Celebration!!!Celebration!!! Shivendhra is ONE!!!

McD, Old, Town PJ 20 October 2007

It's almost reaching to the end of the year...

Hail to baby Shivendhra as he's turning One this Friday the 19th!!! Yippie!!!

On the other hand, today's the day after the Raya holiday. It's a boring day and I'm having the Tuesday blues. I'm the one and only one here(exceptions for the receptionist and my boss) and I'm preparing drawings to attend my first site meeting without my boss at the new Brickfields hotel. My first one!! At this exact moment, last year, I was the sales girl, helping my aunt at the KL Sentral's Deepavalli sale and here I am, attending a meeting. How flattered I am!!! btw, I'll still be the sales girl come this 27 October, helping my aunt at the exact venue again. Well, this could be helpful to fill the hole in my account. No matter how much I tried to keep track, I'M ALWAYS broke by the middle of the month. Well, I know everybody has the same problem but the difference is I don't have commitments but I'm still broke. How am I going to buy a VW Beetle? And I've been working for 11months 4 days now. Time to leave, baby!!

Say this out..fast...

KuKikisKikisKukuKakiKirikuKakakkuKataKakikuKaku

A Malay tongue twister from my senior...

O-eh....

So.....I had another/extra 3 hours of driving practice...and there was no stalled session,I drove well....this better be way worth it and worth the unpaid leave I'm taking from office. I am taking the tests AGAIN tomorrow. I think about it and the test is definitely a phobia. Yes, I have driving test phobia...hihi...weird, huh?

Haih...just let me through la...I have plans to go to a lot of places!!This is freaking crazy....If I fail AGAIN, I'll crush the Kancil like a toothpick...hmmm,only Mr. Incredible can help me though...

Anyhow, I'm praying for myself...I'll be wearing the "lucky shoe" or wutever it is to let me through...

How come God didn't protect the child?

www.nurinjazlin.blogspot.com

This is a part of what I do when I'm working...

This work is a result out of : Adobe Photoshop, internet reference pictures, scanned pattern and voilà, there's the entrance to a casino and a bar.

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and then i had to make things worse.... I actually fed my poor nephew with hot food. I didn't do it on purpose. I mean, who would? But the pause and the wailing sound my nephew gave after he eagerly fed from the spoon was enough to make me guilty and to remember his reaction. Plus, my mom clearly let me knew that she shouldn't have let me fed him. Her reaction doubled my guilt :(

I wouldn't hurt him.

Thank goodness that he's well. He's still laughing and mumbling away.

FAILING to balance the clutch on top the hill + FAILING to indicate the turning signal...

I know it's just a driving test but FAILING it is the hardest. It's been a tough weekend. One moment I was waiting for my turn to do the test and the next, it's all over!!! I know it's just a simple matter but it's really making me mad. I'm mad at myself. It's so unreal. I still can't believe that it ended that way. Now, it's costing me extra money and time.

And I feel like a loser! I couldn't even pass a driving test!!!!

I guess, I can only do SO LITTLE in general. That's what making me even furious.

So now, which hole should I put my head into? AAAaaaarghhhh!!!!!

p/s : I'm not even close-to-being happy so pardon me for my behavior. I couldn't make up my mind and keep everyone happy. So, in the end, I just want to be myself.

Updated at once...

whoa....it's September 11 already!!! ooo...remmber NY's Sept 11 attack? Hmmm...I was just in form 3 and look where I am right now.... :D hihi!anyhow, that wasn't my point. Uhm...I don't even know why I brought that up. Just to randomly blog, I guess.

Well, before I forget, I have to congrat my bro as he had successfully turned 26. Happy Belated Birthday, bro!! I can't believe that he erased my number but then, he IS being himself.

anyhow, what have I been doing all these while? We rushed for the casino project based in Ho Chi Minh during the weekdays and weekends and as soon I've got my break, I was hanging with my sister instead. It's cool to hang out with her. But I have always hated the mornings where I have to wake up early and come all the way back to home and head to office. Eeerrieee!!!

So, anyhow, this house was struck by the lightning. The astro's decoder was damaged and the telephone line wasn't working. What's weird is that without these two sources, life moves on blandly. Imagine life without the entertainment box and the access to the web, it'll be like there's nothing else to do. Well, it's true. That's because I don't do anything else. My daily activities are just evolving around work, watching TV, sitting in front of the computer, eat and sleep. I don't even read the newspaper anymore.

