Vertical Horizon

How to make it happen?

2010-09-26T02:25:00.003+08:00

|Singapore Zoo: 040810 : Nikon D90: L.D.|

Career. Passion. Dream.

Here, Birdie Birdie!

2010-08-30T18:05:00.006+08:00

After an evening shower; Istanbul, Turkey.

Why are they perched continously?
Where's the next flight?

On the other hand, shouldn't one have a brighter future after being tough in another land?

Lost Losh!

2010-08-14T02:10:00.003+08:00

So......Here I am. Back Again.
so, where's the light?

| Rose Valley |

2010-07-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

Visit Turkey 2010

2010-07-02T01:44:00.005+08:00

A YEAR IN DUBAI

2009-07-18T03:59:00.005+08:00

Scene: Uncompleted Burj al-Arab,People: Kurt,Losh, Ad, Hisyam, Nisha
Location: Dubai Mall, Date: 5 May 2009, Picture Courtesy: Ad's Nikon, Taken by: Saifulizan

I am someone with a heart that trembles to make a decision. That's why, at times, when my heart desires for soemthing, I'll just do it. In the end, I'll be figuring out why I did that. That's a point.

Now, it's going to be a year in Dubai come 21st July 2009. I work better now. Productive. Confident. Gained knowledge. Experienced. The co. has it's own freaking issues but all that matters is that I have never stopped learning. A year ago was beginning and this is the journey. My journey when I am just 23. That's an impact, you know. On myself. What is to become after this contract ends? I am undecided. Studying further? Work elsewhere but Malaysia? Live life in Malaysia, again? The third option will be the hardest to commit. Not that I don't love Malaysia nor that I don't miss my family and friends. When you have started a life like this,it's hard to get back to a mediocre life. Just a problem. I need a financial adviser. I don't know where my freaking money is being flushed! See, that's another point to count.

My third point...People say people get lonely when they are living far away from family and such. People get desperate. Wait...wait....that's a general description and it's not that I am in a situation as such. But pointing to a point, it is not so bad to actually have someone that will care for you. I have never been in a relationship, that's right, and of course, I am straight...haha. I've got my crushes and adorations on guys. Turns out that either it's only from me or the guy is not exactly who I will be caring for.
Dubai Encounters:
It's always been the best to start a relationship with a friend of yours rather than a stranger. A stranger is a risk. A friend is for somethign that is more real. The emotions are believable. So, I kid you not when I am about to say that I have found a person that I can just imagine myself caring for him and to let him touch my hands. What is so devastating is that this emotions ONLY evolved when he announced that he is getting married. We are friends checking out/caring on each other and chatting out all the way. My guards were ON; alerting on he's not available and that he is getting married. BAM BAM n BOOM...before I knew it, I was on my knees and I realized that this is a guy that is so worth it that I might give converting into a religion a thought.But I only wanted a decision of his own and he is OFFICIALLY a married man today. And I have a policy of "anti-wrecking-unavailable ppl's-life". So, there you go...another chapter closed. I can move on, that's right, but I won't deny that it did break my heart. It's a miss and that's a chapter soo dear to my heart. So, imagine people in a 5-7 years of relationship and it's been put to a stop in blink of an eye. Dem!!!! And even worse when it comes to people who is married and treatening each other to lose the bond.... ;(

Note GADGETS :P

2009-05-11T04:59:00.003+08:00

This is about a picture taken with a NIKON D90(DSLR Camera) "which will soon be mine" and me editing the picture with ADOBE PHOTOSHOP referring to a tutorial I stumbled across STUMBLE.com.

I loathe the wordings. But I love the retro-ness of the image.

On the other hand, how am I living my life in Dubai, UAE? Coming back from KL and it turns out that life in Dubai is mundane. But truthfully, am at a lowest state of being homesick. At the same time, one thing in my mind now; what is to happen after T.A.K.?

Currently, reading this book called " The Secret"(from the sis). It's on how what you are thinking that is moulding up the life in front of you. I am not sure, but, Ghowrii told me once of a content of a similar talk she went to. Writing out what you want in life and keeping it. Making sure it's positive and exactly what you wanted. I wanted to be earnign x3 the 1K. That was a year back.

Now, working here has made me solid. Thinking back on what I did a year ago, NOW it's worth shouting out....to be continued...

Me love candid

2009-05-02T03:08:00.003+08:00

Shot by Ad. Trip to Abu Dhabi.

Been in Dubai for 9 months and hanging on. Whoo hoo!!! It's good and bad...but I am all grown up now....

How long can we hold it together?

2009-03-05T01:10:00.008+08:00

Mr Ulul Azmi's Farewell at Dubai Creek@27 February 2008@ Photo by Immanuel

From left: Ahmad Fadziddin, Shah Rizal, Ulul Azmi, Hanafi Azwar, Norazizi, Immanuel, Victor, Mohd Zuraidi, Nooraswadi, Lim Yun Miau, Zuraini Ghazali (Ahmad Fadziddin's other half), Loshini Danappal, Harn In, Saidatul Haziah(Shah Rizal's other half), Sook Teng, Asiah Rahmat( Norazizi's other half).

This is a whole chain of ID Dept(almost there and excluding few). One who will be boarding the aeroplane to Malaysia in less than 2 hours. The other three who will be leaving on 31st March. One who chose to be terminated/been terminated. Two who flew away.The rest; who will be here for a period to come.

Off Sheikh Zayed Road, 21 February 2009, Ulul Azmi's last Saturday ride with us@Losh's OLYMPUS
From left; Loshini Danappal, Azmin Azam, Ulul Azmi

Metropolitan Hotel, 5 February 2009, TAK CNY Fusion Dinner@Hanafi's NIKON
From left; Zuraini Ghazali, Asiah Rahmat, Loshini Danappal, Siti Arbaina

Off Syeikh Zayed Road, December 2008, Waiting For A Bus Ride to Site Office@Losh's OLYMPUS From left: Shelly Ross, Harn In, Leanne Lee

Dubai Creek, December 2008, Chilling with hot chocolote@Lean's Timed-DSLR
From left: Lean, Aaron, Chew Yee, Kent, Losh, Kelvin

Al Hudaiba Street, December 2008
From left: Hanafi Azwar, Siti Arbaina, Loshini, Mohd Zuraidi

Counting the days....

2009-02-24T06:14:00.003+08:00

Cafe Havana, Burjuman Mall, Hanafi's Nikon

1. Loshini is dreaming and eagerly waiting for the departure date to arrive.
2. Loshini is patiently waiting for the 11 days to flash by.
3. Loshini is gathering a list of the menu she must have back in KL.
4. Loshini is excited to surpise her mom and father who has no idea that she is going back home.
5. Loshini is jumping over joy on the thought of finally meeting up with her one and only nephew.
6. Loshini is messed up on deciding what to bring back home.
7. Loshini is having happy thoughts knowing her bro will be home too.
8. Loshini is wishing for a well-spent fully-packed 7 days of her time in KL.
9. Loshini is eagerly waiting for a new hair cut coz it's been too long.
10. Loshini is asking you to be prepared to see a flabby side of her.
11. Loshini is going to have toasts with her sis, bro-in-law n Shiv at Old Town White Coffee.
12. Loshini is planning to surprise the girls if they have not been reading their e-mail.

p/s: More to come if I can add up to the list... :D

They call it the TATA Bus....

2009-02-24T05:44:00.003+08:00

The whole working concept in "t.a.k" is messed up enough.
Another addition; a factory bus to ferry,us, the workers to and from work. It's a longer version of "bus mini". Hard,jerking green-coloured seats. Wall-mounted revolving fans. Lights that never went off. It needs a blue body paint and Indians sitting on top of the bus with goods ridden baskets and luggages and voila, a perfect ride for "t.a.k" staffs.

I'm Coming Home...:P

2009-02-20T14:57:00.003+08:00

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Cool discoveries...o.O

2009-02-06T18:39:00.004+08:00

Childhood visited Virtually...
http://www.jdavidmckenney.com/paperdolls50.html

Innovative Staircases
http://www.toxel.com/inspiration/2008/11/22/unusual-and-creative-staircase-designs/

visit Paris
http://dura.cell.free.fr/home/images/parisbynight.jpg

creativity oozing
http://haha.nu/creative/creative-photos-by-chema-madoz/

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away....

2009-01-13T04:15:00.005+08:00

Jumeirah Open Beach, 2 January 2008, 1520 Hours.
Olympus 850 SW. I am lucky to have snapped the shot just in time.

Jumeirah National Mosque, 2 January 2008.

Docking Port, 2 January 2008.

p/s: Coming soon...

5 months in Dubai, 10kg extra in the scale's reading...

2008-12-27T07:25:00.003+08:00

TAK 15th Annual Dinner, Jumeirah Beach Hotel, 12 December 2008

Is the title LOUD enough? I'm shocked to the core myself. All fun, no exercise. I am like joining this other lady who is goign to be a mum soon; I'm with a tummy as big as hers. Way too embarrasing...

by the way, that's a good friend of mine...introducing Mr Ulul Azmi....the hardcore and the very senior in producing good construction details....

and i can't deny it,i feel pretty in there...LOL...gosh, now i am vain ...

Loshini D, Siti Arbaina, Saidatul Haziah, Harn In

Maroon 5 Live in Dubai

2008-12-19T20:27:00.006+08:00

Live life and this is my first concert ever: Maroon 5 Live in Dubai.
Adrenaline rush: Rocking Awesome
Cost: 250 AED
Hotness Rate: Didn't you hear? The temperature exploded
Satisfaction: 80%. It was JUST for one and a half hour.

I love Maroon 5. A friend asked me if I wanted tickets to watch Maroon 5 with a discounted 45 AED for each ticket. Nobody else wanted to go. That's when I decided that I'll do it on my own. Bought the tickets and Chew Yee joined me. I had a good time. It was our first live concert. It rocked to the core of my heart.

Thank you, Chew Yee!!

Sometimes, it's not that I am taking advantage of my freedom. It's just a simple gesture of experiencing something you are interested in. No matter what, I always know where my ground is. At least, I still have some character left in that way. Some believes that I hold on to. I am here and seeing so much lust in each individual. It's so scandolous. Maybe I am naive but yet, I can't agree on why people act the way they do. I, will, still stand on my ground. Period.

Me and my confessions...

