Monday, July 31, 2006


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Sunday, July 30, 2006

thank you..thank you...

well, well... my sister said she is getting fed up with celebrating our birthdays because we just don't give her a good response to the effort she made. that made me guilty. a recent experience with my friend made me realize that birthday is just a day, one shouldn't make it so hype about it. i tried remembering that particular message and in the end, i just made things worse. when my sister wished me right after 12am..i was like "oh yeah...", when she actually left an envelope under my pillow, i was so touched that i felt bad on giving her that kind of a rude response. when she and bro-in-law got me a cake, i, again, didn't show much enthusiasm that she must have been extremely fed-up with me. to make things worse, i just ate the cake. aaargh!!! i'm bad. i'm rude. i'm lousy. i'm sorry, sister!!! i didn't mean to make u feel so. and i really appreciate the content in the envelope, the deliciously sweet chocolate cake and your many birthday wishes! thank you and love ya....

anyhow, i would like to note people who remmbered my day...

one week ago, college gang had passed me a birthday card along with the present. and it was a capsule clock. very cool indeed. thanks, guy!!!

and then, there were wishes from fish, mee yiang, manoghowrii, ganasan(uncle), hui ling, aarthi(cousin sis).

uhm, yup..that's about it...THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!

Saturday, July 29, 2006

SPCA again..

and so, I visited SPCA today...

but this time, there were just two of us. the other was Sean. well, it was difficult to clean the cages with the two of us. it's mainly because someone need to handle the dogs. especially the big, active ones. they love getting attention and constantly wants to be patted. In the end, they keep coming to us and we smelled like dogs too.

being my first time in volunteering, i think it's not so bad. the only thing that bothers me is their smelly faeces. it almost made me puke. and that's uncomfortable. :S
besides that, it's acceptable. i have never even cleaned my home before but here i am cleaning dog cages. my mom will freak out if she knows this :P

last week: ADOPT me!! adopt me!! this week: i'm at a new home!! i've found a home!! :P
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me, fish and doggie :P
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dogs unleashed!!
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Saturday, July 22, 2006

care to volunteer??

Ahha!!! At last there’s a reason to blog….
So what is so special this time??? Let me tell ya… =D

Today, 22 July,I actually broke my dull, boring life by VOLUNTEERING!!!
I was, of course, accompanied by Fish (Sook Yee), Teoh and Sean.

We volunteered at SPCA (Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals). We had this plan for quite some time but it never came true because of my poor organizing skill =? and also because nobody is willing to spare some time including myself. Now that we have “assignment-loaded” holidays, we just gave it a go!!

This branch is at Ampang Jaya, nearby Flamingo Hotel and also accessible through the MRR2. Of course, this is my first time and it is exactly like a shelter for the doggies and cat-ties (hihihi)…Duh!!! Well, well…I think it was a great experience. My parents don’t allow raising any neither dogs nor cats. Well, there’s Kancil the cat but we just feed it at night and for the rest of the time, the cat is on it’s own. They don’t really allow me touch the cat nor give it a comfortable rub. They say it’s dirty and it’s fur sheds all the time. Ah, well!! They are right but the cat looks comfy!!! :P

Back to my SPCA session…well, well… it was different coz like Teoh said that was the first time we got surrounded by so many dogs at one moment, that was the first time we get to see a lot of dog poo everywhere :D, that was the first time we scrubbed and washed rows of food dishes and that was the first time we cleaned dog cages in a row… :P and of course, Mr. Teoh wasn’t so keen in touching nor cleaning the cages coz he is just not the dog-friendly type. :P Besides, we didn’t acknowledge him that we are going to volunteer so we took him down by surprise when we did. Sorry!!!

Anyhow, there is this tiny little puppy that keeps barking with its tiny little voice. I tell you, it’s so cute and furry. Every time I stroke its tiny head, it will stop barking. Awww, how sweet!!! I believe it did the same with this Indian family and thus capturing their heart and soon, the cute lil doggie found a new home :P well, I know it’s mine but I’m willing to let go. The family was carrying the puppy like a baby and it looked sooo cozy…

Well, in the end, we just stayed there for two hours because Teoh need to take off early. That’s too bad because if we didn’t, we would have played with the dogs. That was our supposedly given task after all the cleaning. Anyhow, we are planning to go there again this coming Saturday, hopefully!!!