See, like these days, I'm addicted to this new networking website. It's Facebook. Well, it has been existing for a while outside of M'sia but it's just recently that I'm in. I am not addicted into adding friends, I already have that Friendster where I don't even talk to the 75% of the added friends. Anyhow, this time I'm addicted to feed my pet Tofu. Yeah, it's a Tofu alright and if I pet other people's pet, I earn munnies ( points to feed my Tofu). It's like a kiddie stuff and my Tofu has a way-too-kiddie name too. It's called Squishy(inspiration from Finding Nemo) but that's all that matters :D.

Cute, ain't it?

And then, I can also go to the extent of "googling" my name; Loshini Danappal and just look at the lousy result that showed up.



One lousy Friendster account and two lousy school reunion tracking lists; one in a blogger's page and the other, the school's reunion website(reminder;I'll never attend one again!!!). Anyhow, where the heck is my blog? I'm not using any other name, just my own. Hrmphh!!

Btw, bro, googling your name showed way too much of results but you never once showed your details. Hrmphh!!

And sis, if I don't blog, you can always visit Kenny Sia's blog if you want to be entertained. Trust me, he's one of the pioneer blogger in M'sia, he's amusing and he earns money by blogging too.

Okie, now to jump off the topic(if there was any...)....
I'm like really very close to get myself a digital camera... it's got to happen soon.

And yeah, the final quest to get the much awaited ticket to drive. The test is on this Friday and hopefully there's no need for a retake. Crap this process is !!!

And oooh yeah, my senior who's at the diverging road to work outside of Malaysia is driving me to dream as well. He's going to the "land of Borat". Oh, I wish that I'm able to have something similar. Did I mention before that I did screw, from time to time, in the MJ's Health Centre project? Anyhow, the boss is giving me opportunity to handle a project. Well, I know that it's going to be a tough one.

Besides the works being done in the office, I still have one pending project from my sister. That's to design a room for the little-toddler-who-is-is growing-up-way- fast.



p/s : Sis, I'll remove the pic as soon as you say so :D
Hihi!! Knowing how this young parents protect this young baby, I'll remove the picture as soon as it's done spicing up my dull blog :D

Ooooh, talking about spicing up, there's this one picture that I love. It was taken recently with one of the best bunch of my friends.




Of course, there's me, Faiza, Hui Ling, Poh Mei and Manoghowrii. Nice, no? All of us signing our significant age. yeah, so cliched the poses are, I know. But wut the heck, it was fun posing!! :D

Okie dokie....written too much till my back's tired again.

So this lady got to stop.
:D

Downfall...

Finally, the MJ Health Screening project at IBM Tower is over. Two weeks of hard work will be paid when I get my salary at the end of this month. Cheers!! And soon, it'll be the Hakka Restaurant project to handle.

I finally got my rest during the weekend and come next weekend, I have to decorate an engagement house that I came to know through my cousin sister. The host will be paying me but I'm afraid that she has something prepared for me up her sleeves. I'm beginning to understand people and how sleek they can be. Never mind, I'll do it for once and I'll wait for the result.

So, today, when I thought I had a good sleep, I actually woke up to a series of waist pain. Even wearing a pants was a difficult task to handle as I had to bend. Ignoring the pain, I went to India Town***ahem***Masjid India** to get some materials for the decoration. Reaching home and I tried watchign Pirates of the Carribean and I dont' even feel comfortable sitting down. Thinking a rest on the bed will help release the tension at my waist, it turned out to be worse. I couldn't sit up again nor get out of the bed. The pain was too much to handle. So , forcing , all by myself, I stood up straight with the support of my bed. I've managed but that's when the sharp pain at my waist got worst and I supported myself on the grill. It was too hard to stabilize myself and I started sweating profusely and my vision was blackening. The next thing I know, my mom shouted my name and I was lying on the floor trying to gather my vision and myself. This has to be the worst thing that happened to me. It's reminding me on how old I am turning to be and the unhealthy food I'm consuming everyday. When I think about it, I still can't believe that it happened to me.I actually fainted. It sounds so silly and weak. And I am never weak.