2008-12-19T06:39:00.004+08:00

Updating from Satwa,Dubai...

It's reaching 5 months now. The figure of the months I have survived in Dubai. Funny thing is Dubai is turning lovely. Loving the weather. Loving how I can experience this place and having the urge to experience this land I am right now. Complications are here and there but I wouldn't say that I regret being here at all. It's some self satisfaction looking at where you are and have been. At least I some identity on that coz right now, I don't know what I am doing at work. It is too scheduled that I have lose interest. It is boring. I was going with the terms all along. Never stopped to look at the system the company has set up but when you do, the reality hits. I am thinking since when did work became so boring? I am not even close to being a workaholic.I'm young and I am not even passionate on my work? What the hell?!! There are only 2 projects I've put my sole effort. Only 2 to the record. Gosh...seriously...this is bad. The problem is I've stopped and looked and compared. I've been better in my previous company. I'm feeling like a blonde; stupid and stupid. Plus, with all the matters/rumors regarding retrenchments, projects being stopped, colleagues runnning away from the company, pop out of a new contract regarding different matter and bla bla bla; indirectly it does effect. I wouldn't mind being sent back home but at the time I would not quit. I think it's such a waste. My lust; money. Don't get me wrong but at least, there will be somethign with me. I do miss home. Missing Kampung Pandan. Missing rides with sis n family to Mid Valley. Missing having dinner at Passage Thru India. Missing having Nasi Lemak with Mom on Saturday mornings. Missing Desa Pandan. Missing carrying Shivendhra. Missing my previous flat stomach :P. I don't know but I might have changed. I do feel that I have changed. Selfish maybe. Ignorant? Proud? Bolder? It's all in the experience. I am still so proud of being brought up like this. I am who I am because of my parents. I love my family no matter what and I'll stand tall for that. I still am impressed that my parents let me be here. I do realize how cold I am when I talk to them at times. That's where I realize I am being arrogant. I know there's such thing as a recycle. What goes around will always come back around! And I am trying so hard to remember that......

Desert Safari, 7 December 2008, Olympus 850 SW

Lovin Dubai: Night Out

2008-12-02T04:12:00.002+08:00

Harn In, Ulul Azmi, Zuraidi, Loshini

Opposite Haagen Dasz,Al Diyafah Road, 29 November 2008
Lovin this picture coz it looks liek as if we hired a photographer to take the picture. But it's actually my own Olympus and it's 1' H Tripod and some good tripod handling skill from Di*ahem*. I am lovin the way the light is illuminating the picture. The light source is the street light itself. We are sitting by the main road side benches. Come night, people will be sitting around and watch the world pass by. More, it's winter now. Nothing more is perfect than to just hang outside and enjoy the cool breeze.

These are the people surrounding me. The company I am with. The joy I get from.
Dubai is going to be memorable because of them.

Company may suck till the deepest shit hole but the things I learnt from them will be worth it.

Lovin Dubai

2008-11-30T05:52:00.005+08:00

Back of Syeikh Zayed Road, 1pm, 29 November 2008

Season's changing in Dubai. It's cloudy, and cooler with temperature dropping up to 22 Celcius. It will go down lower for the coming weeks.
It miracolously rained last Thursday with lightning and thunder and then, again on Saturday morning.

Ravi Restaurant, Satwa, Wednesday night, 27 November 2008

Well, I'm lovin Dubai's weather.....
but something smells fishy with the company.

Miracle Apartment

2008-11-19T05:08:00.004+08:00

113, Miracle Apartment, 322/8D ST,Al Hudaiba....

Here was the first impression of our living place. Arrived on 21st July and was greeted with this so-called "studio apartment" with an open living space, a toilet and a kitchen with a door. It's 95% close to being called a typical Malaysian hostel. We; Siti, Sue and I; weren't happy by being partitioned by bulky veneer laminated wardrobes in between our beds with no living space or dining. We've handled things on our own. We've made the shifts :P

At least, we were still provided with TV(we bought satellite receiver on our own), iron with board, washing machine, heater, oven, air cond, curtain, dining table with chairs along with three beds and three wardrobes. Well, it aint' so bad for us beginner. Except for the part that HOSTEL is written all over the place.

So, IKEA is the place to hunt although it's furniture isn't the best quality. But we were more keen on the furnishings. Quilt cover, computer table, rugs, carpet, etc. At least, you'll feel home when your space is furnished to your liking. And a HP laptop with a stable internet access to accompany you. Soon, the home is the heaven.

This is my slumber space. Three beds in a row, wardrobes facing in the opposite direction and a space as a living and a dining right at the entrance. If we were to dry our clothes, we have a courtyard-like space in the middle of the building. So, we will drag our cloth liner outside of the apartment to the courtyard. If there's a sandstorm, your cloths will end up smelling like sand. We have a balcony but with an ugly view and the floor which gets dusty every single second. And lately, there has been an attack on me from the bloody bed bugs. It's leaving scars on my scar prone skin.Anyhow, scrap that and this is my lovely slumber land in Dubai.

p/s: Mum, I'm living just fine here and please don't worry about me. I can survive here.

p/s 2: And HELLO Winter in Dubai....whee hee!!! :p

I am pondering....

2008-11-10T03:31:00.002+08:00

When one is abroad, it's been assumed that one is to be wiser.

Well, just having a thought for the moment, but how if I am feeling lost and lousy? Like, what the hell am I doing? Am I even aware of what's going on? And why am I being so ignorant? Losing characters I stood for before. Not even having a strong base for what I stand for. Don't have passion over anything at the moment. I am just feeling so LOUSY & LOST.

Interesting...

2008-10-31T20:39:00.002+08:00

Got this from an e-mail...

There was a one hour interview on CNBC with Warren Buffet, the second
richest man who has donated $31 billion to charity. Here are some very
interesting aspects of his life:

1. He bought his first share at age 11 and he now regrets that he started too late!
2. He bought a small farm at age 14 with savings from delivering newspapers.
3. He still lives in the same small 3-bedroom house in mid-town Omaha,
that he bought after he got married 50 years ago. He says that he has
everything he needs in that house. His house does not have a wall or a fence.
4. He drives his own car everywhere and does not have a driver or security people around him.
5. He never travels by private jet, although he owns the world's largest private jet company.
6. His company, Berkshire Hathaway, owns 63 companies.
He writes only one letter each year to the CEOs of these companies, giving them goals for the year. He never holds meetings or calls them on a regular basis.
He has given his CEO's only two rules. Rule number 1: do not lose any
of your share holder's money. Rule number 2: Do not forget rule number 1.
7. He does not socialize with the high society crowd. His past time
after he gets home is to make himself some pop corn and watch Television.
8. Bill Gates, the world's richest man met him for the first time only
5 years ago. Bill Gates did not think he had anything in common with
Warren Buffet. So he had scheduled his meeting only for half hour. But
when Gates met him, the meeting lasted for ten hours and Bill Gates
became a devotee of Warren Buffet.
9. Warren Buffet does not carry a cell phone, nor has a computer on his desk.

His advice to young people: "Stay away from credit cards and invest in yourself and
Remember:
A. Money doesn't create man but it is the man who created money.
B. Live your life as simple as you are.
C. Don't do what others say, just listen them, but do what you feel good.
D. Don't go on brand name; just wear those things in which u feel comfortable.
E. Don't waste your money on unnecessary things; just spend on them who really in need rather.
F. After all it's your life then why give chance to others to rule our life

I'm BA-ck...

2008-10-19T04:40:00.002+08:00

Let me begin my homecoming to bloggin with this funny incident. Bought a quarter pants at a local plaza in Dubai. Brought back home and eagerly put it on to find something solid at my butt. Looks like our friendly Filipino cashier forgot to remove the sensor thingy from my pants. And no, the sensor didn't alarm any guards. And no, I ain't goign back there just to get it removed.

The road I've taken....

2008-07-13T17:29:00.003+08:00

Good Deed: Sent a stack of RM 5++ worth of my card boards/books/papers for recycling at Tesco, Ampang's recycling center.

Alright, here we go.... here's to my last weekend in Malaysia before my first-ever flight/ my first-ever landing outside of Malaysia. I'll be officially working for TAK on 21st July 2008. That's a week away. Feels so surreal as I was starting to get comfortable with this break I am having. But, seriously, I am excited as well as scared. I am almost 22 and this is my first ever solo survival.

Well, I've made this choice and my dear parents let me do this, reluctantly. Hopefully, I won't be screwing things. Wish me well. And I shall be back in 1 or 2 years time.

For your info:
Dubai is a part of emirates that is forming United Arab Emirates (UAE) .Universal Time Coordinated +4 [eg. 6pm Malaysia, 2pm Dubai]. I don't work on Fridays but instead my first day of the week starts on a Sunday.

What have I been up to?

2008-07-12T01:57:00.003+08:00

Just been waiting before the beginning of the new chapter.
This life's rendition will follow up pretty soon.

In the meanwhile, I am trying to store pictures online. It's perfectly accessible from anywhere.
Let Time ROLL and STORED forever *click the link*

Choose this way or the other? Uhm, no! the other way better or is it? hmmmm...

2008-05-23T20:20:00.003+08:00

Well, Dubai is now in a matter of really signing up the contract or not.

Yeap, I got the offer. In fact, the senior and I got accepted. It's a speechless, most exciting news ever. But as time takes on, as you think more n more, as people from different kind of level advises you and share their opinion, I'm left with more doubts than a straight direction.

On the whole.... I really want try something new in my life.

"Take the road less taken"

I tell you, I learned this poem back in form 4. It was in our literature syllabus. I believe that almost everybody is fond of this well-written poem. Because there must be at least one point in anyone's life where it is a must to decide. To decide which road to travel. And this poem reflects the situation.

ROAD LESS TRAVELED

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth

Then took the other as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet, knowing how way leads onto way
I doubted if I should ever come back

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence
Two roads diverged in a wood
And I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference

Robert Frost

Well, I always dreamed about going overseas. I even thought that I will forever stay at my current company or I'll be working out of here. It's either one to choose. No other diversions. I strictly abhor another "Chinkee" based stingy company. I rather be called jobless than joining them. See...I need this spirit to fight back. So, that, people won't look down on me. So, that people don't think that I'm too young to fight back. My senior told me; "you got to fight when you have to. You can't be naive and be plain nice all the time". It makes perfect sense.