Thursday, June 22, 2006

lost in words....

i don't know why but out of sudden there's simply nothing to blog about anymore....
as if i'm lost....
as if my life is plain dull....
or maybe i'm just too lazy to use my almost-rusty brain....
or maybe i rather do something else than spending time on typing my heart out...
like what i'm doing right now...aiks....

Saturday, June 17, 2006

what do i want to be??

Throughout my training period for three months at a design consultant company, that is when I realized my standards of being an interior designer (trainee). Although I am just a trainee, the pressure of trying to do the best has always been there but truthfully, it was still not the best.

During the training period, I was exposed to the real working world that made me decide that throughout a period of time, I need to be a better designer. In order to achieve that, I want to be a learner. I want to know/learn more about designing, more on construction drawings, more on CAD skills, more about the aesthetic values, more on documentation and more on anything that can make me progress in the term of a designer.

When I see myself in the coming years, I want to be someone who is able to handle a project, to be able to design for the company, to be able to teach other designers, to be able to impress certain parties and to be able to form a constructive portfolio of my own.

I want to be experienced, exposed and, of course, independent.

I rather set a smaller goal now before heading for bigger one because who knows where the tide might take. I believe in being a learner first because I am sure that I still have not gained much confidence in this field to rule the world of my life.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

updates...

1. so finally, my training officially ends yesterday.

2. and yes, working part-time is my plan and the Boss seems ok with that. and that's cause there r lots of projects in hand. but he's kind.

3. i've actually earned RM 750 in two and a half month(training period). my first ever earned allowance. and with my dad's rm 200 a month...I"M RICH...... :D (heheheh...where can i spend them??? )

p/s: mary.... that's for japan.. :D

4. sis has finally started painting her house (last week actually). the effect was totally not what i thought it will be. but yet the mood is nice.
p/s: i'm a lousy designer.

5. and in less than a year, i'll hopefully have a little baby to play with. and i'll be the "Godmother" :D (yay!yay!)

Monday, March 27, 2006

How and where will I be when I’m 25???

It’s been a while since I’ve been searching for myself. Now, I hopefully + with a 60 % of full confidence think that I know what I am doing.

Remember I once told about my search-for-a-training place??? And on how much I wanted to go to this certain company but never got the chance and Te Draftech my current based training place) was a like a last stop??? Flashbacks to that and now I am really grateful to have that path shown before me. I, definitely, begin to understand myself since I worked here. Or so I think, for now…

Coming to the exact point,

My diploma course = I still have ¡ almost half a year to finish my course
And I have one final project where I’m going to design a
ChillOut Bar; if my proposal is approved by “the authorities of
MIA’s ID course” where they’ll most likely will…

At my training company = Big BOSS offered me a permanent job at the company
itself . Once again he marked his words about diploma
“ the cert” and how much is it’s worth and that college are
money suckers.He stressed that it’s a given opportunity and
I should consider the offer to my very best.

What that I liked about his approach is that he’s willing to
train and teach me. Despite what else he’s thinking in his
mind, at least he can accept me even though I’m lousy.

What I am thinking = when boss offered_ I was thrilled and happy and was being
practical by defending college and my boss gave me time to
think while doing my work_ what my boss said seems practical and
I started seeing myself as a working person. I wanted to stop
college. Forgetting diploma. If things turn out worse, I
even planned to continue from where I stopped back at MIA again

Other people ( friends, brother,
sis, the seniors) = all of them stressed that it’s better to have a diploma in hand
as they are sure I won’t stick at the company forever. And I feel the same way, too…

So I concluded = Yup, I’ll get my diploma first!!! Let things work out later on.