Concluding The Lims that I know

If you do realize, the list on "my true friends test" box are filled up 80%.
And I finally realized that I have all the "Lims" in the world as my friends.

Mary Lim
Martha Lim
Sean Lim
Cathryn Lim

I wonder if all of them are related to each other some how or rather. Then, it'll be like tracing all the way back to Indonesia as Martha is an Indonesian. I mean, how cool is this?

Cool.....

Impressive layout after all...check this out....RED ROCK RAILROAD

30 July 2007

Well, I am exactly 21 and I am a working young adult and I got another salary raise after my two months raise. And once again, even the littlest amount makes a big impact in my life. So, that's why even 100 counts and finally reaching my figures to a point. My boss said I work hard, so once again my hard work worths 100. Well, it's good enough for me. For now. Worry that later as it has smallest impact on me as I am still enjoying myself working there. I bet after a year, I can demand a higher amount.

Never mind that, so, this morning I received a call from this other wonderful friend of mine. I've been waiting for her call and there she goes, calling me today, early in the morning. It's good that I recognized her. Now, this Mary girl is also one of a kind. I had to thank the lousy SAB school management for putting us in the same class when we were in form 2. Well, at least they did something wisely. And then the rest is history. She shifted again the following year and now we are countries apart but we do keep in touch through this blogging thingy. Never mind the gaps but we have some plans lined up; one's a bet and the other's a vacation trip. See, even the smallest amount counts. To cut this short; Mary, I have to say..thanks for the call.... :D **hugs**

So, besides that, my dear mother gave me gifts with love too. I shall appreciate and be thankful about that. I mean, she even cooked some delicious food for me. And then, I love my deary sister and my nephew too.

" love's all around me. i'm at peace."

29 July 2007

and that was a another remarkable day as that's when the small little girlie group from SAB actually came together as one to celebrate my day. like I mentioned earlier, only the humblest" thing counts. the simplest gathering that makes me happy. it don't even matter whether it was for a short timing but everyone's presence counts. I mean, these girls are very dear to me. who would have thought that this small group from form 4 can still keep it together and laugh about the school days after almost 4 years. After all, our characters are totally different from one another and we are like scattered everywhere; one who's working, four who's still studying from UK till Cyberjaya. haih! I mean it's really amazing to have really good friends that you can get along well.

So, girls and not forgetting Hui Ling's other half Ming Wang, thanks for the gathering. Thanks for the treat. Thanks for the sumptuous cake that's presented to me with lot's of love and thanks for the gifts. Lastly, thanks for being there for me.

Saturday, 28 July 2007

It was the day I get to meet Fish(Sook Yee) since I last saw her at her B'day Party. And this time it's mine. Well, just one and a half day short. Almost 95% says that being a 21 is something special. I have yet to figure what's that. But when, my loved ones made effort to do something, I've began to appreciate. But just pardon big parties, that's just so vain. Believe me, I don't want to feel uncomfortable throughout the process. It's so not me. But when there's some humble surprises, I really appreciate it to my deepest extent. That's what they did, this Fish and Sean. I had a great time. Their attempts to get me a gift by indirectly asking me, their attempt to know my cake's flavor( that's Sean's job) , their planning to set things around,etc.....it's really moving. It was just the two of them but I'm still happy. I still have to thank the others (Cat, Phylicia, Pui Lin, Teoh and Martha) for getting me the gift and the delicious cake(which is a specially made cake and that's according to Sean). Awwww...they are great. And yeah, even Yee Teng attempted to come but didn't get to make it(she still wished me through the phone). I am feeling happy and contented.

Phase I

Past two weeks had been hectic at work. The Health Screening Project which is being based at Bandar Utama's IBM Tower kept all of us tied up with lot's of drawing to handle and late nights in office. Simple , the project is a follow up from Taiwan. So, Taiwan's designers design for the local site and WE will draw all the details for all the angle. We did our best. I did commit errors on the drawings and the final printing and the 3 of us came out with the total drawings counting up to 60pages with me handling a 35% of it. and that was just a whole effort in completing the Phase I of the project. what's waiting is a bigger Phase II with another two weeks to complete. i think it's going to be another hectic two weeks in trying to amuse and impress the Taiwanese that we can also keep up to the "standards" by completing our drawings in English, not in Mandarin.