Now, I am blessed with the opportunity. It'll be silly of me to back off. I don't want to regret when this is exactly what I've been waiting for. To travel far. Try something new. Check on my capability to work in a big company. To evolve. To earn big.

What waits ahead of me are the two time-bombs; my parents and then comes my boss.

2008-05-09T16:20:00.002+08:00

I dream of a dream. I'll be taking a step to reach the dream this Sunday morning. Walk-in interview at Hilton Hotel, KL Sentral.

It's a job to fly.

The dream.

The opportunity.

The new chapter.

The moment.

Just....let's see how far I'll go.

The Olympus is my baby, I even sleep with it :D

2008-05-09T00:06:00.004+08:00

Disclaimer** All pictures posted are originally taken by my Olympus[:mju] 850sw and not plagiarized from any other source unless stated otherwise.

It's RM1,100, alright! But it's worth every cent of it. And that's the difference between you and I. I appreciate discovering stuff like this.

For the story, pictures above are originally at the set of my very own living address. Who would have thought that if you look beyond, you'll see details at every corner.

JUST. "Stop. and. Stare." [One Republic]

p/s: Well, yeah yeah, I know! Nothing so great about the shots...no sign of the sky, bad angle, no focus...BUT..i had fun.. :P

The Super Radiator

2008-05-03T15:48:00.002+08:00

For the record,I need more time.

2008-05-03T00:31:00.007+08:00

Here it is...yet another Saturday!!

There's so much to do and there's little time. Living in the world where office hour counts kills 60% of my time. I believe that I'm sleeping less now (uhm, not including the 1o hour of sleep I had on Labor Day. That was bliss. I purposely planned to do so but ended up dreaming weird dreams more than a peaceful). So, what else is there to do? I don't even watch TV anymore. Stop facebook-ing. Stop logging in MSN messenger.

I want to draw out the layout plan my sister gave me. I would like to organize all the photos that's been piling up since I discovered my new hobby. I wanted to touch up all "the artistic" photographs that I took. I wanted to explore more options there are on my point and shoot camera. I wanted to explore V-ray that aliases with 3dS Max that i just recently figured out to crack althought I've been havign the plug-in since January(that was 4 months man!!! Dang!!!). I wanted to form bangle chandelier that I kept imagining about. I want to rearrange my bedroom and the stuffy study room. I want to watch certain quality movies screened.

My list can go on and on... Come to think about it, I envy Poh Mei's life :P Yes, I do.

Even my sis needs more time. Handling a mischievious, adventurous, developing baby boy is just too much pressure to take.

It's a Friday, tomorrow's Saturday, I've got to work.

2008-04-25T23:22:00.003+08:00

Word of the day(learnt from Sean): Frivolous; unworthy of serious attention

With just 3 designers, life is hectic at the office. Especially with a lingering mood of unsatisfaction from all of us and as well as a decision by the senior designer to resign. That'll be a wise decision ever made. And a clearer signal for me to move on.

For the record;
I'm 22. I've worked exactly for 1 year 6 months and 11 days. I graduated in October 2006. Now, it's April 2008.

I've got a series of projects lined up. The all 3 of us. I am more into drafting than modelling perspectives.Drafting mainly uses AutoCAD. Yeah, I use Photoshop from time to time in order to try-so-hard-to-impress-my boss :P it works n not and the new guy rules it out far better(**well,credits to him). Anyhow,yeah, I set out the spaces for the basic human's comfortability.

Well, for the other record;
I'm still in charge of the Brickfield's 3-star hotel project(completion target by/on Oct2008). I've been going to the site meeting for every 2 week; with the big boss,of course; till everybody knows me. It's a good thing because you need to cooperate with the client,the architect, the main contractors(the team that builds the main building structure), the mechanical engineers(the team associated with electrical, service ducts, lifts, etc; well they plan & provide the services for a building to function) and so on to get a better understanding in providing them the drawings.

Then there are two karaokes in drawing progress. One at Old Klang Road. The other in Eastin Hotel. Old Klang Road is not worth talking as I don't agree with the terms of their operation. freaking low class!!! And Eastin's has way much standard, thankfully. Well, anyhow, have you heard or seen or been to the Red Box Plus Karaoke at the Pavilion? Now, that is LAVISHLY designed. But my big boss always warn us that that considers a big budget and that is our main ugly side; with a hole in the pocket. Anyhow, we(Siti Arbaina and I) are planning to book a room there to celebrated the 3d(perspective visualiser/modeller) guy(Mr.Lee@Azly)'s birthday. Not that I'm fond of a karaoke but we want to check out informative, interesting spaces around. And that's why, we, the college groupies ALSO loves checking out new eating outlets or new spaces around.

I mean, I've been working. It's the best thing to do. It's cool. Earning on your own. Planning out your own future. Taking your own step. Moulding myself into a designer that I should be. Learning loads n loads. I get to be more independent. Away from the controlling parents that worries for nothing and burdening their mind over frivolous matters. It's the beginning step. And I'm excited to see where the future brings. Whether I'll come face to face with dreams and all.

Rockferry...I'm going to name my kid "Rockferry "

2008-04-18T22:54:00.010+08:00

Music is in the daily life: Currently digging into the funky-ness of Natasha's Enur Calabria 2007 and the retro-ness of Duffy's Mercy(Rockferry) .

Picture courtesy from www.iamduffy.com

And Duffy, she has an amazing voice....

p/s: And my kid is gonna grow up and disown me....

p/s 2: Wut the hell is wrong with the font size!!!

Classic!!!

2008-04-10T01:38:00.002+08:00

Whhheeeee...found this duck hunting game as a widget.

Like my brother used to say; " CLASSIC". Indeed, it's a classic. I remember the day we owned a video game set with a game card up to 100++ games in it. It was WAY back then, when I was still considered adorable and cute. My bro was so interested in playing this particular game but he needed a laser shooting gun in order to shoot the ducks. He managed to buy one; with all the pleading from mom and used it only a few times before it was spoiled. And that's the end for the hunting game. I wonder what my brother did with the gun :P. Any idea,Sis? Coz I'm the one with blurry vision of the past here.

p/s: Bro, I don't know when you will be reading this, but this game is just for you...u need no lousy guns, anymore!!!

Loshini discovered the joy of her so-called photography aka taking amatuer pictures...

2008-04-08T22:45:00.009+08:00

Imagine the joy of finally getting a gadget, Olympus[mju:] 850 SW, a point and shoot camera!!!
But with the aid of a trustable and an-agreement-to-pay loan, of course!! **ahem*cough**BroInLaw** cough**THanks a LOT!!!:D

Now, imagine the joy of owning a tough camera which is shockproof, freezeproof and waterproof.
..WATERPROOF!!! And it has built-in panorama option and..and...macro mode focusing range!!! which allows you to capture even the tiniest droplet of water. Aaaaahhh..imagine the joy!!!

Well, I know that not everyone can understand this self discovery but this is such an heavenly bliss for me. Everyday I return back home to explore/discover more details of my camera. After all, a camera is not solely found for your own sake of camera-whoring without knowing it's proper function.

Test 1: Leaves..check. Colour..check.Water droplet..Zero zoomed

Test 2: Almost there..almost there....

Test 3: Whoo hoo!! Water droplets floating mid air.
But the droplets were on a car's window screen.

Test 4: Look!!Look!! It's sparkling. Almost each one of them!!!
Aaaaaahh...the joy!!! the satisfaction!!!
Wake me up.....

p/s: A new found hobby. Am lovin it.

The Burning Spectrum of Colours

2008-04-07T21:57:00.004+08:00

Let there be Light

2008-04-06T01:30:00.001+08:00

p/s: Shoot!! How can it be 31 April 2008 when it's JUST the 7th day of April...

"The formation of the Marvellousness"

2008-04-06T00:03:00.007+08:00

The picture defines itself.

Hey..this is interesting...

2008-04-03T23:41:00.004+08:00

Came across this article like long time ago n bookmarked it. But it's time to clear old bookmarks.
So, this acts as a blog-library.

10 Unusual Restaurants Around the World

These 2 are my spotlights. And wait...even Annalakshmi is there. Never tried there though. I know that Poh Mei did.

Dinner in the sky
Picture courtesy from www.dinnerinthesky.com

Ice Hotel Restaurant
Picture courtesy from www.dinnerinthesky.com

And then he had to scrunch his nose like that...just to melt the faintest heart....

2008-04-02T23:59:00.003+08:00

2008-03-29T11:57:00.006+08:00

I'm 22. People all around me are earning more than I do. It does matter. But I am the sole one to be blamed. Uhm...next to my only-being-stingy-is-his-problem boss of mine. I am to be blamed as I am not moving my butt out of here. Dubai is a gone case. Not even a single response. I am planning to stay here until the Brickfield's 3- Star hotel is completed. By end of this year. What is there to lose except for the forever remaining hole in my bank account and my pocket?

Well, that's one story in my life that I'll keep mumbling about till the day I launch my next step. So, holding that aside, I am so desired to get myself some kind of a valuable gadget...

either;

this

OLYMPUS [mju:] 790SW(S=Shock Proof,W=Water Proof)
retail price for RM 1199

or this

OLYMPUS [mju:] 850(S=Shock Proof,W=Water Proof)
retail price for RM 1099

or this

iPod touch

First Edition 2008,February

2008-03-29T00:07:00.004+08:00

My nephew and a fiction character. This is just too adorable.

p/s: Thoughts on Curious George from Sean.

p/s 2: Narrator is on vacation.

p/s: Do not click on the image as you will be greeted with an extremely huge resoultion picture and I am lazy to adjust them...

The day I saw Poh Mei in her less energetic moment

2008-03-20T18:19:00.004+08:00

I do need to blog this down.

So here's the cliche'd part;
It's about how people say that it's all in the fate and that anyone can fall sick in a wink. No matter how young you are, no matter how many cigarettes you've smoked, no matter how healthily you've tried maintaining your diet; well, you just fall sick just like that.

As for the reality;
My-really-really good friend Poh Mei Yap had her operation. Yesterday, at 5 pm, to be exact. The operation is to remove her cancerous tumor out * Hopefully, I am getting my facts right *. She's been diagnosed with GIST last year.