_____all this happened on 16 MARCH 2006

_____ and now, I’m searching for “what do I really want”

That’s no joke. I really appreciate the college arranging the training program in our course. It’s like an eye- opener. It makes me realize so much. It let’s me wonder…. What am I doing in this field??? Is this really what I want??? Can I survive??? Or will I ever be able to cope, to be able to think by myself???

You see, I was required to help my seniors to complete drawings. And I think I messed it up. That’s because I’m blur. I’m still immature. I’m still dependent.
What the college thought is so different than what I am learning at the training place. I don’t feel like attending college (p/s: don’t worry. That’s just for now…) and I’ve missed it twice in a row, already. I’m dead fed-up of everything!!! College and working place and myself…

When I see how much in demand my sis and my bro-in-law are at their working place, I reflect back this situation on myself and I see failure. Well, maybe you are saying I’m still young and there’s still plenty of space and I’ll reflect back to my brother. He’s young…but he’s much soughted as well. So what’s wrong with me???

So now, I’m back to zero…I dunno what I am doing or what do I really know….

Aaarghhh…pressure..pressure….. I think I can’t handle pressure!!!

P/s: the title reflects everything I’m thinking…. Where will I REALLY be when I’m 25???
There’s only 5 years to go…. I just wish I would be a better person by then….

Wednesday, March 08, 2006


final project proposal_case study luna bar_cool place coz of it;s location on top of regency hotel's roof ***ROOF**
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in search of self...

now that i'm experiencing a real working life...there's a lot that i've come to know about. like how bad i am, actually, in this design world or how much i lack with those knowledge or how much more i need to learn or mayb on how much i am finding my trueself...complicated stuffs...
at times, when hope and discipline fails, i conclude to myself that i'm not worth designing. that i don't have much passion. that i couldn't see myself getting far in this line. i'm just going to lead a normal life. no achievements..ntg...
but when all seems happy n promising and when i did my best and when i get to learn new things about this line...i keep myself going... and i'll think positive thoughts... i'll be thinking that something had to be done and i can't keep feeling inferior among the others. that i'm still a learner.
though it's sad to know that i can't be like this person that i know...who is truly amazing to me... who can do cool stuffs even with a beginner's skill. that's the result of his passion. and that's my bro. my sis has something on her own too...she's the much soughted girl in her working place coz she organizes good...they fight to keep her working with them. for me that's something. coz it shows she knows what she's doing too. she's independent. it's liek i'm the black sheep of the family. too laid- back. too much entertainment. still unmatured.
anyhow, a deep-thought conversation with my boss, he thinks colleges or places where they r teaching design are just a waste of money. when i said things about diploma and stuff, he defended with saying experience and knowledge through design companies will lead one further than wut the college is teaching. he certainly got his point right. but if for people like me, where would i be without the things that i learned at college. but he said, companies like i'm working rght now, they can teach me wut the college thought for one year in 6 months. :D he's probably rght... everyday i walk my way to office and i find new things all the time...:P
*pai-seh**...

Tuesday, February 21, 2006


taa daa..here's the formal potrait of the bride n teh bridegroom n me n my gang....
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venue: sister n bro-in-law's dinner reception. me in my traditional attire n that's sean. both of us showing the peace of the world...
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and that's annoyed me... and fishy ...
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:D that's us again..i forgot to show my teeth...
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two-some potrait... :P
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sook yee, me, sean.... p/s: bad camera woman. thnx to poh mei...
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poh mei, sook yee(fish) and me me me!!! :D sweet aren't we...
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Friday, February 17, 2006

kancil...


it's called kancil. actually he owns himself. but he frequently comes to us for food. lately, stubborn-worm has got into his head..he is daringly entering the house and starts meow-ing all the time; he is demanding for more food!!!
p/s: kancil coz he actually lives under my sister's kancil car.
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Monday, February 13, 2006


here's me n my sis...
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so here's the art of "kolam"... it's specially made for sister's dinner reception. and it's for real... :P
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in conjunction with the recent "thaipusam"... here's the famous statue of batu caves. mighty or not..u decide!!!while i'm still wondering about it....
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and here's the famous soft toy in bro-in-law's car..the-almost 60cm long hand-MONKEY :D cute or not..u decide!!! i think IT IS adorable...
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Thursday, February 09, 2006


:D so this is my lovely sis and my bro-in-law.... well, it seems dark. that's coz of the camera. the place is actually at st.anne's church hall, penang. and that is actually a studio photo :D
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006

happy birthday, my sis...

well...i know i still owe u a present for ur wedding, another one for ur birthday( which is today) and another one for ur new home...but...i do believe in saving things for the last....
so hope on, sister... happy birthday again...