Btw, 1 August marks the starting of my driving lessons and I am eager to get through and soon to wheel my way. Being a 21 is when I'll get to drive. At least, it's now and not later.

wanna know how stupid people can be?

** precaution; i'm about to condemn an individual.

Well, two ID trainees, particularly from LIUCT, joined this company with such a basic knowledge that reminded me of myself when I did my training too. Except that, they are far worse than me. Well, especially for that particular 20-old-girl. Upon constant dissatisfaction that she keeps creating, my senior decided to have a talk with her about her "emotionless" behaviour,her working etiquette and also the quality of her work. What's funny is that after "the talk"; while we were thinking that it didn't knock any wut-so-ever sense into her head, she SUDDENLY carried her "cute" lil handbag and walked out of the office without a word nor any sense.She never came back on that day(and we are yet "waiting" till Monday) and she didn't even call anyone about it. While all these were happening, my boss wasn't even in. And yet, she's so dared to walk out and to not come back. Her always-sticking-up-for-her-boyfriend was telling that she couldn't handle stress and she was feeling so ashamed from the talk. If what she experienced during her one month training here is what you call as stress, she's just got to be kidding me. Wait till she starts working in a big company where there's more than four staffs. Well, I WISH HER ALL THE BEST. And I can't wait for the drama to continue on Monday.

p/s: I know that this is exactly what one call as an office gossip but I just couldn't stand the girl.

Lousy..lousy...

Clearly, I have a bunch of lousy friends who either don't give a care about me or they are just plain ignorant in bothering to check their mail or my blog. Juts check my list where only Sean bothered to humor me.

Just for fun.. :P

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/746414

a test from Sean Lim Wei Sheong to prove how much I know him. I faired good enough with his test and to reverse back, I created one for myself too. So...try "sitting" for the test...check out the score board on the right of my blog.

Loading with thoughts and dreams....

:P I'm giggling with joy. First, I was downloading Google Earth. Then, the website led me to a video called "Where the hell is Matt" in You Tube. This guy is just funny as he is endlessly dancing to the same steps at every place that he visited. On the deeper thought, I envy him for all the places he had visited and that he has a chance to video all of the places.

In fact, I envy everyone who've made it to other countries. Haih!!! When will I get the chance?
Never mind about me but do check out the video :P I bet you'll be amused too.

One of the many things from my list, I would like to experience Rainforest World Music Festival that's being held in S'wak all this year and which is exactly happening right this moment.

.......21......

An exclusive gift from Hallmark stated; "Age is just a number, I don't do numbers. "


Whoa! Very catchy indeed. Next time the question about my age arises, I'll be like " Sorry, I don't do numbers" and walk away. Nice one! Haha... I am so vain.

Just that being above 20 sound so old.

Funky wall arts and cheerful me.... :D

Just came to know that "wall art" is a trend in the western countries. And I, totally ADMIRE this wall art thingy. I've came across one hotel where all of their rooms are with different wall murals. It's been posted before. Here's the way to get the cool peek once again at Hotel Fox.
And today, I found them again at TheCoolHunter . Finding all these sources, how I wish that my boss will break from his design style and for once agree with something trendy for the hotel project in hand :P

I'm thinking something in that trend for Shivendhra's bedroom. I'll make that happen. Trust me all the way, sister :P

Anyhow, we are working on this traditionally cool restaurant at a cool local spot. Worked on the coloured-building elevation and the site perspective(with Photoshop that is!) in one day with a cool result. I'm feeling happy.

p/s: links on my blog somehow leads to something interesting...so, keep scrolling.

Discovering buildings.....and Us, the semi-professionals.......

I was streaming the channels when I came across Discovery channel's Man Made Marvels. That's where I came to know about Beijing's new Olympic Stadium which is to be in a form of a bird's nest. Here's a look at a website that I found at the first search result. Sometimes, I just wonder at their mind's search engine. It's pretty impressive. I don't know how functional this form can be but once the form is there, it's going to be detailed for the thousand years to come. It'll be a history. And that's when the episode was discussing the issues of the stadium having risks of the earthquake, they showed the National Grand Theater in Beijing,China which had similar risks. Here's a look at the egg and some Wikipedia info .