So, of coz, Poh Mei, the really bubbly-brave-energetic girl was lying in her hospital bed. If I want to say that I am sad, of coz I am, but I am just not the type who will be shedding tears, hugging her tightly and assuring that'll everything will be ok coz I just don't want her to feel pity on her own self.As for the other truth, I just don't know how to give her encouraging support that i rather be making her feel normal than giving her my fake, cliche'd words of encouragements. But, she is brave. Always has been. I'll assure you that for 100%. I don't know how I would have reacted if I am diagnosed with any serious illness. And she took it like a man. And I just don't remember her crying or feeling pity on herself.

Well, this post is not to sympathize on Poh Mei but to just let to her know that I care about her. A lot. I might not be the one sleeping beside her hospital bed but I do care. I might not be with her 24/7 coz I have my own commitments but I do care. I am so honored to be her friend.

On a personal thought;

I think friends are one the best thing in the world. I don't have many good friends, I'll truthfully own up to that. You can count them. But those few that I know, there's like a bunch from primary,secondary and college. But when I am with them, it's the best thing in the world, well next to money and of coz, my weird family. My relatives? They are a whole bunch of sh**; just with an exceptional of a few quality ones. Here's an example; in case I'm to get married, I don't need unnecessary people to be attending my precious my moment; just my family and that bunch of friends. Nobody else; you save money and you save your fake smiles and thank you(s). See? That important they are.

So, Poh Mei, you know where you stand. And I know how fast you can recover. And I know you won't have problem watching over your diet in the days to come as your family is good at that; esp. your sister who gave me the stare when she knew we had Nando's for lunch ( i will never forget that). As you always say, things happen for a reason, right? The sooner you get better, the sooner you'll be on a right track again. And please don't feel left out thinking who's where or who's doing what. The boutique blog of yours will be for better. I don't know who reads this blog but if you are curious about the e-boutique Miss Poh Mei owns, do visit pmboutique.blogspot.com .

As for the other girls;
Manoghowrii, you have no idea how many times I've gotten mad just by you saying that you can't make it to see us but in the end, you've always explained through. So, maybe I am the one over-reacting or it's still hard to make sense into my head.

Hui Ling, well, what can I say besides.... come back here :P Nah, you've always known how to take care of yourself and be strong. Well, I'll say, you are the toughest among the girls.

Faiza, well, I think I know you better now. Definitely. And I certainly admire the way you drive... LOL...u know it.

And of course, there's this girl called Mary Lim Jia Ling, right? who is very very busy..even to blog or even to come back here as well...

Project 2008, February

2008-03-09T18:40:00.014+08:00

Here it is; a part of my interest that is of course, related to the field I am right now. I've never regretted being in the line of interior design and never will. If I am however needed to diverge from ID, it will still be related somehow or rather. I think there are many related options left. The only problem is I don't know how to earn well. Well, never mind about that.

Now, this is a WEDDING of a somehow-related cousin. I was given the job to decorate the wedding house with a minimal decoration. So, I got my basics and just decorated with the help of my family.

Note: Pictures might be lacking with quality as it's only taken with a NOKIA 2630's VGA Camera.

Drying Colour-ed Rice

A Peacock "Kolam"_ a necessity for Hindu weddings

Kolam adorned with a pot and a traditional lamp

The rose bouquet and the dainty peacock feather

Pinks and Whites

Delicate Roses and Berries

Strands of Roses Berries and a Molded Heart

p/s: Yeah, I earned extra and it was flown away by the wind.

Toooo weird.....

2008-03-02T16:21:00.002+08:00

I thought Bak Kut Teh is disgusting.
But wait a minute, I found another one. And it's grossier than ever.

The foetus that found it's doom

It's understood that it's a Filipino culture. But it's just way over the borderline of normal food.

Well, i know. I am consuming chicken meat,right? But, the chickens lived their life and then we eat them and besides it's categorized under poultry. So, it's like it's in our daily diet.

Enough said.

Cupcakes, anyone?

2008-02-29T12:03:00.004+08:00

Updated on 2nd April: the good friend, Sean, had his said treat along with Phylicia.
Invitation closed.

www.cuppacakes.blogspot.com

These specialized cupcake bakers seems to be very good at doing so. I am still yearning to taste one but never had the privilege. But people who I told them about get to taste it and tell me how wonderful it tastes. What attracts me is their graphic'ness and their creativity. Now, they've opened their own shop & cafe. That's just perfect.

P/s: ~~Somebody, please, bring me there and it'll be my treat.~~

Check List

2008-01-29T00:31:00.000+08:00

SO, I've finally made myself a clean resume. Just waiting for the opportunity to arise.

And one note to myself, do less talking and more on action. or even better don't talk at all.
And that I can dream and build my own castle, but it's only for me, myself and I.

Wish list to be continued....

2008-01-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

I have a list of wish list...

1) buying & owning a Digital Camera built with good specifications(probably a Olympus) or getting an SLR Digital Camera... skills can be learned by myself.

2) owning a good specified laptop or simple enough to let me do my work anywhere.

3) replacing a LCD monitor to this more than five years long CRT monitor

4) owning a full-uncut DVD version of the Lord of the Rings trilogy.

5) owning i-phone ( not desperate nor a tech savvy but I'm thrilled with the way the applications work and couldn't agree that my boss actually has one).

p/s: According to Loshini's dictionary; wish list acts as a reminder.

The 6th day of year 2008

2008-01-06T15:02:00.000+08:00

Well, it's been a while....

Things happened, changed and thank goodness, life is getting back to a lane that I'm contented with...

Well, this is just for the record and I need to jot them down..
Mom was not well during the beginning of December. It's all that is enough to change your perspective of life. Come on...it's my mom...she's the one eating healthily, taking care of all of us;even the little baby Shivendhra and never ever broke down. She was feeling numb at her legs and sometimes to her hands. We got to watch out for her to not to fall when she walked. I've never imagined that stage. They look so young and healthy. My father too. All it took was that one moment to hit the reality; that they are catching up with their age and we have to look out for them.

Her condition was pretty bad. She kept falling. She was not getting better. She was admitted(starting 4th Dec). Went through scans. Then directed to another hospital for another scan. Discharged. Admitted. Then, waited for a freakin bed at the freakin General Hospital. Then, directed to the specialist Neuro ward. And yup, that was it. Once again, thank Goodness that it didn't go to a stage any worser...like hitting with a stroke or even being paralyzed. Instead, she was diagnosed with a syndrome called Guillain-Barré(GBS). Some syndrome that I've never came across and there it was, affecting my mom.

Answers.com
"Guillain-Barré syndrome (GBS) causes progressive muscle weakness and paralysis (the complete inability to use a particular muscle or muscle group), which develops over days or up to four weeks, and lasts several weeks or even months."

That's exactly what my mom was going through. We've been told that it's a rare syndrome and researches are progressing. In a way, my mom is the guinea-pig.

Well, she's back and in a better health condition. Drinking ginseng, going for traditional-Indian massages, wearing a healing pendant, rolling her feet on the reflexology tool. Well, people(some lousy meddlers) blame it on us. Like we overloaded her with work. I know, I wasn't much of a helper at home but are you expecting me to cook and clean every dust that can be found ? Aaaa...Welllll, I AM trying to do the laundry and the dishes now. I'm self-centered, I know but I'm doing what I could.

This is like the cycle of life. You seem like in a good health and bam** you are diagnosed with something that could affect your life. They say, smoking is hazardous but yet smokers seem exactly fine(not that I want anything bad to happen). You just don't know what to believe and what to not.

Celebration!!!Celebration!!! Shivendhra is ONE!!!

2007-10-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

McD, Old, Town PJ 20 October 2007

It's almost reaching to the end of the year...

2007-10-16T15:28:00.000+08:00

Hail to baby Shivendhra as he's turning One this Friday the 19th!!! Yippie!!!

On the other hand, today's the day after the Raya holiday. It's a boring day and I'm having the Tuesday blues. I'm the one and only one here(exceptions for the receptionist and my boss) and I'm preparing drawings to attend my first site meeting without my boss at the new Brickfields hotel. My first one!! At this exact moment, last year, I was the sales girl, helping my aunt at the KL Sentral's Deepavalli sale and here I am, attending a meeting. How flattered I am!!! btw, I'll still be the sales girl come this 27 October, helping my aunt at the exact venue again. Well, this could be helpful to fill the hole in my account. No matter how much I tried to keep track, I'M ALWAYS broke by the middle of the month. Well, I know everybody has the same problem but the difference is I don't have commitments but I'm still broke. How am I going to buy a VW Beetle? And I've been working for 11months 4 days now. Time to leave, baby!!

Say this out..fast...

2007-10-04T12:03:00.000+08:00

KuKikisKikisKukuKakiKirikuKakakkuKataKakikuKaku

A Malay tongue twister from my senior...

O-eh....

2007-10-04T10:41:00.000+08:00

So.....I had another/extra 3 hours of driving practice...and there was no stalled session,I drove well....this better be way worth it and worth the unpaid leave I'm taking from office. I am taking the tests AGAIN tomorrow. I think about it and the test is definitely a phobia. Yes, I have driving test phobia...hihi...weird, huh?

Haih...just let me through la...I have plans to go to a lot of places!!This is freaking crazy....If I fail AGAIN, I'll crush the Kancil like a toothpick...hmmm,only Mr. Incredible can help me though...

Anyhow, I'm praying for myself...I'll be wearing the "lucky shoe" or wutever it is to let me through...

How come God didn't protect the child?

2007-09-25T12:50:00.000+08:00

www.nurinjazlin.blogspot.com

This is a part of what I do when I'm working...

2007-09-19T15:52:00.000+08:00

This work is a result out of : Adobe Photoshop, internet reference pictures, scanned pattern and voilà, there's the entrance to a casino and a bar.

......

2007-09-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

and then i had to make things worse.... I actually fed my poor nephew with hot food. I didn't do it on purpose. I mean, who would? But the pause and the wailing sound my nephew gave after he eagerly fed from the spoon was enough to make me guilty and to remember his reaction. Plus, my mom clearly let me knew that she shouldn't have let me fed him. Her reaction doubled my guilt :(

I wouldn't hurt him.

Thank goodness that he's well. He's still laughing and mumbling away.

FAILING to balance the clutch on top the hill + FAILING to indicate the turning signal...

