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have u ever come to a point of life where u'll b thinking," y do we huv to work so hard, be successful, earn lots of money,etc just to end up being dead?". well i was. while i was standing in the bus. the reason i was thinking like that was because i'm down. and the reason i'm down is because of this interior design; the cyber cafe(CC) project. i lost confidence after the mid sem project. that was a disaster(believe me!). i thought this CC is gonna be the same to. and i was thinking that i'm actually failing in my mission to b a better designer. but later, the project became interesting..ha!so i believed. but i was slow in everything. lack of self discipline.rmmbr? i drew perspectives and showed my friend lecturer today when he dropped the bomb saying he don't see my concept in the space(my concept is dream). that totally threw me off. if i wanna change the space again and draw the perspectives again, i'll b totaly devastated. but there's no concept. so wut should i do? so turning back to the question y we working so hard?...well i'm so-called putting all my effort on this field. i feel like quitting but wut else is there do? life isnt jsut easy to survive especially if tehre's no money..and so everybody gotta work no matter they like it or not and live a life just to end up being dead. if there's some people who can make him/herself..well at least that's worth livng for..but if it's otherwise, wut is the point there? and so...that's wut bugging my head right now. i wanna be good in this. i'm trying but i'm just not reaching there at all. my brother put this kinda perspective inside my head. so is my sis. and now i'm also learning a bit about it from this guy friend of mine, Sean.
y live life hard till sacrifice joy? hmmm....but if all is joy..that'll b another story with its cons.
right now...cyber cafe project should b my concern. and yes....my semester 3 isn't going really great. it's more to thrashy than improving. and i'm really worried about that.