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Congratulations, my sister!!!part II

And so, this time around, the much awaited and planned-DINNER had come and gone. The event, which was a blast for me, could have been more perfect if it had not rained on that much-awaited time!!!! DARN TIMING FOR THE WEATHER!!!! If it hadn’t rain, the candles on the table + pot pourri + candles surrounding the pool would have created the EXACT atmosphere that we planned. But darn the weather, it rained at the time we were supposed to lay the table clothes and light up the candles. And so, it ruined the atmosphere. It was soaking night but thankfully after the VVI COUPLE arrived, the rain put a stop. And as the guests started taking food, we (with a help of my close friends and help from cousins) started setting the guests table ASAP. I was sweating like a pig! But yet, I managed to do my tasks. And yeah, never forget that I accidentally stepped into the drain coz of the bad lighting there. Actually, I shouldn’t blame the lighting. The lighting plays the part in creating the atmosphere we wanted. I think it shouldn’t have been the rain to fault. Why did it rain at that timing? Why wasn’t it earlier or even right after the guests leave?? Or how come it just didn’t rain the day before and leave us a peaceful night during the dinner?? Haih!!! Why? Why? Why? Even till now, I wished things were different on that day. Then, we would have held a successful glamorous dinner after all. Exactly like what the invitation said. But it’s done. There’s no turning point. Like Poh Mei says, things happen for a reason. It’s a lame excuse or even a lame “comforting words” but there can be a point!!!

But despite what happened, I enjoyed myself during that night. That’s because we planned the night and it did turn out fine (pardon the rain)!!! The “ kolam” was beautiful!!! The music was exotic (pardon the people who can’t enjoy the music)!!! My sister was extremely pretty and so was my **Ahem** charming bro-in-law, he was as handsome as Keanu Reeves…. hihihi!!! I met more people!! And importantly, my friends were there too_ Poh Mei, Sook Yee, Sean (too bad, Mano n Yee Teng n few more couldn’t make it)!!!

So, mistakes I regret the most…
1) it shouldn’t have rained
2) I should have arranged someone to do video coverage. I have the gadget but I just didn’t get to do the job myself. Video shooting is what we are lacking right now!!!
3) It shouldn’t have rained
4) I should have pushed my sis n my bro-in-law into the pool (I don’t really regret not doing this but it’s a thought)
5) There should be a better planning for the worse to come (let’s say, the rain)
6) Last but not least, it shouldn’t have RAINED!!!!!

Sooooo…. anybody need my help to plan a wedding??? Hire me :D!!! Let’s say if interior design makes me bored, I’ll turn into a wedding planner…hihihi!!! That’ll be fun and challenging too!!!
P/s: I’m just kidding about planning the wedding, ok? But I don’t mind decorating the house for you…. :P

Anyhow, what I can’t quite believe is that the wedding n dinner n CNY just happened too fast. I still remember that I was waiting eagerly for the day to end last Friday. I was at work, waiting for 4.30 pm. So the time came, I went back home, relatives started coming to my house, did some ceremony on my sister, didn’t sleep the night, flew to Penang, try fitting in there, met more people, my sis n bro-in-law tied the knot, I was bored n moody, went back to the rest house, enjoyed the fireworks at midnight, flew back to KLIA, uncle came n pick us up, my cousin sis n bro left the house, I slept alone in the night, next morning the newly weds came back home, I went out with sean n sook yee n collected ang pows, the next day started preparing for the dinner night, went to IKEA to buy stuffs for my sisters new home, the next day( the dinner day) went to the venue and started putting the “kolam” and prepared the table arrangements, then it rained, then night took place, I slept alone again, the next day the newly weds came back home again, then we went to Batu Caves to look at the “tallest LORD statue in the world”. And taa daa…it’s Sunday…and tomorrow life gets back on the normal track…on the tiring n boring track!!!! Projects, classes and practical training!!! I think I’ve enjoyed to the max during this one-week break. And so, life has to be back on track tomorrow. Goodbye, entertainment and family and fun!!! I shall miss you….