2007-09-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

I know it's just a driving test but FAILING it is the hardest. It's been a tough weekend. One moment I was waiting for my turn to do the test and the next, it's all over!!! I know it's just a simple matter but it's really making me mad. I'm mad at myself. It's so unreal. I still can't believe that it ended that way. Now, it's costing me extra money and time.

And I feel like a loser! I couldn't even pass a driving test!!!!

I guess, I can only do SO LITTLE in general. That's what making me even furious.

So now, which hole should I put my head into? AAAaaaarghhhh!!!!!

p/s : I'm not even close-to-being happy so pardon me for my behavior. I couldn't make up my mind and keep everyone happy. So, in the end, I just want to be myself.

Updated at once...

2007-09-11T21:33:00.000+08:00

whoa....it's September 11 already!!! ooo...remmber NY's Sept 11 attack? Hmmm...I was just in form 3 and look where I am right now.... :D hihi!anyhow, that wasn't my point. Uhm...I don't even know why I brought that up. Just to randomly blog, I guess.

Well, before I forget, I have to congrat my bro as he had successfully turned 26. Happy Belated Birthday, bro!! I can't believe that he erased my number but then, he IS being himself.

anyhow, what have I been doing all these while? We rushed for the casino project based in Ho Chi Minh during the weekdays and weekends and as soon I've got my break, I was hanging with my sister instead. It's cool to hang out with her. But I have always hated the mornings where I have to wake up early and come all the way back to home and head to office. Eeerrieee!!!

So, anyhow, this house was struck by the lightning. The astro's decoder was damaged and the telephone line wasn't working. What's weird is that without these two sources, life moves on blandly. Imagine life without the entertainment box and the access to the web, it'll be like there's nothing else to do. Well, it's true. That's because I don't do anything else. My daily activities are just evolving around work, watching TV, sitting in front of the computer, eat and sleep. I don't even read the newspaper anymore.

See, like these days, I'm addicted to this new networking website. It's Facebook. Well, it has been existing for a while outside of M'sia but it's just recently that I'm in. I am not addicted into adding friends, I already have that Friendster where I don't even talk to the 75% of the added friends. Anyhow, this time I'm addicted to feed my pet Tofu. Yeah, it's a Tofu alright and if I pet other people's pet, I earn munnies ( points to feed my Tofu). It's like a kiddie stuff and my Tofu has a way-too-kiddie name too. It's called Squishy(inspiration from Finding Nemo) but that's all that matters :D.

Cute, ain't it?

And then, I can also go to the extent of "googling" my name; Loshini Danappal and just look at the lousy result that showed up.

One lousy Friendster account and two lousy school reunion tracking lists; one in a blogger's page and the other, the school's reunion website(reminder;I'll never attend one again!!!). Anyhow, where the heck is my blog? I'm not using any other name, just my own. Hrmphh!!

Btw, bro, googling your name showed way too much of results but you never once showed your details. Hrmphh!!

And sis, if I don't blog, you can always visit Kenny Sia's blog if you want to be entertained. Trust me, he's one of the pioneer blogger in M'sia, he's amusing and he earns money by blogging too.

Okie, now to jump off the topic(if there was any...)....
I'm like really very close to get myself a digital camera... it's got to happen soon.

And yeah, the final quest to get the much awaited ticket to drive. The test is on this Friday and hopefully there's no need for a retake. Crap this process is !!!

And oooh yeah, my senior who's at the diverging road to work outside of Malaysia is driving me to dream as well. He's going to the "land of Borat". Oh, I wish that I'm able to have something similar. Did I mention before that I did screw, from time to time, in the MJ's Health Centre project? Anyhow, the boss is giving me opportunity to handle a project. Well, I know that it's going to be a tough one.

Besides the works being done in the office, I still have one pending project from my sister. That's to design a room for the little-toddler-who-is-is growing-up-way- fast.

p/s : Sis, I'll remove the pic as soon as you say so :D
Hihi!! Knowing how this young parents protect this young baby, I'll remove the picture as soon as it's done spicing up my dull blog :D

Ooooh, talking about spicing up, there's this one picture that I love. It was taken recently with one of the best bunch of my friends.

Of course, there's me, Faiza, Hui Ling, Poh Mei and Manoghowrii. Nice, no? All of us signing our significant age. yeah, so cliched the poses are, I know. But wut the heck, it was fun posing!! :D

Okie dokie....written too much till my back's tired again.

So this lady got to stop.
:D

Downfall...

2007-08-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

Finally, the MJ Health Screening project at IBM Tower is over. Two weeks of hard work will be paid when I get my salary at the end of this month. Cheers!! And soon, it'll be the Hakka Restaurant project to handle.

I finally got my rest during the weekend and come next weekend, I have to decorate an engagement house that I came to know through my cousin sister. The host will be paying me but I'm afraid that she has something prepared for me up her sleeves. I'm beginning to understand people and how sleek they can be. Never mind, I'll do it for once and I'll wait for the result.

So, today, when I thought I had a good sleep, I actually woke up to a series of waist pain. Even wearing a pants was a difficult task to handle as I had to bend. Ignoring the pain, I went to India Town***ahem***Masjid India** to get some materials for the decoration. Reaching home and I tried watchign Pirates of the Carribean and I dont' even feel comfortable sitting down. Thinking a rest on the bed will help release the tension at my waist, it turned out to be worse. I couldn't sit up again nor get out of the bed. The pain was too much to handle. So , forcing , all by myself, I stood up straight with the support of my bed. I've managed but that's when the sharp pain at my waist got worst and I supported myself on the grill. It was too hard to stabilize myself and I started sweating profusely and my vision was blackening. The next thing I know, my mom shouted my name and I was lying on the floor trying to gather my vision and myself. This has to be the worst thing that happened to me. It's reminding me on how old I am turning to be and the unhealthy food I'm consuming everyday. When I think about it, I still can't believe that it happened to me.I actually fainted. It sounds so silly and weak. And I am never weak.

Concluding The Lims that I know

2007-08-03T14:08:00.000+08:00

If you do realize, the list on "my true friends test" box are filled up 80%.
And I finally realized that I have all the "Lims" in the world as my friends.

Mary Lim
Martha Lim
Sean Lim
Cathryn Lim

I wonder if all of them are related to each other some how or rather. Then, it'll be like tracing all the way back to Indonesia as Martha is an Indonesian. I mean, how cool is this?

Cool.....

2007-07-31T16:18:00.000+08:00

Impressive layout after all...check this out....RED ROCK RAILROAD

30 July 2007

2007-07-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Well, I am exactly 21 and I am a working young adult and I got another salary raise after my two months raise. And once again, even the littlest amount makes a big impact in my life. So, that's why even 100 counts and finally reaching my figures to a point. My boss said I work hard, so once again my hard work worths 100. Well, it's good enough for me. For now. Worry that later as it has smallest impact on me as I am still enjoying myself working there. I bet after a year, I can demand a higher amount.

Never mind that, so, this morning I received a call from this other wonderful friend of mine. I've been waiting for her call and there she goes, calling me today, early in the morning. It's good that I recognized her. Now, this Mary girl is also one of a kind. I had to thank the lousy SAB school management for putting us in the same class when we were in form 2. Well, at least they did something wisely. And then the rest is history. She shifted again the following year and now we are countries apart but we do keep in touch through this blogging thingy. Never mind the gaps but we have some plans lined up; one's a bet and the other's a vacation trip. See, even the smallest amount counts. To cut this short; Mary, I have to say..thanks for the call.... :D **hugs**

So, besides that, my dear mother gave me gifts with love too. I shall appreciate and be thankful about that. I mean, she even cooked some delicious food for me. And then, I love my deary sister and my nephew too.

" love's all around me. i'm at peace."

29 July 2007

2007-07-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

and that was a another remarkable day as that's when the small little girlie group from SAB actually came together as one to celebrate my day. like I mentioned earlier, only the humblest" thing counts. the simplest gathering that makes me happy. it don't even matter whether it was for a short timing but everyone's presence counts. I mean, these girls are very dear to me. who would have thought that this small group from form 4 can still keep it together and laugh about the school days after almost 4 years. After all, our characters are totally different from one another and we are like scattered everywhere; one who's working, four who's still studying from UK till Cyberjaya. haih! I mean it's really amazing to have really good friends that you can get along well.

So, girls and not forgetting Hui Ling's other half Ming Wang, thanks for the gathering. Thanks for the treat. Thanks for the sumptuous cake that's presented to me with lot's of love and thanks for the gifts. Lastly, thanks for being there for me.

Saturday, 28 July 2007

2007-07-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

It was the day I get to meet Fish(Sook Yee) since I last saw her at her B'day Party. And this time it's mine. Well, just one and a half day short. Almost 95% says that being a 21 is something special. I have yet to figure what's that. But when, my loved ones made effort to do something, I've began to appreciate. But just pardon big parties, that's just so vain. Believe me, I don't want to feel uncomfortable throughout the process. It's so not me. But when there's some humble surprises, I really appreciate it to my deepest extent. That's what they did, this Fish and Sean. I had a great time. Their attempts to get me a gift by indirectly asking me, their attempt to know my cake's flavor( that's Sean's job) , their planning to set things around,etc.....it's really moving. It was just the two of them but I'm still happy. I still have to thank the others (Cat, Phylicia, Pui Lin, Teoh and Martha) for getting me the gift and the delicious cake(which is a specially made cake and that's according to Sean). Awwww...they are great. And yeah, even Yee Teng attempted to come but didn't get to make it(she still wished me through the phone). I am feeling happy and contented.

Phase I

2007-07-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

Past two weeks had been hectic at work. The Health Screening Project which is being based at Bandar Utama's IBM Tower kept all of us tied up with lot's of drawing to handle and late nights in office. Simple , the project is a follow up from Taiwan. So, Taiwan's designers design for the local site and WE will draw all the details for all the angle. We did our best. I did commit errors on the drawings and the final printing and the 3 of us came out with the total drawings counting up to 60pages with me handling a 35% of it. and that was just a whole effort in completing the Phase I of the project. what's waiting is a bigger Phase II with another two weeks to complete. i think it's going to be another hectic two weeks in trying to amuse and impress the Taiwanese that we can also keep up to the "standards" by completing our drawings in English, not in Mandarin.