Anyhow, here's a thing that's been bugging me since I had a talk with Poh Mei about this matter.Welllll..... I disapprove people who thinks that being an interior designer ain't dignified like a doctor or even a lawyer who are the professionals. Well, we are NOT professionals. I don't deny that. But having the idea that it only works to be IDer when the name rises to fame is just so wrong. Clearly, people just judge by the outlook. Forget about houses, people are just not exposed nor capable to have their houses to be designed(it's understandable) but when it comes to commercial spaces, even the very small hip restaurant or even a retail shop that you walk into are a contribution from us. We don't merely put furnitures in or decorate the space with flowers! but we also make sure that the space circulation is perfect,we do design and specify our own cabinets/display features/etc with our own selected materials/measurements, we touch up unwanted exposed column from the architects/contractors, we can decide perfect lighting points and the usage for a space, we make sure that the furnitures positioned functions properly, we just can make a space into anything. We are behind every space you walk in. All the detailing that people outside of this field never seen. Well, I don't need more than a diploma to boost my career and yet there are LOTS of people underestimating me because of my paper qualification.
Why do they even have to ask if I have a degree or even continue for a Degree? People and their perceptions. They just don't know what they are talking about. ID companies does pay good except for the one I'm working now, I know, I know but..(like I've written before, I have my reasons).
Haih...it seems like it's glamorous to have the initials "Dr." I just don't get how people think. Guess, I'm still not matured enough to face the comparisons made by all of us. Like who's having a Degree, who's buying a car first, who's going to earn more, who's more successful. Aaargh..such an adult world.

p/s: Poh Mei, there are quotes from you and lot's of feedback from my side, I know. It's just a defense.

Dream a little dream: 2

Sleeping right after reading Mary's blog; moved when she wrote "velvet schounchy sky with stars"(what's scounchy btw?), I dreamed of Polar Express-set-of-a-magical Christmas night plus soundtracks. I let go off the reindeers into the starry magical sky and that's when baby "Mumble" and adult "Mumble" flew above my rooftop. Suddenly, Poh Mei was on a wheelchair and Hui Ling's back from London and we were sitting in one of the classes of my primary school with classmates from my secondary school friends (Yogan's for one that I could remember well).
The dream seems scattered but there's a base for part of it. Reading Mary's blog was one. I couldn't explain about Happy Feet's character though. Poh Mei in a wheelchair was for her health. Hui Ling back here with the same hair style from her Friendster photo was because she IM'ed me yesterday saying she'll be back in no time. And as for Yogan, she called me recently and I missed the call. Felt kind of bad about it and the thought comes back from time to time.

So, a dream mean anything at all? It seems like this dream I dreamed is about what I am feeling. It's weird but I love dreaming in both conditions; consciously and unconsciously :D

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It seems like the project has been handled. So it's a wrap. Enough about that.

Anyhow, my past weekends being a helper and a sales girl for my aunt was one heck of a ride. Hate and loved the process. Met lots of people. People who are just so sly in getting a cheaper bargain, people who are just plain innocent, people who are just too friendly that it's like talking to an old friend and even some from my schooling years. Funny thing is that half of the customers assumed that I'm from India. And that I couldn't speak in Tamil too. Everybody just kept talking in English. Although it's an honor, I don't want to give the impression of being a snob. So, I tried my best conversing in Tamil (only that I don't know the numbers in Tamil). But thinking that I'm not a Malaysian, that sucks big time. I am looking forward to the other big sale that'll be happening come Diwali because being successful in making people buy the products is a sweet result. Besides, it's like being in a different world outside of the normal office routine. Well, let's hope that my mind won't change by then.

So, come this weekend, it's back to my driving lessons.

As for my office life, there are going to be two new trainees from LUCT which means there will be 5 designers now. Attention will be drifted to both of them. We'll just see how things will go on.

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This project I'm partly involved now, this city project,well, I HATE IT TILL THE TOP OF MY HEAD.
Let's just pray for this day to end up earlier and I'll go home with a free mind.


Update at 6.30pm(after my office hour):
I'm still at office and it seems like submission date is not due till next week. It's sad because now I still have to work on this project.

