I am having dilemmas again where I find it so difficult to handle when it comes to designing. I couldn't transform or manipulate a design into anything. This is when I'll start thinking again. Start thinking on how far can I even go. How can I even earn at least RM 3000? How can I even dream of finding myself to work outside of Malaysia? And my skills are worth rm900 only? Am I that bad? This is seriously disturbing.
This job that I am supposed to do is build buildings for a city in Vietnam. I just have to do a 20% of it and yet, it's extremely giving me the downs. I just couldn't handle it as I need to build buildings and build them with 3ds Max(3d software). The boss said that my building is lousy and asked me to follow exactly like the reference given. I'm just so disappointed on myself and it's not helping me to work at all. I dread Mondays. Tomorrow's going to be a hell of a Monday. Let's say, I just couldn't handle it at ALL, what will the boss do? Fire me? Or he'll reduce the RM100 he raised for me earlier? Aaaargh...i know he wont do either.... but impression does matter! !!
Dang!! Let's just hope that the sunrise will be delayed..... (yeah, dream on, Loshini!!!)
p/s: I even had to search, "How to be a designer?".... this is really bad!!!
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