Btw, 1 August marks the starting of my driving lessons and I am eager to get through and soon to wheel my way. Being a 21 is when I'll get to drive. At least, it's now and not later.

wanna know how stupid people can be?

2007-07-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

** precaution; i'm about to condemn an individual.

Well, two ID trainees, particularly from LIUCT, joined this company with such a basic knowledge that reminded me of myself when I did my training too. Except that, they are far worse than me. Well, especially for that particular 20-old-girl. Upon constant dissatisfaction that she keeps creating, my senior decided to have a talk with her about her "emotionless" behaviour,her working etiquette and also the quality of her work. What's funny is that after "the talk"; while we were thinking that it didn't knock any wut-so-ever sense into her head, she SUDDENLY carried her "cute" lil handbag and walked out of the office without a word nor any sense.She never came back on that day(and we are yet "waiting" till Monday) and she didn't even call anyone about it. While all these were happening, my boss wasn't even in. And yet, she's so dared to walk out and to not come back. Her always-sticking-up-for-her-boyfriend was telling that she couldn't handle stress and she was feeling so ashamed from the talk. If what she experienced during her one month training here is what you call as stress, she's just got to be kidding me. Wait till she starts working in a big company where there's more than four staffs. Well, I WISH HER ALL THE BEST. And I can't wait for the drama to continue on Monday.

p/s: I know that this is exactly what one call as an office gossip but I just couldn't stand the girl.

Lousy..lousy...

2007-07-19T14:01:00.000+08:00

Clearly, I have a bunch of lousy friends who either don't give a care about me or they are just plain ignorant in bothering to check their mail or my blog. Juts check my list where only Sean bothered to humor me.

Just for fun.. :P

2007-07-18T18:48:00.000+08:00

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/746414

a test from Sean Lim Wei Sheong to prove how much I know him. I faired good enough with his test and to reverse back, I created one for myself too. So...try "sitting" for the test...check out the score board on the right of my blog.

Loading with thoughts and dreams....

2007-07-15T20:15:00.001+08:00

:P I'm giggling with joy. First, I was downloading Google Earth. Then, the website led me to a video called "Where the hell is Matt" in You Tube. This guy is just funny as he is endlessly dancing to the same steps at every place that he visited. On the deeper thought, I envy him for all the places he had visited and that he has a chance to video all of the places.

In fact, I envy everyone who've made it to other countries. Haih!!! When will I get the chance?
Never mind about me but do check out the video :P I bet you'll be amused too.

One of the many things from my list, I would like to experience Rainforest World Music Festival that's being held in S'wak all this year and which is exactly happening right this moment.

.......21......

2007-06-29T10:25:00.000+08:00

An exclusive gift from Hallmark stated; "Age is just a number, I don't do numbers. "

Whoa! Very catchy indeed. Next time the question about my age arises, I'll be like " Sorry, I don't do numbers" and walk away. Nice one! Haha... I am so vain.

Just that being above 20 sound so old.

Funky wall arts and cheerful me.... :D

2007-06-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

Just came to know that "wall art" is a trend in the western countries. And I, totally ADMIRE this wall art thingy. I've came across one hotel where all of their rooms are with different wall murals. It's been posted before. Here's the way to get the cool peek once again at Hotel Fox.
And today, I found them again at TheCoolHunter . Finding all these sources, how I wish that my boss will break from his design style and for once agree with something trendy for the hotel project in hand :P

I'm thinking something in that trend for Shivendhra's bedroom. I'll make that happen. Trust me all the way, sister :P

Anyhow, we are working on this traditionally cool restaurant at a cool local spot. Worked on the coloured-building elevation and the site perspective(with Photoshop that is!) in one day with a cool result. I'm feeling happy.

p/s: links on my blog somehow leads to something interesting...so, keep scrolling.

Discovering buildings.....and Us, the semi-professionals.......

2007-06-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

I was streaming the channels when I came across Discovery channel's Man Made Marvels. That's where I came to know about Beijing's new Olympic Stadium which is to be in a form of a bird's nest. Here's a look at a website that I found at the first search result. Sometimes, I just wonder at their mind's search engine. It's pretty impressive. I don't know how functional this form can be but once the form is there, it's going to be detailed for the thousand years to come. It'll be a history. And that's when the episode was discussing the issues of the stadium having risks of the earthquake, they showed the National Grand Theater in Beijing,China which had similar risks. Here's a look at the egg and some Wikipedia info .

Anyhow, here's a thing that's been bugging me since I had a talk with Poh Mei about this matter.Welllll..... I disapprove people who thinks that being an interior designer ain't dignified like a doctor or even a lawyer who are the professionals. Well, we are NOT professionals. I don't deny that. But having the idea that it only works to be IDer when the name rises to fame is just so wrong. Clearly, people just judge by the outlook. Forget about houses, people are just not exposed nor capable to have their houses to be designed(it's understandable) but when it comes to commercial spaces, even the very small hip restaurant or even a retail shop that you walk into are a contribution from us. We don't merely put furnitures in or decorate the space with flowers! but we also make sure that the space circulation is perfect,we do design and specify our own cabinets/display features/etc with our own selected materials/measurements, we touch up unwanted exposed column from the architects/contractors, we can decide perfect lighting points and the usage for a space, we make sure that the furnitures positioned functions properly, we just can make a space into anything. We are behind every space you walk in. All the detailing that people outside of this field never seen. Well, I don't need more than a diploma to boost my career and yet there are LOTS of people underestimating me because of my paper qualification.
Why do they even have to ask if I have a degree or even continue for a Degree? People and their perceptions. They just don't know what they are talking about. ID companies does pay good except for the one I'm working now, I know, I know but..(like I've written before, I have my reasons).
Haih...it seems like it's glamorous to have the initials "Dr." I just don't get how people think. Guess, I'm still not matured enough to face the comparisons made by all of us. Like who's having a Degree, who's buying a car first, who's going to earn more, who's more successful. Aaargh..such an adult world.

p/s: Poh Mei, there are quotes from you and lot's of feedback from my side, I know. It's just a defense.

Dream a little dream: 2

2007-06-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

Sleeping right after reading Mary's blog; moved when she wrote "velvet schounchy sky with stars"(what's scounchy btw?), I dreamed of Polar Express-set-of-a-magical Christmas night plus soundtracks. I let go off the reindeers into the starry magical sky and that's when baby "Mumble" and adult "Mumble" flew above my rooftop. Suddenly, Poh Mei was on a wheelchair and Hui Ling's back from London and we were sitting in one of the classes of my primary school with classmates from my secondary school friends (Yogan's for one that I could remember well).
The dream seems scattered but there's a base for part of it. Reading Mary's blog was one. I couldn't explain about Happy Feet's character though. Poh Mei in a wheelchair was for her health. Hui Ling back here with the same hair style from her Friendster photo was because she IM'ed me yesterday saying she'll be back in no time. And as for Yogan, she called me recently and I missed the call. Felt kind of bad about it and the thought comes back from time to time.

So, a dream mean anything at all? It seems like this dream I dreamed is about what I am feeling. It's weird but I love dreaming in both conditions; consciously and unconsciously :D

........

2007-06-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

It seems like the project has been handled. So it's a wrap. Enough about that.

Anyhow, my past weekends being a helper and a sales girl for my aunt was one heck of a ride. Hate and loved the process. Met lots of people. People who are just so sly in getting a cheaper bargain, people who are just plain innocent, people who are just too friendly that it's like talking to an old friend and even some from my schooling years. Funny thing is that half of the customers assumed that I'm from India. And that I couldn't speak in Tamil too. Everybody just kept talking in English. Although it's an honor, I don't want to give the impression of being a snob. So, I tried my best conversing in Tamil (only that I don't know the numbers in Tamil). But thinking that I'm not a Malaysian, that sucks big time. I am looking forward to the other big sale that'll be happening come Diwali because being successful in making people buy the products is a sweet result. Besides, it's like being in a different world outside of the normal office routine. Well, let's hope that my mind won't change by then.

So, come this weekend, it's back to my driving lessons.

As for my office life, there are going to be two new trainees from LUCT which means there will be 5 designers now. Attention will be drifted to both of them. We'll just see how things will go on.

.....

2007-06-08T09:40:00.000+08:00

This project I'm partly involved now, this city project,well, I HATE IT TILL THE TOP OF MY HEAD.
Let's just pray for this day to end up earlier and I'll go home with a free mind.

Update at 6.30pm(after my office hour):
I'm still at office and it seems like submission date is not due till next week. It's sad because now I still have to work on this project.

Impression does matter 2

2007-06-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

I am having dilemmas again where I find it so difficult to handle when it comes to designing. I couldn't transform or manipulate a design into anything. This is when I'll start thinking again. Start thinking on how far can I even go. How can I even earn at least RM 3000? How can I even dream of finding myself to work outside of Malaysia? And my skills are worth rm900 only? Am I that bad? This is seriously disturbing.

This job that I am supposed to do is build buildings for a city in Vietnam. I just have to do a 20% of it and yet, it's extremely giving me the downs. I just couldn't handle it as I need to build buildings and build them with 3ds Max(3d software). The boss said that my building is lousy and asked me to follow exactly like the reference given. I'm just so disappointed on myself and it's not helping me to work at all. I dread Mondays. Tomorrow's going to be a hell of a Monday. Let's say, I just couldn't handle it at ALL, what will the boss do? Fire me? Or he'll reduce the RM100 he raised for me earlier? Aaaargh...i know he wont do either.... but impression does matter! !!

Dang!! Let's just hope that the sunrise will be delayed..... (yeah, dream on, Loshini!!!)

p/s: I even had to search, "How to be a designer?".... this is really bad!!!

Numbers and celebrations....

2007-05-30T16:24:00.000+08:00

June is already here. A lot of birthdays are in line.
To begin with, Happy Birthday, Mary Lim. I can't believe that I've mistaken the birth date of yours. Thousand of apologies.

Next in line will be Fish's,Teoh's and Faiza's with two of them hitting their 21.

And although October seems far away, in a blink of an eye, my nephew will be 1 year old. That's just five months to go. I dream that by then, he'll be able to walk the walk and talk the talk. And if there's going to be a celebration, it's going to be one where every other kids will be envying about(am bragging too much,ain't I?) Well.... just my point that we'll do anything for him as long he don't get too pampered and spoiled :D.