Impression does matter 2

I am having dilemmas again where I find it so difficult to handle when it comes to designing. I couldn't transform or manipulate a design into anything. This is when I'll start thinking again. Start thinking on how far can I even go. How can I even earn at least RM 3000? How can I even dream of finding myself to work outside of Malaysia? And my skills are worth rm900 only? Am I that bad? This is seriously disturbing.

This job that I am supposed to do is build buildings for a city in Vietnam. I just have to do a 20% of it and yet, it's extremely giving me the downs. I just couldn't handle it as I need to build buildings and build them with 3ds Max(3d software). The boss said that my building is lousy and asked me to follow exactly like the reference given. I'm just so disappointed on myself and it's not helping me to work at all. I dread Mondays. Tomorrow's going to be a hell of a Monday. Let's say, I just couldn't handle it at ALL, what will the boss do? Fire me? Or he'll reduce the RM100 he raised for me earlier? Aaaargh...i know he wont do either.... but impression does matter! !!

Dang!! Let's just hope that the sunrise will be delayed..... (yeah, dream on, Loshini!!!)

p/s: I even had to search, "How to be a designer?".... this is really bad!!!

Numbers and celebrations....

June is already here. A lot of birthdays are in line.
To begin with, Happy Birthday, Mary Lim. I can't believe that I've mistaken the birth date of yours. Thousand of apologies.

Next in line will be Fish's,Teoh's and Faiza's with two of them hitting their 21.

And although October seems far away, in a blink of an eye, my nephew will be 1 year old. That's just five months to go. I dream that by then, he'll be able to walk the walk and talk the talk. And if there's going to be a celebration, it's going to be one where every other kids will be envying about(am bragging too much,ain't I?) Well.... just my point that we'll do anything for him as long he don't get too pampered and spoiled :D.

And then there are Poh Mei's, Hui Ling's and last of all Mano's. And Christmas and New Year and 2008. Whoa, that's fast!!!!

Impression that matters

Not performing well in college is one thing. Not performing to the best for your boss is totally a another thing. And that is just one bad mark for my reputation. Coz I believe impression is really important. Everybody believes so. Well, nothing happened. Just a little self dissatisfaction that's been bugging me. A task that's been given and lots of error been made. So, here are the two of my best work done for the presentation. Nothing to brag about as these two views are solely completed out of Photoshop touch-up and references. Anyhow, it's about time for me to do something about my 3Ds Max skills and work faster and restraining myself from feeling sleepy at work. Don't get me wrong but exciting tasks keeps me hyped-up but boring colours or without the presence of the boss, it just slows me down.

Final result
Original reference


Final Result
Original Reference


anyhow, on an unrelated story, all I want is to have some decent sleep come weekend but it's about to get spoiled this time when I have to attend for a shifting-to-a-new-home prayer of my uncle which will begin at 4am. I mean, who the heck gets up that early? HAih! I'm not allowed to say more.

Dream a weird dream.....

I was in the car when there's a motorcycle passing me by. And guess who was riding on it? It's the lovable Frodo Baggins @Elijah Wood. From my understanding, he was on his way for the making of the "Hobbits". Instead of being somewhere else more appropriate, he's here, in KL, at this dingy place. Now, that's weird!!!

swingin..swingin...

May 20, Sunday..and finally had my chance to catch the friendly neighborhood, Spiderman. It was worth my RM 15 and I would like to add an original DVD collection of the movie. and LOTR Trilogy too.
Why am I writing this? Well, just a reminder to myself about the list of things I'll need to collect. And to remember this day where I spent time with Mr. Sean, the little kiddo good friend from college.

Btw, my boss' mom passed away this morning. My condolences to his family. This news made me realize of how things can turn out. One day you are fine and the next day, you will be hit with a stroke or even cancer. Nobody knows and that's how fragile life is laid upon us. It's kind of scary. So, eating healthy food solve it all like it's been said or it just happens no matter what?

p/s: i passed "undang" test with a close score of 44/50. phew!phew! next is another lecture and soon to learn driving...what a slow process...

p/s 2: anyway, Mary, I wanna have a look at your new wheels. remember ok? =D

yet, another interesting website.....

i was searching the net for some cool hotel room designs when i came across this website(try exploring the website itself for interesting internet pictures) :
World's Most Creative Lifestyle Hotel

the rooms are indeed decorated in a creative way. i tried imagining my bedroom with similar graphic paintings once but i had yet started with the project. and it seems like the left over paints are almost dried :D

so, the hotel is actually placed in Denmark and here's their official website. I wish my boss will, for once, design a space in funky way instead of the boring brownish, woody, old look all the time. I am not complaining but it's just a desire :D


p/s: after surfing for more and more websites, it seems like lots of young people are impressed with the Hotel Fox funky rooms.

interesting

download a cool "analogue vista clock" for free to be placed on your desktop ...



