assignments to hand in tomorrow....hmmm..actually today...around 8.30am later....oh yeah n i'm still not sleeping(its 1.58am-oh!isn't it late enough?)...its better if i just leave out everything n pop into bed..just like that.. without doin much n go to class tomorrow..ooppss..today and be there like a dumb..like someone who has no any creativity...who is maybe in de wrong field after all coz she can't design anything that is good enough..haih....but i can't ...coz that feeling of goin there empty handed is a terrible thing to go through..as if i'm in college for nothing..like i'm just wasting my fathers money...and the other thing the lecturer who makes me feel guilty about the much amount of work and good designs that i do(well i realize that the subjects are all making me look like a girl with an empty mind!haihhhhhh(long sulking)...i just feel like crying out loud.... this sucks!
and the other thing is.. no much how many f**kin time i tell myself not to put things to be done in the last minute, i'll just keep doing otherwise! and YES there r still works undone..last minute as usual!haih... ;( and how many times had i reminded myself that i'll finish "everything" on sunday where there'll b no class...and there u go..sunday comes and sunday goes and my hw(s) keeps stacking up and the pevious stacked hws are still stacked!:( and NOW i'm waiting for friday as it'll b a holiday..and yeah "i'll do everything on friday.no more last minute works"----yeah right loshini!go on thinking positive! :(
aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
hmmm..........i'm going to sleep now!with unstable emotions: guilty,scared,not satisfied,mad,etc.etc....am i taking all this too seriously? even if i do,i just dun see myself doin anything to improve...if my brother puts all this in words..he'll say that i huv LACK OF SELF DISCIPLINE and lucky me he's not here or he'll b mad with the way i'm behaving! well i do realize my misbehaviour..but i just don't see myself doing anything to be better!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!sob!sob! :( wut a life?wut a ME!!!!
i dun feel like going to college!haha!actually i can be doin my work than writing this whole thing...but no loshini did not do that coz she can't think.she's dumbfounded!so how is she goin to face the lecturer tomorrow?....haih!i'll tell ya after goin through a shitty day at college!

its hot and i'm the one who is feeling the worse

haih!its hot...both my surrounding and my body! i think i'm falling sick...but i've been having this since last week...i THINK i'm falling sick...but i can still get up and do stuffs and laugh around. wut i mean is i'm still energetic! but this situation is totally making me uncomfortable...i'm right in front of the fan with its max speed but i'm still feeling UNCOMFORTABLE! sometimes i doubt if i'm having "denggi"...hahaha..hope its not true! besides i huv another explanation for having this uncomfortable situation....i'm havin a growin tooth:my wisdom tooth it is and i tell ya its the worst pain ever....totally...it hurts A LOT!haih... ;( and ppl say having a growin tooth can also cause fever.well i hope its true!
anyway classes started again yesterday and i'm loaded with homeworks again..in fact i'm doin my h/w while writing this out! my project this time is to design the whole interior of a double storey house and i should b creating i'm-at-a-vacation-house senses into the building!phew!that's tough enough!so i'm searchin and searchin and searchin in the internet! and i just feel like popping onto the bed! haih!!!!!!!!!

me at my down moment(s)

its january 6 and there's only few days to go for my classes to continue again. THREE days left actually :( . after having an almost one month break, i'm so used to being relaxed and just laze around till the thought of classes troubles my innocent and calm mind. not that i don't like my course but its the thought that i huv to go to classes to study and the late classes and the travelling period i huv to go through to reach college and of coursemore assignments. true!true!all these is normal for all kinds of student but haih! :(
i wanna live my life carefree! ha! but there's nothing like that right? anyway, college also means i'll get to see my friends...my dear friends!
yup,so my life continues again next week...at college..and of course there's this other thing that is stored for me next week...i'll get to see my crush :)..that's for sure! but hmmm i dunno how u define that..is it crush or is it love or...or...or...hmmm...(see i'm havin a troubled mind) anyway, the thing is its so easy to fall in love but to actually express the feeling is one hell hard of time! that's what i'm goin through!(and see now i'm being like a total teenage girl ;/-sheesh) and OF COURSE now i'm getting SICK of all this! TOTALLY!haha!
anyway, beginning from this week i huv been enjoying every moments of my sleep...there was also once when i woke around the time my sis was getting up to go to work and i was like: wow!am i not lucky that i get to sleep longer than her! and i further tucked myself and was sm8iling away thinking that i don't huv to get up till 10.30am and ZZZZZZ ! :) haha!wut a bliss! but pity my poor sister-not that i care!hahaha!actually...i've read this on articles/ heard it from some ppl...:waking up in the middle of a sleep knowing that there are still more time to sleep is one perfect joy!try it and u'll agree with me! unless u dunno how to have fun!hahaha!
and meanwhile i'll just keep on savouring every moment of my leftover holiday! haih! :(