And then there are Poh Mei's, Hui Ling's and last of all Mano's. And Christmas and New Year and 2008. Whoa, that's fast!!!!

Impression that matters

2007-05-25T11:48:00.000+08:00

Not performing well in college is one thing. Not performing to the best for your boss is totally a another thing. And that is just one bad mark for my reputation. Coz I believe impression is really important. Everybody believes so. Well, nothing happened. Just a little self dissatisfaction that's been bugging me. A task that's been given and lots of error been made. So, here are the two of my best work done for the presentation. Nothing to brag about as these two views are solely completed out of Photoshop touch-up and references. Anyhow, it's about time for me to do something about my 3Ds Max skills and work faster and restraining myself from feeling sleepy at work. Don't get me wrong but exciting tasks keeps me hyped-up but boring colours or without the presence of the boss, it just slows me down.

Final result
Original reference

Final Result
Original Reference

anyhow, on an unrelated story, all I want is to have some decent sleep come weekend but it's about to get spoiled this time when I have to attend for a shifting-to-a-new-home prayer of my uncle which will begin at 4am. I mean, who the heck gets up that early? HAih! I'm not allowed to say more.

Dream a weird dream.....

2007-05-21T09:28:00.000+08:00

I was in the car when there's a motorcycle passing me by. And guess who was riding on it? It's the lovable Frodo Baggins @Elijah Wood. From my understanding, he was on his way for the making of the "Hobbits". Instead of being somewhere else more appropriate, he's here, in KL, at this dingy place. Now, that's weird!!!

swingin..swingin...

2007-05-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

May 20, Sunday..and finally had my chance to catch the friendly neighborhood, Spiderman. It was worth my RM 15 and I would like to add an original DVD collection of the movie. and LOTR Trilogy too.
Why am I writing this? Well, just a reminder to myself about the list of things I'll need to collect. And to remember this day where I spent time with Mr. Sean, the little kiddo good friend from college.

Btw, my boss' mom passed away this morning. My condolences to his family. This news made me realize of how things can turn out. One day you are fine and the next day, you will be hit with a stroke or even cancer. Nobody knows and that's how fragile life is laid upon us. It's kind of scary. So, eating healthy food solve it all like it's been said or it just happens no matter what?

p/s: i passed "undang" test with a close score of 44/50. phew!phew! next is another lecture and soon to learn driving...what a slow process...

p/s 2: anyway, Mary, I wanna have a look at your new wheels. remember ok? =D

yet, another interesting website.....

2007-05-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

i was searching the net for some cool hotel room designs when i came across this website(try exploring the website itself for interesting internet pictures) :
World's Most Creative Lifestyle Hotel

the rooms are indeed decorated in a creative way. i tried imagining my bedroom with similar graphic paintings once but i had yet started with the project. and it seems like the left over paints are almost dried :D

so, the hotel is actually placed in Denmark and here's their official website. I wish my boss will, for once, design a space in funky way instead of the boring brownish, woody, old look all the time. I am not complaining but it's just a desire :D

p/s: after surfing for more and more websites, it seems like lots of young people are impressed with the Hotel Fox funky rooms.

interesting

2007-05-10T17:04:00.000+08:00

download a cool "analogue vista clock" for free to be placed on your desktop ...

*** now that I've tried having that clock, i think it's one annoying clock.
so since I've already made a post on this, I'll just let it be.

JyN is Down Under

2007-05-09T01:04:00.000+08:00

there's a big hole. right here. right this moment.

my dear brother finally left to a place where he belongs...which is anywhere but here. i'm so happy for him that he'll finally live a life like he wanted in sydney(080507) back again. but it's this place that reckons the silence. this wasn't the first time but it wasn't in this state as my dear sister was around here. now, it's just empty. i came back home late from work and it's so quiet, so stark. i know that my brother will feel awkward to read this but.... bro, I'll miss you :D. I'll miss buying KFC for us and feasting together

[+ 100]

2007-04-27T14:19:00.000+08:00

AND SO....i've received my much-awaited salary and signed up my confirmation. the number raised was merely a hundred and I still find it difficult to reach these digits... "1000". i mean, who the heck is still earning 900 per month? it got to be this silly girl. so, in the end, my hardwork is just a worth of RM 1oo? it's weird, one moment, i'm just so happy here and the next moment, i'm disappointed. and yet, i don't want to leave this company. complicating ,eh?

anyhow, that 100 does make a difference in my life. thank you very much.

now,now, where can i begin spending? :D care for a treat, my dear hasn't-gotten-a -rest-in-6months sister??

p/s: Mary, japan fund ain't enough yet....

Number and food...

2007-04-23T13:59:00.000+08:00

event of today:
i feasted on chicken porridge till i scalded my fragile tongue.

Anyhow, my previous Saturday was at the office, my second home. Out of sudden, The Boss came in. He was surprised with my presence as well. We both laughed it off when I said that he need not worry about paying me for that day and I am there voluntarily. Moments later, he came back to my desk and "declared" that he will be raising up my salary. I, pretending to be cool, tried making it clear with him that my confirmation comes only in May. He, in return, said that it's nothing and I deserve it. After all, I work hard and good. So, he asked me whether I'm happy with the news. All I am saying is that I couldn't be happier.

event on the Saturday:
during that unfaithful timing, i had "mee goreng" at the nearby mamak restaurant, not a stall. I've LIKED it till I found myself facing the head and the upper body of a fly. They didn't charge me on that but i ended up vomiting all of it back in office. Imagine if I had eaten the lower part of the body before that. That's enough to make me vomit.

Workaholic, I ain't not but won't mind being one.... :D

2007-04-07T16:07:00.000+08:00

as for the career I am involved with right now, I am feeling more and more comfortable with it. In fact, I enjoy doing it. Of course, I do have my downs. Like, I am slow catcher and am always inside the pool of blur-ness whenever i had to knock some logic sense into the space i am drawing. Although my boss design the space, i had to use logic when i apply the design. That was when my boss told me that I am like a ball who needs to be kicked from time to time. He said it in a joking way and it WAS funny till ...Bang!! It shattered my tiny heart. I don't deny his words. But that made me doubt myself. But right now, I still find it inspiring to work for him. With the ugly sides that all bosses has, my boss inspires me when he designs and delivers his knowledge.

My college friends said that I should quit and find a job elsewhere(my pay is their main "Question"). I say, although 800 a month wont let me improve my financial status, i have nothing to lose for this time being. I feel happy to be able to work here and also to handle a small project by myself. Ok, so I didn't do the design but at least I had the opportunity to apply my boss' design to the whole space and also to construct. and now there's one project(at Lone Pine Penang, a gaming hall) that has been completed. and another(at Cititel, a foot spa) on it's way. Anyhow, i am terrible at designing and my 3D skills are at a drowning stage. But back to the starting point, I am in love what I am doing. And with a few more exciting projects waiting in the company, I wouldn't mind staying longer at TE Draftech. My colleagues, ooh...they are just fun. couldn't be in a better environment than this. and with the recent 1mbs streamyx connection installed with my own network connection plus my boss constantly flying overseas, it couldn't be any better.

p/s: with my less than 1K pay, i finally registered myself to learn driving. My first law related lecturer is on 15 April 2007. and AT LAST, i can cross this from my to-do list. It has been a longgg wait. Phew! pHEw!!

In the end,it doesn't really matter....

2007-04-07T15:09:00.000+08:00

In the end, I came to realize that everybody need to have their own time and that's the main priority. I have been invited for an outing for numerous time. But i kept saying sorry to my friends and explained that I couldn't meet them out. And that my time is limited and would love to fill it up by being with my 5+ month old nephew and the family. But little did I know that the same thing would happen to me as well. My sister's time is so limited and for the past 5+ months, her life has been hectic as well. Her baby and family, her job, her in-laws, my family and her new home. And so she is saying sorry to me that she couldn't fill me up in her weekends "schedule". And when it comes to my dear brother, it's going to be the same story as well when he leaves soon to some other place for work.So, i came to realize that I must have my own life too because in the end everybody has theirs and they lead their own way. Meanwhile, I've got to grow up and to not cling on anybody nor being emotional about it.

In the time being, I can't stop drooling over my little "monkey boy" nephew, Shivendhra Sheelan and couldn't be more happier for my sister and my brother in law. Love you all

Office Blues

2007-02-24T16:55:00.000+08:00

Taa daa... the holiday arrived and just left.

It was only last Friday when i woke up in the morning with a great enthusiasm to walk to work. i was hyped-up to start work knowing that all of us will get a early time out and celebrate CNY with a week off from work. And now, all that's left is the thought of the gloomy Monday morning. It's a heartache to think that way. It also caused me some unsatisfying sleep till I stayed put in bed till noon.

I have this calendar saying that goes like this, "Remember happiness doesn't depend upon who you are or what you have, it depends solely on what you think".well, that's true,ain't it?
But it's in all of us to be wishing for something more than what we have. It's the same with me. So, right now, I want more holidays.....!

it's been a while......

2007-01-12T22:48:00.001+08:00

well, well... it has certainly been a while since i've blogged. yet, so much has changed since the last time i did so. it is because of the time consumped during "the changes" that prevented me from blogging. but then, what is there to blog?

and then, it came to this day, on a faithful friday, where i took the time to go online and have the PC all by myself ( my computer savvy brother is back, that's wut! :P). and then, cleaning up my Friendster account(Urgh! imagine all the junks i have posted there. That was so vain of me!!!).and now, here i am.

so, what has changed or happened?
1) i have finished my diploma in interior design(oct 2006)

2) my pretty sister gave birth to a very adorable baby boy_hopefully my sister will allow me to post his picture.afterall, the baby is a courtesy of hers.(oct 19, 06)

3) my my-world-is-black brother came back home with few habits along(the worst is the one where he holds this stupid stick between his fingers and puffs at it from time to time)

i'll say that i don't know how much of a damage or what's so wrong about a cigarette but the very much idea of it is so wrong. and just tell me about the burning smell!!!

4) i have officialy started working at my previous practical training company. and although i chose the path, it has been a very difficult ride for me. as i am still figuring my standing point. people assume that since i've got my diploma, i am lavished with everything about ID. what makes me ashamed is that I actually don't know anything about it. and then, what the heck was i doing at that college? seriously, i have no idea. the college was just a waste of time. that was just the basic. and paying rm 32 000 for the course is just NOT worth it. but it's done. and i
have been working for almost two months.I believe that I am getting the hang of it.