*** now that I've tried having that clock, i think it's one annoying clock.
so since I've already made a post on this, I'll just let it be.

JyN is Down Under

there's a big hole. right here. right this moment.

my dear brother finally left to a place where he belongs...which is anywhere but here. i'm so happy for him that he'll finally live a life like he wanted in sydney(080507) back again. but it's this place that reckons the silence. this wasn't the first time but it wasn't in this state as my dear sister was around here. now, it's just empty. i came back home late from work and it's so quiet, so stark. i know that my brother will feel awkward to read this but.... bro, I'll miss you :D. I'll miss buying KFC for us and feasting together

[+ 100]

AND SO....i've received my much-awaited salary and signed up my confirmation. the number raised was merely a hundred and I still find it difficult to reach these digits... "1000". i mean, who the heck is still earning 900 per month? it got to be this silly girl. so, in the end, my hardwork is just a worth of RM 1oo? it's weird, one moment, i'm just so happy here and the next moment, i'm disappointed. and yet, i don't want to leave this company. complicating ,eh?

anyhow, that 100 does make a difference in my life. thank you very much.

now,now, where can i begin spending? :D care for a treat, my dear hasn't-gotten-a -rest-in-6months sister??


p/s: Mary, japan fund ain't enough yet....

Number and food...

event of today:
i feasted on chicken porridge till i scalded my fragile tongue.

Anyhow, my previous Saturday was at the office, my second home. Out of sudden, The Boss came in. He was surprised with my presence as well. We both laughed it off when I said that he need not worry about paying me for that day and I am there voluntarily. Moments later, he came back to my desk and "declared" that he will be raising up my salary. I, pretending to be cool, tried making it clear with him that my confirmation comes only in May. He, in return, said that it's nothing and I deserve it. After all, I work hard and good. So, he asked me whether I'm happy with the news. All I am saying is that I couldn't be happier.

event on the Saturday:
during that unfaithful timing, i had "mee goreng" at the nearby mamak restaurant, not a stall. I've LIKED it till I found myself facing the head and the upper body of a fly. They didn't charge me on that but i ended up vomiting all of it back in office. Imagine if I had eaten the lower part of the body before that. That's enough to make me vomit.

Workaholic, I ain't not but won't mind being one.... :D

as for the career I am involved with right now, I am feeling more and more comfortable with it. In fact, I enjoy doing it. Of course, I do have my downs. Like, I am slow catcher and am always inside the pool of blur-ness whenever i had to knock some logic sense into the space i am drawing. Although my boss design the space, i had to use logic when i apply the design. That was when my boss told me that I am like a ball who needs to be kicked from time to time. He said it in a joking way and it WAS funny till ...Bang!! It shattered my tiny heart. I don't deny his words. But that made me doubt myself. But right now, I still find it inspiring to work for him. With the ugly sides that all bosses has, my boss inspires me when he designs and delivers his knowledge.

My college friends said that I should quit and find a job elsewhere(my pay is their main "Question"). I say, although 800 a month wont let me improve my financial status, i have nothing to lose for this time being. I feel happy to be able to work here and also to handle a small project by myself. Ok, so I didn't do the design but at least I had the opportunity to apply my boss' design to the whole space and also to construct. and now there's one project(at Lone Pine Penang, a gaming hall) that has been completed. and another(at Cititel, a foot spa) on it's way. Anyhow, i am terrible at designing and my 3D skills are at a drowning stage. But back to the starting point, I am in love what I am doing. And with a few more exciting projects waiting in the company, I wouldn't mind staying longer at TE Draftech. My colleagues, ooh...they are just fun. couldn't be in a better environment than this. and with the recent 1mbs streamyx connection installed with my own network connection plus my boss constantly flying overseas, it couldn't be any better.

p/s: with my less than 1K pay, i finally registered myself to learn driving. My first law related lecturer is on 15 April 2007. and AT LAST, i can cross this from my to-do list. It has been a longgg wait. Phew! pHEw!!