But there’s still one more event to go…. The day my sister and her spouse shift to a new home. That shall not be a long to wait. Should be happening any time soon. So till then….

P/s: I have lots of photo coverage. I shall be posting them soon…

Sunday, January 29, 2006

congratulations, my sister!!!

And so, my sis and bro-in-law finally got hitched officially to Hindu’s tradition. It was a ceremony with lots of love. And I’m really happy for my sister. And of course, also for the charming (ahem**) bro-in-law. I can’t imagine anyone else being in his position even though he drives me up the wall all the time. But love is love. And I love them both very much. Now that she will no longer stay with me in this big house, I get to have lots of space. Just that, it’ll be lonely when I’m having my holiday, I need to get all the beauty stuffs myself (*shampoo, facial wash, etc), watch the TV all by myself and sleep all by myself. I won’t be comforted anymore knowing that she won’t wake up earlier than me anymore in this house on weekdays. Lot’s of changes are bound to happen. But I’m sure there’s something good about this. But yet, I’m still very much happy for her. Yes, maybe I was quite cold and moody with her yesterday, during the wedding, but that’s because I’m mad at I don’t know-what. I have my reasons.

Anyhow, yesterday was my first experience on a flight. Yes, the first time!!! Even though it was a local destination, I enjoyed the ride very much. Thanks to my sis, she sponsored us for the trip, including for her too. And I am truly amazed at how the plane actually works and amazed how it can actually fly. My sis told me that an airplane couldn’t go backwards when it’s on the ground. So these planes need the trailer’s help to push them. Quite interesting. A mighty transport in the air needs help from a little partner. So, the part I like the most is when the plane takes off and keeps soaring high. There’s something energetic about it. But I also like it when the plane is slanting. AirAsia got style, according to my father :D. When we were leaving Penang, once again we took the plane, this time without my sis. So from up there u can actually see the Pulau Pinang and it’s famous bridge and so on. For me, it’s quite impressive. I’m actually like looking through my geography knowledge once again…u know on the types of clouds, the river that leads from inland, the arranged housing system, Sepang with lots of “kelapa sawit”, etc. And tell me about the clouds, man!!! Phew, that was a cool view. The clouds were thick and rich in texture. It keeps reminding me of the land of Narnia when it’s being ruled by the evil witch. It’s snowy and white and icy all over the place :P . And Penang itself is something different. We accommodated a rest house on the hill of Bukit Mertajam, courtesy of my bro-in-law’s side. And the house is just cool. It’s a four floor house and when u reach the highest part of the house, you can actually see the surrounding of BM( Bukit Mertajam). So, with that opportunity, we experienced fireworks everywhere, exactly at 12 and on. That’s because Chinese were ushering CNY. It was a cool place to be. I wouldn’t mind leaving in Penang. Besides, they are also building another twin tower there that can remind me off KLCC. But we didn’t have the time to go places in penang. They said the famous St. Anne’s church is a nice place to be. I would like to of go there. I would also like to see the Kek Lok Si temple at night. I want to go to Feringghi beach.

So anyhow, there is one more event to go. The dinner reception that’ll take place this Wednesday. My sis and her spouse will be back tomorrow. And that’s wonderful. I’ll get to see her again. But she’s actually a married woman now. It’s different already. And that’s sad. 2006 is a turning point for her, my brother and me too. I’ll graduate this year. My brother will be back here. My sis is MARRIED :D.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

changes in life

well..well..wuddaya noe...there's only one day left for my sister's big day. tomorrow i'll still do my practical training...then off to klcc to get dv cam... and after tomorrow it's holiday...yippie!!! no need to go training for one week....
adn teh day after tomorrow...my sis will get married and we will all be in penang...yippie... and officially she won't stay with us anymore..yippie... :D
so till the big day comes... now, signing off....

by the way, HAPPY CNY to all......gong xi fa cai.....