A goal is what i need. that's what MAry said. and so did my brother. I think i found my goal. but whether this goal is going to be my determination point or just another dream of mine is another question to ponder. for the time being, i'll work my through at TE Draftech.

Despite the crisis that arised, i truly have to say that i am blessed with loving people all around me. although some might be far away, some might be cold hearted, some might lose in touch but these are the people who makes me happy and feel grateful at the end of the day. these people are my family( no matter how screwed up it is), my college friends, my close friends(you know who u r), my seniors.

tough times, big changes, joyful addition and it's already year 2007. and i am going to be 21years old. so, where will i be next year? hihih...i'll be a great friend of baby Shivendhra. and i've got to get that driving license. i think it's a necessity.and then i've got to get a clear direction for my life.

so....that's all for now.

p/s: till i post baby's picture.... :P

2006-07-31T23:09:00.000+08:00

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thank you..thank you...

2006-07-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

well, well... my sister said she is getting fed up with celebrating our birthdays because we just don't give her a good response to the effort she made. that made me guilty. a recent experience with my friend made me realize that birthday is just a day, one shouldn't make it so hype about it. i tried remembering that particular message and in the end, i just made things worse. when my sister wished me right after 12am..i was like "oh yeah...", when she actually left an envelope under my pillow, i was so touched that i felt bad on giving her that kind of a rude response. when she and bro-in-law got me a cake, i, again, didn't show much enthusiasm that she must have been extremely fed-up with me. to make things worse, i just ate the cake. aaargh!!! i'm bad. i'm rude. i'm lousy. i'm sorry, sister!!! i didn't mean to make u feel so. and i really appreciate the content in the envelope, the deliciously sweet chocolate cake and your many birthday wishes! thank you and love ya....

anyhow, i would like to note people who remmbered my day...

one week ago, college gang had passed me a birthday card along with the present. and it was a capsule clock. very cool indeed. thanks, guy!!!

and then, there were wishes from fish, mee yiang, manoghowrii, ganasan(uncle), hui ling, aarthi(cousin sis).

uhm, yup..that's about it...THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!

SPCA again..

2006-07-29T22:51:00.000+08:00

and so, I visited SPCA today...

but this time, there were just two of us. the other was Sean. well, it was difficult to clean the cages with the two of us. it's mainly because someone need to handle the dogs. especially the big, active ones. they love getting attention and constantly wants to be patted. In the end, they keep coming to us and we smelled like dogs too.

being my first time in volunteering, i think it's not so bad. the only thing that bothers me is their smelly faeces. it almost made me puke. and that's uncomfortable. :S
besides that, it's acceptable. i have never even cleaned my home before but here i am cleaning dog cages. my mom will freak out if she knows this :P

2006-07-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

last week: ADOPT me!! adopt me!! this week: i'm at a new home!! i've found a home!! :P
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2006-07-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

me, fish and doggie :P
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2006-07-29T22:32:00.000+08:00

dogs unleashed!!
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care to volunteer??

2006-07-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

Ahha!!! At last there’s a reason to blog….
So what is so special this time??? Let me tell ya… =D

Today, 22 July,I actually broke my dull, boring life by VOLUNTEERING!!!
I was, of course, accompanied by Fish (Sook Yee), Teoh and Sean.

We volunteered at SPCA (Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals). We had this plan for quite some time but it never came true because of my poor organizing skill =? and also because nobody is willing to spare some time including myself. Now that we have “assignment-loaded” holidays, we just gave it a go!!

This branch is at Ampang Jaya, nearby Flamingo Hotel and also accessible through the MRR2. Of course, this is my first time and it is exactly like a shelter for the doggies and cat-ties (hihihi)…Duh!!! Well, well…I think it was a great experience. My parents don’t allow raising any neither dogs nor cats. Well, there’s Kancil the cat but we just feed it at night and for the rest of the time, the cat is on it’s own. They don’t really allow me touch the cat nor give it a comfortable rub. They say it’s dirty and it’s fur sheds all the time. Ah, well!! They are right but the cat looks comfy!!! :P

Back to my SPCA session…well, well… it was different coz like Teoh said that was the first time we got surrounded by so many dogs at one moment, that was the first time we get to see a lot of dog poo everywhere :D, that was the first time we scrubbed and washed rows of food dishes and that was the first time we cleaned dog cages in a row… :P and of course, Mr. Teoh wasn’t so keen in touching nor cleaning the cages coz he is just not the dog-friendly type. :P Besides, we didn’t acknowledge him that we are going to volunteer so we took him down by surprise when we did. Sorry!!!

Anyhow, there is this tiny little puppy that keeps barking with its tiny little voice. I tell you, it’s so cute and furry. Every time I stroke its tiny head, it will stop barking. Awww, how sweet!!! I believe it did the same with this Indian family and thus capturing their heart and soon, the cute lil doggie found a new home :P well, I know it’s mine but I’m willing to let go. The family was carrying the puppy like a baby and it looked sooo cozy…

Well, in the end, we just stayed there for two hours because Teoh need to take off early. That’s too bad because if we didn’t, we would have played with the dogs. That was our supposedly given task after all the cleaning. Anyhow, we are planning to go there again this coming Saturday, hopefully!!!

lost in words....

2006-06-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

i don't know why but out of sudden there's simply nothing to blog about anymore....
as if i'm lost....
as if my life is plain dull....
or maybe i'm just too lazy to use my almost-rusty brain....
or maybe i rather do something else than spending time on typing my heart out...
like what i'm doing right now...aiks....

what do i want to be??

2006-06-17T02:12:00.000+08:00

Throughout my training period for three months at a design consultant company, that is when I realized my standards of being an interior designer (trainee). Although I am just a trainee, the pressure of trying to do the best has always been there but truthfully, it was still not the best.

During the training period, I was exposed to the real working world that made me decide that throughout a period of time, I need to be a better designer. In order to achieve that, I want to be a learner. I want to know/learn more about designing, more on construction drawings, more on CAD skills, more about the aesthetic values, more on documentation and more on anything that can make me progress in the term of a designer.

When I see myself in the coming years, I want to be someone who is able to handle a project, to be able to design for the company, to be able to teach other designers, to be able to impress certain parties and to be able to form a constructive portfolio of my own.

I want to be experienced, exposed and, of course, independent.

I rather set a smaller goal now before heading for bigger one because who knows where the tide might take. I believe in being a learner first because I am sure that I still have not gained much confidence in this field to rule the world of my life.

updates...

2006-04-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

1. so finally, my training officially ends yesterday.

2. and yes, working part-time is my plan and the Boss seems ok with that. and that's cause there r lots of projects in hand. but he's kind.

3. i've actually earned RM 750 in two and a half month(training period). my first ever earned allowance. and with my dad's rm 200 a month...I"M RICH...... :D (heheheh...where can i spend them??? )

p/s: mary.... that's for japan.. :D

4. sis has finally started painting her house (last week actually). the effect was totally not what i thought it will be. but yet the mood is nice.
p/s: i'm a lousy designer.

5. and in less than a year, i'll hopefully have a little baby to play with. and i'll be the "Godmother" :D (yay!yay!)

How and where will I be when I’m 25???

2006-03-27T14:43:00.000+08:00

It’s been a while since I’ve been searching for myself. Now, I hopefully + with a 60 % of full confidence think that I know what I am doing.

Remember I once told about my search-for-a-training place??? And on how much I wanted to go to this certain company but never got the chance and Te Draftech my current based training place) was a like a last stop??? Flashbacks to that and now I am really grateful to have that path shown before me. I, definitely, begin to understand myself since I worked here. Or so I think, for now…

Coming to the exact point,

My diploma course = I still have ¡ almost half a year to finish my course
And I have one final project where I’m going to design a
ChillOut Bar; if my proposal is approved by “the authorities of
MIA’s ID course” where they’ll most likely will…

At my training company = Big BOSS offered me a permanent job at the company
itself . Once again he marked his words about diploma
“ the cert” and how much is it’s worth and that college are
money suckers.He stressed that it’s a given opportunity and
I should consider the offer to my very best.

What that I liked about his approach is that he’s willing to
train and teach me. Despite what else he’s thinking in his
mind, at least he can accept me even though I’m lousy.

What I am thinking = when boss offered_ I was thrilled and happy and was being
practical by defending college and my boss gave me time to
think while doing my work_ what my boss said seems practical and
I started seeing myself as a working person. I wanted to stop
college. Forgetting diploma. If things turn out worse, I
even planned to continue from where I stopped back at MIA again

Other people ( friends, brother,
sis, the seniors) = all of them stressed that it’s better to have a diploma in hand
as they are sure I won’t stick at the company forever. And I feel the same way, too…

So I concluded = Yup, I’ll get my diploma first!!! Let things work out later on.

_____all this happened on 16 MARCH 2006

_____ and now, I’m searching for “what do I really want”

That’s no joke. I really appreciate the college arranging the training program in our course. It’s like an eye- opener. It makes me realize so much. It let’s me wonder…. What am I doing in this field??? Is this really what I want??? Can I survive??? Or will I ever be able to cope, to be able to think by myself???

You see, I was required to help my seniors to complete drawings. And I think I messed it up. That’s because I’m blur. I’m still immature. I’m still dependent.
What the college thought is so different than what I am learning at the training place. I don’t feel like attending college (p/s: don’t worry. That’s just for now…) and I’ve missed it twice in a row, already. I’m dead fed-up of everything!!! College and working place and myself…

When I see how much in demand my sis and my bro-in-law are at their working place, I reflect back this situation on myself and I see failure. Well, maybe you are saying I’m still young and there’s still plenty of space and I’ll reflect back to my brother. He’s young…but he’s much soughted as well. So what’s wrong with me???

So now, I’m back to zero…I dunno what I am doing or what do I really know….

Aaarghhh…pressure..pressure….. I think I can’t handle pressure!!!

P/s: the title reflects everything I’m thinking…. Where will I REALLY be when I’m 25???
There’s only 5 years to go…. I just wish I would be a better person by then….

2006-03-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

final project proposal_case study luna bar_cool place coz of it;s location on top of regency hotel's roof ***ROOF**
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