In the end,it doesn't really matter....

In the end, I came to realize that everybody need to have their own time and that's the main priority. I have been invited for an outing for numerous time. But i kept saying sorry to my friends and explained that I couldn't meet them out. And that my time is limited and would love to fill it up by being with my 5+ month old nephew and the family. But little did I know that the same thing would happen to me as well. My sister's time is so limited and for the past 5+ months, her life has been hectic as well. Her baby and family, her job, her in-laws, my family and her new home. And so she is saying sorry to me that she couldn't fill me up in her weekends "schedule". And when it comes to my dear brother, it's going to be the same story as well when he leaves soon to some other place for work.So, i came to realize that I must have my own life too because in the end everybody has theirs and they lead their own way. Meanwhile, I've got to grow up and to not cling on anybody nor being emotional about it.

In the time being, I can't stop drooling over my little "monkey boy" nephew, Shivendhra Sheelan and couldn't be more happier for my sister and my brother in law. Love you all

Office Blues

Taa daa... the holiday arrived and just left.

It was only last Friday when i woke up in the morning with a great enthusiasm to walk to work. i was hyped-up to start work knowing that all of us will get a early time out and celebrate CNY with a week off from work. And now, all that's left is the thought of the gloomy Monday morning. It's a heartache to think that way. It also caused me some unsatisfying sleep till I stayed put in bed till noon.

I have this calendar saying that goes like this, "Remember happiness doesn't depend upon who you are or what you have, it depends solely on what you think".well, that's true,ain't it?
But it's in all of us to be wishing for something more than what we have. It's the same with me. So, right now, I want more holidays.....!

it's been a while......

well, well... it has certainly been a while since i've blogged. yet, so much has changed since the last time i did so. it is because of the time consumped during "the changes" that prevented me from blogging. but then, what is there to blog?

and then, it came to this day, on a faithful friday, where i took the time to go online and have the PC all by myself ( my computer savvy brother is back, that's wut! :P). and then, cleaning up my Friendster account(Urgh! imagine all the junks i have posted there. That was so vain of me!!!).and now, here i am.

so, what has changed or happened?
1) i have finished my diploma in interior design(oct 2006)

2) my pretty sister gave birth to a very adorable baby boy_hopefully my sister will allow me to post his picture.afterall, the baby is a courtesy of hers.(oct 19, 06)

3) my my-world-is-black brother came back home with few habits along(the worst is the one where he holds this stupid stick between his fingers and puffs at it from time to time)

i'll say that i don't know how much of a damage or what's so wrong about a cigarette but the very much idea of it is so wrong. and just tell me about the burning smell!!!

4) i have officialy started working at my previous practical training company. and although i chose the path, it has been a very difficult ride for me. as i am still figuring my standing point. people assume that since i've got my diploma, i am lavished with everything about ID. what makes me ashamed is that I actually don't know anything about it. and then, what the heck was i doing at that college? seriously, i have no idea. the college was just a waste of time. that was just the basic. and paying rm 32 000 for the course is just NOT worth it. but it's done. and i
have been working for almost two months.I believe that I am getting the hang of it.

A goal is what i need. that's what MAry said. and so did my brother. I think i found my goal. but whether this goal is going to be my determination point or just another dream of mine is another question to ponder. for the time being, i'll work my through at TE Draftech.

Despite the crisis that arised, i truly have to say that i am blessed with loving people all around me. although some might be far away, some might be cold hearted, some might lose in touch but these are the people who makes me happy and feel grateful at the end of the day. these people are my family( no matter how screwed up it is), my college friends, my close friends(you know who u r), my seniors.

tough times, big changes, joyful addition and it's already year 2007. and i am going to be 21years old. so, where will i be next year? hihih...i'll be a great friend of baby Shivendhra. and i've got to get that driving license. i think it's a necessity.and then i've got to get a clear direction for my life.

so....that's all for now.

p/s: till i post baby's picture.... :P