Monday, January 23, 2006

countdown....

5 more days to go and the weekend will arrive and we will be in penang. and for the first time i'll experience the intimate ceremony of my siter's wedding. a wedding of someone that i'm closely related. :P sweet!!! i'm excited!!! and also the thought about the dinner next wednesday. i hope it'll be glamourous all rght... :D

p/s: i need somebody to lend me a digital camera for my own personal use BUT related to the wedding n dinner.

anyhow, practising at Te Draftech design company was good. Just that my back hurts( i guees my sitting posture is not rght), i have flu and i suffer from dry burning lips( the air con). so wish me luck..there's still three months to go....

Monday, January 16, 2006

i'll be practising tomorrow...

Dec 15_ called Q + A (a design company in Jalan Raja Chulan) to place myself as a trainee. They, in return, asked me to fax my resume which I did the next day.

One week later_ I called the company again about it. They said the company is interested in taking part in the program( the practical training program). I was flying over the moon. I’ll be called after the boss comes back from holiday, which is after new year.

The first week after new year_ I waited n waited n waited for the “call”. At last I called them. The person in charge wasn’t there.

The first day my college started_ I was left behind. Everybody is doing the training except for me. That’s coz I was too confident that I will be accepted as a trainee at the company. I still remained my confidence that I called the company for the last time. And I was called for an interview at last.

Wednesday_ my FIRST ever interview that I did for my profession. Everything went well. They were happy with my work. They seemed interested and said will give me a call by the end of the day. I was flying over the moon again till I received an sms. It was written with regrets, saying I can’t be accepted as a trainee. I blanked. It never occurred to me that they could reject me. It was heartache. I totally blanked. I didn’t see that coming. Sad, I asked what was the problem. It seems they need permanent staff, etc. I just couldn’t believe it. And so I tried planning my next step… which is postponing the practical training + ID’s studio to later. Some friends reminded me not to give up. Thank you, guys!!! But I still was planning on my postponing.

Thursday_ went to see my lecturer. She said I could postpone but she assured me not to give up as well. If there’s no other choice, I can continue with the postponing plan. Till then, I should still try other companies.

Friday_ went to another interview at another design company at Bandar Sri Tasik Permaisuri. It went well again. I like the boss and the other staff who interviewed me. They are nice and friendly. The boss even showed me the company’s current project. Trust and sharing, you see. But there was just one problem, again. It seems like, with CNY approaching and project in hold, the boss is afraid he’ll waste my time by accepting me. Coz there’s a big gap of holiday. He said it would have been better if I could have come earlier. They could have thought me more. See??? They are so willing to share. I like that.
So, there goes another company that couldn’t accept me.
**this interview was set up for me by Yee Teng…thank you, girl!!!

Monday(which is today)_ for the last time, I was to attend another interview again. I was so prepared to postpone the training and fantasized a lot about staying at home for three months that the thought of attending the interview came like a breeze. It didn’t affect me much. And I never felt so fed up attending interview and talking about my work over n over again. Anyhow, when I actually went to that company, they accepted me. And guess what…after dreaming of working at the jalan raja chulan or even the bdr sri tasik permaisuri’s company…it never crossed my mind that this company, which is just a 20 minutes walk away from my home, will accept me. It’s just weird to see how things settle down. When I want something, it turn out to be otherwise and vice versa.
So I’ll start my practical training tomorrow. The location is quite perfect. I’m familiar with Desa Pandan. The company is nearby almost everything. Bakery, McD, KFC, Watson, England Optical, etc. But I got to walk everywhere. I hope I’ll have a well toned legs then…hihihi…

So finally, my life is back into places. Back into order with a slight change( I’ll be working). Now, I shall wait for the big day. The day my sis gets married. It’s just two weeks away. Good on ya, sis!!!